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As Seungmin was finally alone in his room, he excitedly took the package that was hidden under his bed. He had received it a few days ago but hadn’t been able to open it since it was hard to actually find some alone time in the dorm without fearing someone entering the room. His fingers quickly teared open the package, revealing a bright green colour enveloped in some more plastic. Seungmin started growing impatient and it was getting harder to open the thing as he could feel himself slipping.
When the onesie was finally out, Seungmin had fully slipped. He hardly contained his squeal of happiness and instantly got up and put it on, bouncing up and down a little when he almost lost balance. His brows furrowed as he focused on buttoning the onesie the right way, his tongue sticking out. Then, when he was done, he put the hood on and waddled to the mirror. Seungmin made the biggest smile and put his hands as claws, roaring at his own reflection.
He turned a little, trying to see the back. He giggled when he saw the round blue spikes on his back and the long dinosaur tail. Finally, he was a dinosaur! He roared one more time and started playing pretend by himself, imagining preys in his room that he had to hunt down.
And when he got tired of his game, he laid on the ground and hid under his bed. It was darker than the rest of the room and there was actually not a lot of space, he couldn’t really move anything besides his fingers, but he liked it there. While his other hand was tightly holding his dog plushie, his fingers were tracing the lines on the wood of the slatted bed case. Little Seungmin liked the sensation of the wood under his fingers, and he let his thoughts run free, taking him in great adventures. He was a daydreamer, there was no doubt. Though there were times when, out of headspace, he would wonder if little him loved hiding under the bed because it felt less alone, as if he was out of the world to enter his own, in his head, that was full of friends. But he didn’t like thinking about that. He’d rather think about dinosaurs and running after preys and protecting his eggs and other dinosaurs against predators; but he was by far the scariest dinosaur in town, so he had no doubt they should be ok. No one would dare attack him nor his friends when he had claws like this!
A while after, the alarm that he would set up each time he’d regress went off. Seungmin pouted, crawling out of his hiding spot to turn it off. He didn’t feel like being big again, but he didn’t really have a choice, did he? He stuck his tongue out at his phone, crossing his arms and muttering to himself. Apparently, it was the perfect time to sulk, as if his phone would react somehow. He felt a bit like crying but he didn’t, because he was a big boy and he was convinced that big boys don’t cry.
Five minutes later, the alarm went off again and this time Seungmin sighed, turning it off before taking off his onesie. He then stretched and put the piece of clothing in an old backpack of his, hidden in the darkness of the wardrobe.
He felt a bit refreshed, he was not going to lie, but there were times he wished he could be little for longer, or even without having to hide, and today was one of those times. So, even if he felt better than before, he could still feel that sting in his heart.
When later that day Jeongin asked him what was wrong, it was hard to not tear up and slip once again. He could feel how much his little self was getting tired and lonelier by the day.
“Nothing. ‘m just tired, I guess.” He said, maybe sounding a bit too cold. “I’ll go to bed early and that will do.”
“It feels like you’re a bit more than tired, though, but ok…” Jeongin mumbled, focusing again on the show they were watching when Changbin turned over and childishly shushed them.
Seungmin felt a hand softly pressing on the back of his neck. He turned to his right and faintly smiled at Felix, who smiled back and started petting his hair. Seungmin’s lips slightly curled up, he did not feel himself falling asleep on his friend’s shoulder only to wake up the next morning in his bed.