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“Look, it’s not because I don’t,” Cassie breaks the silence, then shakes her head and looks away, a quiet noise of disbelief leaving her, “We just can’t. Okay?”
Another nod. Victoria’s mouth is incredibly dry.
“But..you want to?”
McKay lets her head hang. “We can’t. I can’t.”
“Because of your ex?” Victoria probes. Everything inside her is screaming at her to stop. She doesn’t know why she can’t. She doesn’t know why she can’t just shut up. But McKay is…right here and her messy bangs and her heavy eyes and her wet mouth just -
“Because I wanna be good,” McKay says simply.
Javadi is a nervous wreck and McKay struggles with self-restraint. Until she doesn't.
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01 Apr 2026
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Dean turns to face him. His lashes are clumped together with unshed tears.
“My dad just died,” he croaks out.
In which love is the thing that saves.
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29 Mar 2026
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It’s been excruciating all this time without Dean and now he’s finally here. Cas wants to soak Dean in, wants to scrub him clean of the prison grime and smooth away the new lines that have formed on his hardened face. He wants to breathe him in and re-catalogue every freckle. Instead he watches Dean disappear down the hall and slam his bedroom door.
This isn’t how it was supposed to go.
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11 Mar 2026
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What started as a collection of drabbles exploring the idea that Dean and Cas had a sexual relationship prior to 15x18. Now has a plot of its own. Very angsty due to canon-compliance.
Not every chapter is explicit; they are tagged individually. Each chapter is around 2k words.
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11 Mar 2026
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What begins as a transforming love between Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak in the summer of 1965 quickly derails into something far more tumultuous when Dean is drafted in the Vietnam War. Though the two both voice their relationship is one where saying goodbye is never a real truth, their story becomes fraught with the tragedy of circumstance. In an era where homosexuality was especially vulnerable, Twist and Shout is the story of the love transcending time, returning over and over in its many forms, as faithful as the sea.
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10 Mar 2026
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genuinely made me want to kill myself, best thing I’ve ever read