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eat your young by paocai
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is fifteen when he wins the Hunger Games. He may be the youngest victor in history, but he's already hit his growth spurt and stands broad-shouldered and tall over the other tributes. It's no wonder, the Capitol whispers. He's already so handsome. He's not even eighteen, and the bids for his company must be astronomical.
A year later, Ilya’s record is broken by a fourteen-year-old from Four named Shane Hollander.
Ilya is twenty-six when they're sent back to the arena.
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In Our Bedroom After The War by paocai
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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“How old were you the first time you had sex?”
“Fourteen," Ilya says.
Shane’s eyebrows fly toward his hairline. “Really?”
“It’s not that young.”
“It’s a kid.”
Ilya tries not to bristle. His mother had died two years earlier. He didn’t feel too young for anything after that.
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- Part 2 of Metamorphoses
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the bones i’m about to leave by paocai
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Feb 2026
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Kent’s arm slams against a locker, body angling until he’s blocking the exit. “What, you’re suddenly too good for us?”
Shane is fucking tired. It was bad enough dealing with snide remarks all game and his shoulder still twinges from a suspect slam into the boards. The last thing he wants to deal with is a belligerent Dallas Kent. “Try scoring a goal next time and I might change my mind.”
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The world ends. Somehow, Shane has to keep going.
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- Part 1 of Metamorphoses
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“He’s such a fucking asshole.”
“We all hate Rozanov, Hollander.”
They hated Rozanov the same way they hated any arrogant, opposing player. It wasn’t enough. They didn’t hate him the same way Shane did—viscerally, all-consuming and down to his very bones.
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Shane Hollander hates Ilya Rozanov from the moment he first lays eyes on him.
(Ilya doesn’t hate him at first, but he learns to.)
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my little loon, why do you cry? by paocai
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Dec 2025
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Ilya was born cursed. Death trails him like a stray dog, making him its unwitting master. Despite his best efforts, Shane Hollander had managed to slip past with a painfully earnest combination of freckles and doe-eyes.
Ilya should have known better than to think it would last.
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“He gives the wood kisses, and the wood shrinks from the kisses.
The god said to her, since you can't be my bride, at least
you will certainly be my tree!”- Words:
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Loosely connected one-shots of Shane and Ilya’s relationship, as told through BDSM.
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When the Day Met the Night by paocai
Fandom Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
31 Dec 2016
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a continuation of ‘all these measured steps.’ the storm has passed, but the silence feels just as loud. Ilya and Shane navigate fragility in their new routines and learn a little about what it means to love someone and succumb to being loved in return.
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- Part 2 of all these measured steps
Bookmarked by paocai
20 Dec 2025
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“Loving someone feels like being handed something fragile in a house where things have always broken.”
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It all makes sense.
Ilya has probably already reached out to the next person on his list — someone less boring, less demanding, more responsive to instructions. Obedient. Maybe untouched. Perhaps as inexperienced as Shane was in 2008. Someone good.
After all, Shane has nothing left to offer anymore.
— The aftermath of their Las Vegas encounter leaves Shane struggling to stay afloat. Ilya isn't there to help.
Another alternate version of what happens after s01e02.Bookmarked by paocai
01 Jan 2026
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“He also wishes they could kiss. He can't remember the last time they did it, but everything went wrong when they stopped.”
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About Summer by chaentics for inkingbrushes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.
or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.
Bookmarked by paocai
09 Feb 2026
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“He touches the shapeless static in Ilya’s body and closes his eyes for the first time, and he just feels. He’s so hot against Shane’s palms he burns, scalding water. Shane’s eyes fill in for him: he must be dark pink or red, a hot color, maybe sunshine warm, because the humming of cicadas is surely the color of gold.”
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“Marlow’s death is a tragedy for the hockey community. We lost an athlete at the peak of his career, well before his time.”
“Our hearts go out to Boston.”
“This casts a long shadow on Raiders captain Ilya Rozanov. What really happened that night?”
“Yes, lots of speculation about Rozanov, whose year has been nothing but casualty after casualty. Truly bizarre series of events in the hockey world.”
Something dark is going on with Rozanov. A curse from the past that won't let him go.
Shane has his own secrets to protect. No one can ever know what he really is. Not even Ilya.
But if they’re going to tread dangerous water, they might as well do it together.
(Cursed!Ilya and Folktale Creature!Shane, a ghosts and monsters AU)
Bookmarked by paocai
10 Feb 2026
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“He wouldn’t be able to see Shane or Irina anyway; ideas are like ghosts in that way.”
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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Bookmarked by paocai
18 Feb 2026
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“A house that could remember Shane Hollander-Rozanov but could never recreate him - a set of spare keys left in the bowl, a closet half full of clothes that don’t fit him, two tooth brushes, two pairs of shoes, two pillows, two rings; a life with a hole carved out of the middle.“