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    Shane loses his game to a blizzard and his boyfriend to a bad hit, all in the same night.

    Snowed in with his parents in Montreal, he watches Ilya get stretchered off on live TV, and discovers that when your relationship is a secret, no one at the hospital thinks to call you.

    In Ottawa, Ilya wakes up with broken bones, a serious concussion, and a neatly edited brain. The months where he was lonely and depressed and fighting with Shane? Gone. He’s mentally living in the soft, hopeful beginning of things—and the more everyone tiptoes around him, the more wrong it feels.

    The Centaurs step up. The Hollanders dig in. Shane tries to convince himself that “temporary amnesia” is not the same thing as losing him.

    They’re still together. They’re technically fine.

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    12 May 2026

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    For years, Shane Hollander played the game of hockey while hiding in the closet. He kept his eyes on the ice and his heart under lock and key. Every stolen moment with Ilya Rozanov was shadowed by the fear of being caught. He spent a decade collecting "what-ifs" instead of memories.

    Now that he’s officially Mr. Rozanov-Hollander, Shane realizes that "later" is no longer a barrier to overcome. He’s making up for every missed opportunity with a vengeance. Shane has spent a lifetime being careful; now, he’s ready to be brazen, and Ilya is about to find out exactly what happens when his husband stops caring about what others think.

    Les Plaisirs Défendus is French for forbidden pleasures. Shane doesn't have to find these pleasures forbidden anymore.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    June 2018. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are about to execute the first step of their ten-year plan, with Ilya signing with the Ottawa Centaurs when free agency begins on July 1.

    Except Shane accidentally, drunkenly, outs himself to the Montreal Metros at the end of the season. Who are not as okay with it as Shane would have hoped.

    AKA the most eventful Canada Day that the MLH has ever seen.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    “It won’t stop,” Shane said to the floor. His hands slid down and grabbed at his crotch, rubbing frantically over his boxers. “I can’t make it stop.”

    They were still in the fucking hallway, and yes, it was six in the morning, but it was not private. Anyone could walk in, from their own apartments or the elevator. And Shane wasn’t exactly being quiet, gasping and groaning as he massaged himself. Viagra didn’t do this. It didn’t make you lose all sense of space, of boundaries, of… yourself.

    This wasn’t normal. This wasn’t natural.

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    The morning after Ilya watches Shane and Rose together at the club, he gets a call from Shane. Something is wrong, and Shane says Ilya is the only one who can fix it. Ilya knows it's a bad idea, but that's never stopped him before.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    A missing tooth. A standard hockey emergency.

    When a brutal elbow leaves Shane Hollander spitting blood on the ice, he lands immediately in the hands of the opposing team's dentist.

    Shane thinks the dentist saw a cavity. The dentist knows he saw a secret.

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    22 Mar 2026

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