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waiting for this cough syrup to come down by vcllaneve
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
14 Aug 2024
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Hanbin wants to whisper back that he’s the only one who will ever be this good to him, that Matthew deserves to have him like this whenever he wants and he’ll agree every single time. If seeing him like this—flushed and wrecked—meant making stupid pinky promises, he would do it.
or, hot chocolate is made but not consumed.
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15 Aug 2024
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“I need to go home.”
“This is home, Matthew,” Hanbin whispers. He leans his head onto Matthew’s and wishes they could just meld into one, a single entity. Matthew and Hanbin.
“Maybe with you it is, but you’ll be gone too.”
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Seok Yujin knows three things for absolute certain:
- He graduates high school in two weeks,
- His nineteenth birthday is in a month and a half, and
- His dad has never told him who his other father is.
(Or: Mamma Mia, here Matthew goes again.)
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Matthew does not hate his body. At least, not most days. It is a body that has been fought for, bled for, carefully shaped over years of struggle, tears, and cautious victory. Being kind to it is a conscious effort, sometimes done with gritted teeth and simmering resentment, but he is trying, god help him, he is trying
After one night in 2022 alters Matthew's life forever, he has spent a slow, years-long journey towards some new kind of whole. Now, in 2028, he has achieved an unconventional but loving support system, a fulfilling career, and a wound that is mostly stitched closed. But when his world collides with Sung Hanbin's again, everything changes.
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19 Jun 2025
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just excellent writing. absolutely beautiful.
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forever, for the moon by vcllaneve for deadsapphicssociety
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
12 Nov 2024
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Matthew who only ever worked hard but still knew to stop when he reached his limit. The same Matthew would hold Hanbin’s hand and lead him away from his worries because he knew that Hanbin could never recognize his own limits. It pains Hanbin to see him like this: dispirited, scared, and small.
or, matthew hurts. hanbin feels it too.
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13 Nov 2024
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There’s something about this version of Matthew that makes Hanbin want to hold and protect him from everything wrong in the world.
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“You know, I’ve always associated you with daisies,” Hanbin says.
or: Zhang Hao, a daisy. Hanbin, the sun. Every version of the story is the same.
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18 Mar 2025
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When Hanbin smiles, Hao can see the future pressed into his face—can see what Hanbin will look like when he grows old, after many, many years of living and loving.
He will be so beautiful then. Hao hopes he’ll be there to see it.