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Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
23 Dec 2025
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“Nesta.”
She doesn’t turn. Doesn’t move.
The bond in his chest is screaming. Her emotions crash over him in waves—despair, worthlessness, exhaustion, and underneath it all, a terrible calm. The calm of someone who’s made a decision.
“Step down.” His voice comes out harder than he intends. The voice of a general. But inside, he’s begging for her to listen.
“Go away.” Her voice is hollow. Empty. Nothing like the sharp, cutting tone he’s used to. Nothing like the fire he’s always admired.
This is worse than her anger. It’s defeat.
“No.” He takes a careful step closer, hands out like he’s approaching a spooked animal. “I’m not leaving.”
“I don’t want you here.”
“I don’t care.” Another step. The bond is pulling tight in his chest, urging him closer. Keep her safe. Keep her alive. “I’m not leaving you alone.”
He feels a flicker of something. Confusion, maybe. Or frustration that he won’t just let her do this.
“Please,” she whispers, and the word breaks his heart. “Please just go.”
“Not a chance, sweetheart.”
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When Cassian realizes how deep his harsh words hurt Nesta on Soltice, he takes her out of Velaris and brings her to Illyria.
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24 Dec 2025
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Heavy In Your Arms by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
24 Nov 2025
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"Excuse me," she manages, standing abruptly. The room tilts slightly, and she has to catch herself on the back of her chair.
"Are you alright?" Feyre is half out of her seat, concern etched across her features.
"Yes," she says. "I just need some air."
"You look pale," Cassian says quietly. He's watching her with those sharp hazel eyes that see too much. "Maybe you should—"
"I said I'm fine." The words come out sharper than she intends, but another cramp is building and she needs to get out of here before she breaks down in front of them. Before they have more ammunition to use against her.
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Nesta's first fae cycle hits during a tense family dinner, but she doesn't understand what's happening to her body. Determined not to show weakness, she pushes through the pain until she collapses during training the next morning. When Cassian discovers the extent of her suffering, everything changes.
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24 Nov 2025
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The chair scraped against the stone as he stood.
"Everyone hates you! And you know something –"
As he said the words, a bellow that echoed off the walls, Cassian took a step forward, towards her, as if he was unable to resist pulling in her direction, when they fought like this.
But she didn't meet him halfway, as she had in the past.
No, instead, when his body moved, Nesta flinched.
Flinched so violently that she yielded two steps back, her body stumbling over the chair behind her, the silverware rattling with the force of it.
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Beneath Your Fingertips (I Unravel) by This_Immortal_Hope
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22 Jul 2025
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In Cassian’s mind, he wrote sonnets to this moment. Committed the view, the way she didn’t recoil from his gaze or sink deeper into the water, to his permanent memory. In his mind, he told her how achingly beautiful she was. How brave she was. He fell to his knees, dinner tray be damned, and sobbed. Admitted that the moments in which he thought she had been taken from him were the worst of his 500 years of life. Worse than any pain he could fathom. Cassian was no stranger to pain, always managed it with a stiff upper lip and a few bad jokes.
He knew, in that moment, that if Nesta had not returned from the depths of Oorid, neither would he. He would have rather the Middle claimed his immortal soul than face the reality of leaving that place without her.
In his mind, Cassian said all of that.
Out loud, he barely managed, “I … You.”
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To Tame A Beast by jsmelodies
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24 Jul 2025
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When Nesta is sacrificed to the monster in the woods, she doesn’t expect to like him.
Or to trap him in a snare. Or to force him into a bargain. But what’s a woman to do?
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31 Jul 2025