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“Stuck in your own head again?” he asks.
Mark inhales a deep breath, rolls his shoulders back, but they still stay tense, worried. “I’m just…” he starts, then stops. Donghyuck waits for him to collect his words - he knows Mark’s mind is racing a million miles an hour, and his tongue never seems to catch up.
“My solo, you know. I’m nervous.” He takes another deep breath, and it sounds unstable, like a million things are cracking and popping in his lungs. It makes Donghyuck’s stomach drop - those breaths sound like the beginning traces of a panic attack.
or: Donghyuck is always there to put Mark back together.
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There’s something that’s keeping him here, a voice in the back of his mind that tells him he can’t leave, not yet. He doesn’t know if Mark has everything he needs to get through this.
Or maybe it’s something else entirely. That something that Donghyuck likes to deny and suppress and fight against every time his friends tease him about it - that he fell for Mark the second he saw him.
or: Donghyuck helps his roommate through his heat. And pines for him immensely.
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He leans in, lips right next to Mark’s ear, “You can’t just wear my sweatshirt around like that and expect me not to pounce on you.”
Mark sucks in a shaky breath and Donghyuck revels in it - for only a moment, though. A grin breaks across Mark’s lips, all pearly white, sparkly eyes behind the rims of his glasses. Usually, Donghyuck would think it’s adorable, but in this current situation, there’s something wicked under it:
You broke your self-control. I’ve won.
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"Thank you,”
“What for?”
For taking care of me sits on the tip of Mark’s tongue. Instead, he says, “For being gentle. For praising me. You know, you’re always so nice even when we’re doing, like, the nastiest shit.” he doesn’t know where it comes from or why he’s saying it now, but it’s all true.
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It’s not, like, a thing.
It’s only happened twice, if you don’t count the time during the pre-season when Max shoved a thigh against George’s crotch, and George, touch-deprived and broken-hearted, let out a sharp gasp and came instantly. Max, looking shocked and frightened, stormed away.
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Bookmarked by nellimatic (yutamatic)
24 Dec 2025
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russtappen meal so good i started thanking the heavens for it. yeah
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Bookmarked by nellimatic (yutamatic)
10 Dec 2025
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tears in my eyes oh you’re done !!!
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“Jongseong, where did you find this wonderful young man?”
Sunghoon half expects Jay to answer honestly, but then remembers that the first time they hooked up, it was almost immediately after Sunghoon finished doing a keg stand that set a fraternity record. Actually, now he’s kind of wondering if that was why Jay dragged him upstairs in the first place – maybe he was drawn to successful men. He couldn’t blame him.
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In the span of one weekend, Sunghoon has to go from pretending he’s not sleeping with Jay to pretending they’re deeply in love. He regrets every decision that got him to this point.spin off of nothing counts after midnight
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- Part 2 of the force of our impact, the fission
Bookmarked by jongiematic (yutamatic)
29 Jan 2024
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this fic messed me up for literal weeks, and will continue to mess me up for probably the rest of time. because… holy shit?? QOWJFBFJKEJAJ??? like. every time i read a word of this fic i turn into the guy from that day 2 no hating meme. falling to my knees and screaming and crying and everything. yeah. this ruined my life in the best way
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It starts with Don't Need Your Love — where it ends is entirely somewhere else.
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Bookmarked by yutamatic
12 Jun 2021
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my stomach is churning, my lungs are collapsing, my heart is shattering into pieces. this fic is beautiful. absolutely destroyed me. wow. fuck
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And it’s not like Sunghoon has spent an embarrassing amount of time thinking about what it’d be like to date Jay. Of course not. They’re best friends. That would be weird as hell.
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Sunghoon buries years worth of pining to teach Jay all he knows about gay sex. What could possibly go wrong?
Bookmarked by jongiematic (yutamatic)
15 Jul 2025
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this is literally so insane. one of my favorite jayhoon fics ever dude