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  1. Rec 29

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    When Crowley entered the flat, a cloud of stagnant air came out of it. It seemed that Shax had either not known that she could vent, or had not cared. He walked it anyway, threw his sunglasses in some corner and crumbled on the couch, face down.

     

    Crowley was tired.

     

    He wanted to sleep, and only wake up again, when everything was magically solved, or when the world was ending again, to look him in the eyes, when everything they had both called home over the last centuries was destroyed by some nutter in heaven or hell.

     

    Crowley is left behind on earth by the only person he cared for. He does not take it well.

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    27 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    beautiful. I legit love it. spent a good 3 hours reading this it's currently 1:15 am. I can't recommend this enough. 10/10 would read again

  2. Rec 3

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    If Aziraphale were being completely honest with himself, he does not want the position in Heaven. At this moment, he wants nothing more than to slam the Earth button, run home, and sweep Crowley into his arms; holding him close as he whispers words of love.

    He fantasizes about an eternity with Crowley; an eternity filled with domestic bliss.

    He imagines a scene from their life together: Crowley prunes the rose bushes in their cottage garden and rants about the neighbor kids running on the lawn. He supportively nods and offers him a refreshing drink.

    He thinks about furnishing his library with two comfortable armchairs, seated side-by-side, and finally getting around to reading through his backlog of novels.

    But Aziraphale is rarely honest with himself. And so he finds himself standing next to The Metatron, the latter’s face stoic and unreadable, during a painfully quiet ride towards Heaven; having convinced himself he, alone, needs to manage it. 


    Aziraphale goes to Heaven to make a difference. Crowley is left behind and waits for Aziraphale to come home to him. He never returns.

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    27 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    very beautifully written

  3. Rec 1

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    "It's all... it's all wrong," he muttered, the words tumbling out in a disjointed stream. "Six thousand years, and for what? To be left behind? To be... discarded?" He paused briefly, his gaze fixed on some distant point beyond the café's walls. In that moment, the weight of eternity seemed to press down upon his shoulders, bowing them slightly.
    "I thought... I really thought..." Crowley's voice trailed off, the unfinished sentence hanging in the air like a fragile, gossamer thread.
    Suddenly, he whirled to face Nina, his face contorting with a pain so raw it was almost palpable. "He's gone," Crowley choked out, the words seeming to physically pain him. "Aziraphale's gone back to Heaven. Left Earth. Left... me."

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    Crowley in the immediate aftermath of Aziraphale leaving him for Heaven.

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    26 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    beautiful

  4. Rec 11

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    Crowley's been drunk for 3 months. Aziraphale walked out of his life and he walked straight into his car, then his flat, then a mind numbing state of alcoholic bliss where he's done nothing but cry, sleep, and get belligerently hammered.

    Then Aziraphale had to show up and blow the whole bloody thing sky high.

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    26 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Good cry. 10/10 would sob again

  5. Rec 6

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    Aziraphale had imagined many times what having his own office in Heaven would be like. Never could he have imagined that it would be this lonely.

    Today Crowley didn't have his best friend to keep him from being consumed by his own mind. He was the only one who could save himself from his thoughts and he didn’t have the energy to do so.

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    In which Aziraphale regrets his decision too late to save Crowley from himself.

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    26 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fuuuuuck this hurts🥲