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  1. Public Bookmark 57

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    November 2015

    Nothing had changed.

    Yes, they were on a first-name basis now. Yes, they had been texting nearly every day for the last two months. But Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander both knew better: none of this meant anything.

    When he comes to Montreal for the first proper Bears-Voyageurs game of the season, Ilya expects his routine with Shane to stay much the same as it has been for the past half-decade. They’ll meet at Shane’s secret investment property after the game, and part ways well before morning.

    Shane agrees. (No, really.)

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    17 Mar 2026

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    They have spent nine years almost. Almost together, almost over it, almost ready to say the thing neither of them has said. Then one night changes everything and almost stops being an option.

    or: the toxic Hollanov you have always wanted

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    16 Mar 2026

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    ShaneHollanderHockeyPlayer, 9:13pm: I choose you. Over hockey. Over everything. It’s always been you. I’m sorry we didn’t have more time together. I’m sorry I was so scared. Whatever happens, please try to be okay. For me. Tell my parents I love them. That I hope I made them proud.
    Я люблю тебя больше всего на свете, Илья. Я выбираю тебя.

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    The Voyageur's plane goes down. Ilya and Shane are left to deal with the repercussions.

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    15 Mar 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 85

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov got married in secret and for two whole years, they lived their life quietly.

    They broke apart quietly, too.

    The worst part is that none of it feels right. Not their continued rivalry on the ice, not the divorce papers on Shane’s table, and definitely not the idea of saying goodbye. There are too many wounds untouched, too many things left unsaid, and too much love between them still.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    "Do you ever wonder-"

    "Oh god, yes," Ilya blurts out before he can even register the words leaving his lips. "Literally all the time."

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    AU where Ilya does cut things off before the cottage and Shane lets him.

    He watches Shane’s life and career from a safe distance, secretly looking forward to any games when they’d share the ice.

    Years on, Shane publicly comes out and transfers to the Ottawa Centaurs out of necessity.

    A story of repair. Eventually.

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    09 Mar 2026