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Shane and Ilya have been falling in love for as long as they've known each other, this they've both agreed on. Establishing a romantic connection early on into their careers, an injury during what was supposed to be a routine game threatens to sever their ties, sending Ilya in and out of the past and present as he fights for his right to be by Shane's side, all while trying to keep what they mean to each other away from prying eyes.
-- Ilya and Shane are essentially together together in this fic, so it's an exploration of what it would be like for them as an established couple if Shane's injury was much worse than in the book.
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"Panic started to take over as his thoughts spiraled into the worst he could imagine. Porsche bloody and cold, praying Kinn would find him in time. Porsche screaming in pain, cursing Kinn’s name for getting him into the situation in the first place. Porsche, thinking his last words, resigned to his inevitable end. Porsche’s brown eyes, listless and clouded over as his body lost warmth somewhere where he’d never be found."
--Porsche goes missing and Kinn's world falls off its axis.
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Maybe It Didn't Have To Be This Way by screaming_internally
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars Original Trilogy
07 Jul 2024
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"But when he looked back, Obi-Wan wasn’t with him. He was too far behind, standing amidst the unsteady sand, waiting. Looking at Luke like he was saying goodbye. Forget the frostbitten fear he had felt looking at his father, this fear was worse. Infinitely so. It was hot and furious and filled him with so much dread it felt like he’d be sick."
Luke watches his entire life end by the blade of Vader's saber. And then he wakes up.
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No Glory in the West by screaming_internally
Fandoms: Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy
07 Feb 2024
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It’s somehow the throw away statements Anakin hurls around that always seem to hurt the most. As if accusing Obi-Wan of something he hadn’t spent his life agonizing over since he was thirteen, finally realizing why Quin from home had caught his eye when Siri hadn’t, didn’t terrify him every still moment of his life. Like he wasn’t petrified of being the reason Anakin’s body would be found, wasting away in some ditch somewhere, all because Obi-Wan couldn’t hide himself away in the ways that mattered.
(Qui-Gon is the only reason Obi-Wan's still alive, this he's sure of. So it's only right that when he ends up dead Obi-Wan's the one to find who killed him. And if the ranch hand Qui-Gon had taken under his wing insists on helping him find the killer, who is he to say no?)
(Welcome to my indulgent obikin cowboy x sad british orphan murder mystery AU)
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Hold My Hand, It's Gone Cold by screaming_internally
Fandoms: D.P. | Deserter Pursuit (TV)
07 Feb 2024
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He’s cold. He’s been cold. He can feel it clinging to him, slowly sinking through his uniform, down into his skin and settling in his bones. It feels like numbness, like failure coursing through all the way to his finger tips and down to his toes.
Cold feels like Suk-bong’s blood coating his hands as it drips down his face.
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Shane’s voice was almost a whisper as he admitted, “I fucked up.”
Ilya stopped in his tracks, “What do you mean?”
“He knows. Scott Hunter fucking knows.”
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OR: Shane calls Ilya crying after the fight. Ilya yells at Scott Hunter about it.
*Now with Kip's POV in part 2!Series
- Part 4 of Episode Aftercare
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19 Dec 2025
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“I am to fall in love,” he says casually, “I am to be tempted with abandoning my people, and then I am to prove myself fit to rule through her sacrifice.”
“What,” says Sieun, which is the only appropriate thing that can come out of his mouth.
“I have to kill the one I love,” says Suho, with the inflection of someone commenting on the weather, “before the tide drowns me and all my people.”
Sieun wants to sink to the ground and then sink through, until Suho is no longer here.
Or: A magical prince is sent to Yeon Sieun's world. He navigates that just fine.
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21 Jul 2025
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“I don’t know what you want from me,” Sieun admits. “I don’t know why you won’t come back inside.”
Suho, always expressive, really does roll his eyes. “You do know. That’s why you took my place, why you ignored my calls. You know exactly how I feel.”
OR: Sieun refuses to let Su-ho go.
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07 Jul 2025
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“My arch-nemesis has a husband, so what?” 19-year-old Suho rolls his eyes using, apparently, 26-year-old Suho’s body. “Yeon Sieun’s marriage has nothing to do with me. Try again. A more interesting fact.”
Baku offers him a look somewhere between pity and exasperation. “You’re the husband.”
Or: One minute, Suho’s filing for divorce. The next, an accident reverts him to nineteen—and his husband is his mortal enemy.
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02 Jul 2025
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the endless possibility of you by pearluminesce
Fandoms: 약한영웅 Class 1 | Weak Hero Class 1 (TV)
13 Jun 2025
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Suho doesn’t survive the coma after Sieun wakes from his. Devastated, Sieun tries to take his own life. He wakes up a year ago, on the day of the mid-terms in Byuksan High—the day he’s supposed to be drugged by Beomseok. If it means never coming close to Suho to save him from his fate, Sieun will do it. He avoids violence at all cost this time, and he avoids Suho. The thing is, the harder Sieun pushes, the harder Suho pulls. Or perhaps, they were always meant to be drawn to each other, to a certain end.
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"We lived and we loved. Maybe that's the point of it all."
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29 Jun 2025