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  1. Rec *

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “…and in that moment, in the afterglow of perfect meaningless sex, Ilya realized his folly: he had miscalculated the math of the cosmic clock. Humans might only exist for eight seconds before midnight, but Shane wasn’t a flicker of a match. He was a celestial event. He was the gravity that pulled Ilya out of his ‘little while’ and into an epoch of wanting. He was here with a beautiful woman, her naked body pressed against his, and she was smart and she was funny and all he could think about was this stupid hockey player, and what movies he might like.”

    SO FUCKING GOOD.

    (Ch.13).

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    Nobody knows why Shane Hollander dropped out of the 2009 draft at the last second, and a year later it stuns the whole hockey world when he's signed by the Boston Raiders. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston - but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    (ch.19).

    Very well done hollanov same team AU.

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Goalie Shane AU.
    Really enjoying this so far. As someone who doesn’t know much about hockey I love finding out about things like how goalies are largely known to be endearing weirdos with odd rituals. It kind of suits Shane in this world.

    (ch.8).

  4. Rec *

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    And suddenly, filling his entire screen, Rozanov was grinning into the camera with a row of bloody teeth. His lip was split. When he wiped his mouth with the back of his bare hand, it came away streaked with red. He spat the rest onto the ice with an awful smile and a wink before getting to his feet.


    Jane: Can you stay in the dressing room?

    Lily: Are you asking or telling?

    Jane: You hate being told what to do.

    Lily: Not when it's you

    Jane: Stay.

    Jane: You looked really fucking good taking that hit.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    That was so fucking hot.

    Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog Supremacy!!!

  5. Rec *

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    25 Jan 2026

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