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“I'm glad to be home," Alec says, as they make their way into the loft.
“I'm glad you're home," Magnus says in return and reaches out to interlock their fingers.
Alec takes a deep breath like he's finally able to breathe again and gently strokes his thumb over the back of Magnus' hand.
“I know it's only been a few days, but… by the Angel, I've missed you. I hate fighting with you," Alec whispers, a slight blush painting his cheeks.
A small smile tuggs at Magnus' lips as he looks at the Shadowhunter. He raises his hand to gently cup Alec's jaw, eyes flickering across Alec's face.
“I've missed you too darling. Let's agree to always be honest with each other and to hear the other out, no matter how difficult it might be. We can figure out the rest together," Magnus says and Alec closes his eyes at that, leaning into his lover's touch.
“I'd like that."
They smile at each other for a moment, simply enjoying the moment.
“Can I kiss you?" Alec eventually asks, not really wanting to break the comfortable silence around them.
“Oh Alexander...," Magnus whispers and brushes his thumb lightly over Alec's bottom lip, “You never have to ask.“
Alec smiles at that and cups Magnus' hand in his own. He turns it around to gently kiss the palm of Magnus' hand and Magnus feels the pieces of his broken heart slowly mending back together. He knew Alec was hurting after Magnus had left the Institute that night but it never occurred to him just how badly.
Alecthen leans down to kiss him, silencing Magnus’ thoughts.
The kiss is slow, a soft and tender brush of lips. They move carefully, as if they are afraid to break one another. Alec doesntd realise they were moving at all until his legs hit the side of the bed. He breaks the kiss just so that he can look at Magnus properly again. The love and gratitude he feels in that moment reflected in Magnus' eyes, and he can't help but tear up a little at the sight. He closes his eyes quickly and pulls Magnus into another breathtaking kiss.
With shaking fingers Alec tries to open the buttons on Magnus' shirt but fails miserably. He quietly curses between kisses which causes Magnus to burst into giggles and he stills Alec's hands by trapping them between his own. He beams up at him and Alec feels himself falling in love all over.
Magnus lets go of Alec's hands to strip himself out of his clothes. Alec can only watch and Magnus loves every second of it.
He loves the way his eyes darken with lust, his mouth agape, lips pink and kiss-swollen, hair rumpled.
What a sight for sore eyes, Magnus thinks dreamily. He smirks at his lover and gently pulls him down on the mattress after he takes Alec's shirt off and tosses it on the ground.
“These...," Magnus says and pulls lightly at Alec's pants, “need to get off."
Alec chuckles and helps Magnus to get rid of his pants. Magnus then begins to kiss a trail down Alec's body. He kisses every rune, every scar, every part of skin that he can find and Alec writhes beneath him.
“Magnus..," Alec sighs, “I want you."
Magnus gazes into his lover's eyes for a moment, allowing himself to get lost in those beautiful hazel eyes. "You have me."
Alec lets out a strangled sound at that and Magnus moves back up in an instant, lovingly kissing the other one's nose.
“Alexander," Magnus murmurs as he watches Alec’s chest rise and fall frantically, his eyes shut tightly.
“Love? What's wr-“
“I'm sorry," Alec interrupts, the sound barely audible.
Magnus stops dead. The Shadowhunter opens his eyes without really looking at his boyfriend and Magnus sees the tears glistening in those deep hazel eyes.
“Magnus I- I am so, so sorry for lying to you, for...for everything I've put you through..," he sobs, the words caught in his throat," I can’t even begin to say…“
“Stop it Alexander," Magnus says and he feels his own tears burn behind his eyelids. Alec turns his head sideways, unable to look at his boyfriend.
“Sweetheart...," he tries again and Alec moves benath him. Magnus looks down at him, his heart beating in his chest painfully. Alec looks so vulnerable and small, Magnis barely recognises him.
The warlock lets himself down on Alec's body so that they are chest to chest, not an inch of space left between them. He lets one hand wander in Alec's hair while the other is gently caressing the younger one's face. When he feels Alec relax under his touch, he soeaks again.
“Can you look at me, Alexander?“ Alec whimpers and Magnus wishes he could take all of his pain away.
“There's nothing to be sorry for," Magnus says and leans down to press a soft kiss to Alec's damp cheek. "But I forgive you if that is what you need to hear,“ He presses a kiss to the corner of Alec's mouth, “I love you," his lips brushing against Alec's. “And there is nothing...," he whispers while lovingly kissing the corner of Alec's eye, “that can make me love you less."
Magnus' thumb slowly caresses the frown between his lover's eyebrows in order to ease the tension there. Alec exhales deeply, not realising he had been holding his breath the whole time.
“Look at me please," Magnus begs and Alec obeys this time. He looks up at Magnus through thick and wet eyelashes and feels his heartbeat quicken. He has to blink a few times, not prepared for the sight of Magnus' cat eyes staring down at him. They are so beautiful, he thinks. He would never get tired of looking at them.
“You, Alec Lightwood, are the great love of my long life. And it doesn't matter how many people there were before you and it won't matter whether there is going to be a person after you because you are the one and I am going to love you for the rest of my immortal life. Nothing can ever change that."
Alec's breath hitches at that and he reaches out a hand to cup the side of Magnus' face. When he sees how Magnus' eyes start to water, he feels his heart ache for him. He didn't realise he was crying again until Magnus leaned down to kiss away a stray tear on his cheekbone.
“You know that you're it for me too, right?” Alec says when he feels like he could trust his voice again. “Shadowhunters only really fall in love once in their life and I already know that I want to spend the rest of mine with you. I know I can't promise you forever, hell I can't even promise you the next week. But what I can promise you is that I will not leave until then and that I will love you with all my heart until the day it stops beating. The Angel knows I will love you even long after that."
Magnus smiles a sad smile at that. He knew that he would lose Alec one day. He knew that he could lose him tomorrow. But even the thought of that would overwhelm him with a feeling of grief unlike anything he ever felt before. He couldn't bear it. He could spend a lifetime with Alec and it still wouldn't be enough. Nothing could prepare him for the loss he would feel. Magnus knew in his heart that he would never be ready for the day he would have to say goodbye forever.
That horrible realisation crashes down on him at once, shaking him to his very core. He closes the remaining distance between them and hides his face in the crook of Alec's neck, breathing in the familiar scent, letting the feeling of safety consume him and wash away the darkness that is threatening to capture his heart.
“I love you," he whispers into Alec's skin over and over again, like a prayer.
Alec wraps his arms protectively around the warlock's body, the thought of having to leave Magnus one day tugging at his heart.
“I know how you feel right now. I feel the same way," he said, voice thick with tears, “But I love you- for as long as you’ll have me,"
Alec promises and Magnus relaxes in his arms. He pulls himself up on his elbows to gaze down at his boyfriend and Magnus’ features soften visibly.
“Then there is no way I am ever letting you go," Magnus reassures him, a sweet smile tugging at the corner of his lips.
Alec stares up at his boyfriend, golden eyes full of love and trust and he knew then and there that he would gladly spent the rest of his life loving Magnus. He would cross the world and bare the oceans if that’s what it took to show him. He sees Magnus‘ gaze flicker to his lips and his smile grows even wider at that. He puckers his lips, asking to be kissed and Magnus goes willingly.
They smile against each others lips, barely kissing, before Magnus decides to lean down to press a chaste kiss against Alec's deflect rune. He traces the form with his tongue before he bites down and Alec moans at that, his fingers digging into the flesh of Magnus' back.
Their hearts still feel heavy from their earlier confessions and there's a burning ache in their chests that just won't seem to vanish, but they are alive and together and that os honestly more than they ever hoped they would get. They would be okay because at the end of the day they would always have each other.
It is then that Magnus starts to kiss him again properly; slowly, lovingly. There is no rush really. All that matters is them, feeling and breathing, whispering sweet nothings and declarations of love into each other's ear. They can't tear their eyes away, but if they do, it is only to press hungry kisses to each other's skin.
They move in sync, a mess of lips and limps, and it still doesn't feel close enough. Alec clings to Magnus harder, nails pressing into skin, his head tucked into his neck and the warlock is there to catch him, to hold him, to ground him and Alec melts right into it.
Their desperate kissing slows down after a while, both too tired to let it go further. They hold each other close, Magnus softly kissing the top of Alec's head and reaches out to trace his fingers around a small bruise on Alec's hip. He loves seeing Alec like this, so unguarded and free, covered in Magnus' love marks. He admires the way they stand out in contrast to the Shadowhunter's pale skin.
“I don't know about you love, but I could definitely use a drink and a warm bath right now," He gazes up at his boyfriend who looks at him with a fond expression.
“Just a few more minutes," Alec whispers, "I don't want to let go of you yet" He snuggles even closer, his hand coming to rest across Magnus' chest; right above his heart.
Alec thought about everything they had to go through in the past. There were many bumps along the road, obstacles they had to overcome. He knew that they were always going to face challenges and that they had tough times ahead.
But right here, right now, loving him is easy.
Falling in love with Magnus is by far the easiest thing Alec‘s ever done.