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  1. Public Bookmark 43

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    "What I'm missing in the daytime, I think my dreams are giving back to me. If that makes sense."

    "No," Hayden says finally. "Sorry. I don't get it."

    Shane is dreaming about someone he doesn't recognise. Shane is grieving something he doesn't know. Those two things are connected, somehow.

    Ilya is stuck in an airport. Ilya is stuck. Ilya is-

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    20 May 2026

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    changed my life and this is not a hyperbole

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    Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"

    Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."

    "Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"

    Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."

    Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.

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    19 May 2026

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    wonderful wonderful wonderful

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    14 May 2026

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    oh my shanya... they don't deserve you

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    From the day Shane is born, David promises to protect him from everything—especially from the kind of love that comes with conditions.

    But as Shane grows up talented, visible, and quietly different, David learns that even the safest homes can teach a child how to make himself smaller.

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    13 May 2026

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    david hollander povs you are so dear to me

  5. Public Bookmark 63

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    “Um, Jackie said I should fuck Shane,” Hayden blurted out. He dropped his fork. “Uh, shit, that came out wrong. Jackie said I’m, uh…in love with him?” He wasn’t really talking to either Shane or Ilya, just staring at the space between them. “Or, um…”

    Ilya stared at Hayden for a few moments before laughing so hard and so loud that he let go of Shane’s thigh and grabbed the edge of the table. Shane whipped around to half-glare at him.

    “I’m not joking!” Hayden said, his voice pitching up. “Roz, fuck—shut up, dude!”

    Or, Hayden’s near-decade-old hallpass list gets dusted off.

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    06 May 2026

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    fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkk hayden as hollanov's third why you heal me like that