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  1. Public Bookmark 22

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    "What I'm missing in the daytime, I think my dreams are giving back to me. If that makes sense."

    "No," Hayden says finally. "Sorry. I don't get it."

    Shane is dreaming about someone he doesn't recognise. Shane is grieving something he doesn't know. Those two things are connected, somehow.

    Ilya is stuck in an airport. Ilya is stuck. Ilya is-

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    06 May 2026

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    There’s a sign in front of Shane. It says Welcome to Scott Hunter and Kip Grady’s Happily Ever After in a cursive font that makes Shane think of Etsy. Shane’s stomach churns. He briefly squeezes his empty ring finger. He feels, all at once, like he might cry. Instead, he swallows, and breathes, and pastes a smile on his face, and marches his ass down to Scott and Kip’s fucking wedding of the century.

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  3. Public Bookmark 99

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    Ilya is not going to do anything. He knows this. He's also standing very still.

    He thinks about his mother's arm, hanging over the side of the bed. He was twelve. He'd thought she was sleeping.

    He closes the cabinet.

    The face in the mirror is someone he recognizes in the way you recognize a city you lived in as a child: the basic geography is familiar, but you can't find anything you're looking for.

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    Or: A closer look at Ilya’s first year in Ottawa, set against his first in Boston—featuring a long-lost answering machine he claimed he’d never listen to, the family inevitably left behind when you move, and the mostly self-imposed pressure of loving a man as large and looming as the great Shane Hollander.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    Ilya goes to Moscow, and then he goes back home.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    All timer that I cannot read again for the foreseeable future. Bookmarking for a ‘break glass in case of emergency’ situation