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It had been a good Tuesday. Quiet. Productive. They wrapped up the Hartman account before lunch, Donna didn’t threaten anyone’s life all day, and Mike had only mildly embarrassed himself in a deposition. Which, by his standards, was practically a home run.
Now they were sprawled across Harvey’s obscenely expensive couch, sharing pad thai from a single container and watching reruns of Knight Rider—Harvey’s choice, which Mike had only protested once before giving in. He’d learned not to fight the small things. Not when he was living here most nights now. Not when Harvey gave him that look, like he couldn’t believe he was allowed to have this, them.
Harvey had one foot resting on the coffee table, the other on the floor like he couldn't commit to relaxing fully. Mike had wedged himself under Harvey’s arm and was stealing the last of the noodles, chopsticks clumsy with grease and contentment.
Then someone knocked on the door.
Harvey made a quiet sound, something between a groan and a sigh, and unfolded himself from the couch.
"Finally," he said, brushing stray rice from his sweats—yes, sweats—and moving toward the door. "Told you tipping extra gets it here faster."
Mike just hummed, not looking up from the TV. "You tip because you hate waiting for extra dumplings. Not because you're generous."
"Semantics."
The door opened.
And Harvey froze.
Mike didn’t notice at first. The show was mid-car chase, KITT spouting some sarcastic AI comment. But then the silence stretched—longer than polite, longer than confused. Mike looked up.
Harvey was a statue. Not his usual imposing courtroom presence, but stiff, like he’d been slapped. His hand gripped the doorframe hard enough to make his knuckles pale.
Standing in the hallway was a woman in her late fifties, maybe early sixties, trim, put-together, holding a beige purse like it was a peace offering. Her eyes were the same shape as Harvey’s. Same angle. Except hers were red-rimmed, like she’d been crying. Or expecting to.
"Harvey," she said. Just that.
Mike sat up. "Babe?" he tried, quiet.
Harvey’s jaw flexed, like he was chewing glass.
"Lily," he said. Flat. Deadpan. No emotion, not even anger.
Her face flickered. Hope, pain, maybe shame. It shifted too fast to pin down.
"I—I didn’t know if you still lived here," she said, voice too light for the moment. "I almost didn’t knock."
"You should’ve listened to your instincts," Harvey muttered.
Then, without warning, he stepped back.
"Come in. If we’re going to scream, might as well not give the neighbors a show."
Lily flinched, but she came in.
Mike scrambled to his feet, trying to smooth down his T-shirt, trying not to look like he’d been eating noodles off Harvey Specter’s lap fifteen seconds ago. He offered a hand.
"Hi, I’m Mike."
She looked at him for a long beat before taking it.
"Lily."
Her grip was soft, perfunctory. Like she was holding a memory she didn’t recognize anymore.
Harvey didn’t move from the door. He leaned against it now, arms crossed, watching like a man waiting for a punch.
Lily looked around the apartment. Her gaze snagged on small things—framed jazz records, a photo of Harvey and Mike at a Yankees game, their shoes by the couch.
"I didn’t expect... company," she said slowly.
Mike felt the ice under that sentence. Like Harvey hadn’t just been living, but doing something wrong.
"I didn’t expect you," Harvey shot back. "Guess we’re both surprised."
She winced, but nodded. "Fair."
Silence again. Thick. Mike felt like he’d walked into a play halfway through and wasn’t sure if he was supposed to clap or leave.
"I didn’t come to fight," Lily said. "I just... I’ve been trying to reach you. You don’t answer your phone."
"Because I don’t want to talk to you."
"I gathered that."
"But you showed up anyway."
"Because I’m tired, Harvey. Tired of pretending like I don’t miss my son."
Harvey’s face cracked, just a little. Mike saw it in the twitch of his mouth, the shift of his weight. But he didn’t move toward her.
"Funny," Harvey said, voice quiet now, "I got really good at pretending you didn’t exist."
That hit. Her shoulders folded in. She turned away, just slightly.
"I know I hurt you," she said. "And if I could take it back—"
"You can’t."
"I know." Her voice broke. "But I had to try."
Mike saw it coming before Harvey did. Saw the breath Lily took, the way she squared her spine.
"I want to have dinner," she said. "With you."
Harvey opened his mouth. Probably to say no. Probably to roar no.
"And him," she added, glancing at Mike.
That surprised them both.
"I didn’t know about him," she added. "But... I’d like to."
Mike blinked. "I, uh—"
"No," Harvey said, too sharp.
Lily flinched again.
"No," Harvey repeated, softer and hating himself for it. "You don’t get to just walk in and—"
"Then yell at me over spaghetti," she snapped. "God, Harvey, I know I don’t deserve it, but can you just—can you give me one hour?"
He stared at her. Silent. Then looked at Mike.
Mike shrugged, eyes wide. He wasn’t going to weigh in. This wasn’t his call.
Harvey looked back at his mother. Twenty years of bitterness in a single breath.
"One dinner," he said finally, stepping away from the door. "One."
Lily nodded. "Thank you."
She turned to go.
"Lily," Harvey called.
She paused at the door.
"If you are thinking of bringing him—Bobby—don’t."
"I wasn’t going to."
Then she was gone.
The door shut.
Harvey didn’t move.
Mike walked over and slid a hand to the small of his back. No words. Just warmth.
Harvey stood still for a long moment. Then leaned back, letting Mike hold him up.
"You okay?" Mike asked, finally.
"No," Harvey muttered. "But at least she didn’t ruin the pad thai."
They both let out a breath that might’ve been a laugh, might’ve been exhaustion. Harvey didn’t bother turning off the TV. He just collapsed back onto the couch, reclaiming his spot, though now he was sitting stiffly, like the cushions were made of glass and any wrong move might shatter them.
Mike joined him, curling in closer, letting their legs tangle naturally. The show kept playing—KITT cracking jokes, explosions in the background—but Harvey wasn’t hearing any of it. Mike could feel it in the way his body was pulled too tight, shoulders locked, his gaze glued to the screen but not seeing it.
They watched like that for twenty minutes. Or rather, Mike watched. Harvey stared.
Eventually, Mike reached for the remote and muted it. Silence stretched again, but softer this time. Less like ice and more like fog.
"You’re thinking about the funeral," Mike said, voice low.
Harvey didn’t answer right away. Then, quietly, "She brought him. She showed up with Bobby like it was nothing. Like burying Dad was just another social event."
Mike laid a hand on Harvey’s thigh, grounding him. "She was wrong, Harvey."
"It was humiliating."
"I know."
"I didn’t even cry. At my own father’s funeral. Because I was too goddamn busy not punching the guy my mom ruined him for."
Mike didn’t say anything else. There was nothing to say that wouldn’t be too much or not enough. He just kept his hand there, steady. Harvey didn’t push it away.
Later, when the takeout was cold and the credits had rolled, they moved to the shower. It was quiet there too, the hum of water the only soundtrack. Mike worked soap over Harvey’s chest with slow, circular motions, tracing the planes of muscle and bone like he was relearning them. He didn’t rush. He didn’t press. Just let his hands talk while Harvey stayed silent.
At one point, Harvey leaned into him, forehead pressed against Mike’s shoulder, water running down his back. Mike wrapped both arms around him and held him there.
The bedroom was dim when they climbed into bed. No bedside lamps. Just the city glow bleeding through the blinds. Harvey lay on top of Mike, sprawled with a kind of casual intimacy he reserved for rare, quiet nights—those moments where being vulnerable didn’t feel like surrender. His cheek rested over Mike’s heart, fingers curling into the hem of his shirt. Mike stroked his back in slow lines, memorizing the rise and fall of his breath.
"Still thinking?" Mike asked eventually.
Harvey didn’t lift his head. "Trying not to."
"Want me to talk about something dumb? I could tell you the full plot of Shrek 2 from memory."
"Already heard it. Twice."
"You liked it."
"I tolerated it. For sex."
Mike grinned. "Fair trade."
Another pause.
Then Harvey said, "This dinner is a stupid idea."
Mike stopped running his fingers for a beat, then resumed. "Yeah?"
"She’s probably just gonna say all the right things. Pretend like she’s sorry. Like she wasn’t the one who blew up our family. And I’ll probably just sit there and let it happen."
"You won’t."
"I might. I’m tired, Mike. Twenty years tired."
Mike kissed the top of his head. "Then let me carry some of it."
"I’m not good at this."
"I didn’t ask you to be."
Harvey went quiet again. Mike could feel him thinking, turning the words over, breaking them down like a contract.
"I didn’t miss her," Harvey said suddenly. "For years, I didn’t. I told myself she was just... gone. Like a bad investment."
"But?"
"But now she’s back. And I feel like that kid again. Sixteen. Standing in the hallway. Listening to her lie right to my face while my dad played Coltrane in the living room."
Mike’s chest tightened. "That kid deserved better."
"I didn’t protect him. I didn’t even tell Dad the truth for two goddamn years."
"That wasn’t your job. You were a kid, Harvey."
Harvey lifted his head, met Mike’s eyes in the dark.
"She said she wanted to protect me. But she was the one who did the damage."
"And she’s not asking for forgiveness in one night."
"She shouldn’t be forgiven."
"I didn’t say that either."
Harvey’s head dropped again, heavier this time. Mike held him a little tighter.
"I keep thinking about what it would mean if I let her back in," Harvey murmured. "If I let her talk. If I let her explain. What that says about me."
"It says you’re a person."
"No," Harvey said. "It says I’m still that kid. Hoping she’ll be different."
Mike’s fingers paused. "Do you want her back in your life?"
"I don’t know." Harvey’s voice cracked, barely. "That’s the worst part. There’s a piece of me—small, stubborn—that wants to. That wants to believe she’s changed. That maybe she regrets what she did. That maybe... maybe we could start over."
"And the rest of you?"
"Wants to slam the door in her face again."
"Okay," Mike said, calm and steady. "Then we go to dinner. You see if the small part wins."
Harvey snorted. "You’re an optimist."
"Absolutely. And annoying as hell."
"Also true."
They fell into quiet again. But it was warmer now. Less brittle.
Harvey’s body started to relax by inches. Mike felt the tension bleeding out slowly, melting into the sheets, the way it only did when Harvey finally allowed himself to not be invincible.
"I’ll go," Harvey said. "But only if you’re there."
"I wouldn’t miss it."
"And if she says anything sanctimonious, I’m walking."
"I’ll bring a distraction playlist. Something with a lot of bagpipes."
Harvey chuckled against Mike’s chest. "You’re such a menace."
"Yeah," Mike whispered, "but I’m your menace."
"Damn right."
The city outside kept pulsing, cars sliding past like little comets. But inside, in the hush of that room, Harvey let himself rest.
He let Mike hold the pieces, just for a little while.