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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

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    06 Jan 2026

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    Four times Ilya Rozanov reminded everyone exactly who the fuck they were dealing with (spoiler: still an asshole, still elite, still not going anywhere), and one time he didn’t have to be anything except soft.

    Or being out didn’t make him nicer. Being married didn’t make him softer. Being older didn’t make him weaker. And being a father? Well. That’t when things get complicated.

    (He’s really good at that last part. Don’t tell anyone.)

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    01 Jan 2026

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    "Someone did this to me."

    Ilya can only nod, knowing that there's not much else to say. What comfort can he offer, when he can only imagine the turmoil that Shane must feel?

    "You're safe now," he offers, hoping that it can offer some measure of solace.

    Shane's eyes flit back to him, wide and swallowed up by a tangle of emotions.

    "I always was," he says, his voice hushed. "You were there."

    • • • • •

    Shane is drugged by heat inducers at the club, and Ilya is there to help him through it.

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    29 Dec 2025

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    Ilya doesn't remember the moment his head hit the pavement or the sound of screeching brakes.

    He's forgotten he ever left Russia, and the names Yuna Hollander and her son, Shane, mean nothing to him, though they clearly know him pretty well.

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    27 Dec 2025

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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    27 Dec 2025