An Unhealthy Obsession

by goldencheese_eaterouter

Summary:

dude they're just gay man.
based off of "An Unhealthy Obsession."

Chapter 1: Realization

Shadow Milk Cookie was... an interesting Cookie to say the least. He was grand, beautiful, and perfect, of course, and definitely NOT lonely. But he also had odd interests. He had an almost unhealthy obsession with a certain Cookie. A certain compassionate Cookie. 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie. What a beauty he was. Though, of course, not more beautiful than he. That was almost impossible. Pure Vanilla Cookie and he were an odd duo, literal opposites of each other. Pure Vanilla Cookies sickening smile and truthfulness pissed him off. Pure Vanilla Cookie was definitely better as his partner in crime; he also looked better in blue. Ancients, how Shadow Milk Cookie wished that Pure Vanilla Cookie had never betrayed him and left him oh-so rudely. He was so annoyed and utterly furious when Pure Vanilla Cookie awakened, taking back his boring life of Truth, and it only got worse when he said he was lonely. Lonely. That word alone had affected him for so long. It made him sound weak and puny. And he was anything but that. He was strong, handsome, fancy, and utterly amazing.

 

He hates Pure Vanilla Cookie but Ancients, does he obsess over him. He needs to know everything about the other Cookie, and he does. He knows how Pure Vanilla Cookie never eats, it really pisses him off. He knows how caring he is and how quickly he is to go to others' aid but not his. Pure Vanilla Cookie was so selfless, and it frustrated Shadow Milk Cookie insanely. He knows that Pure Vanilla Cookie wakes up at 7am, and almost immediately goes to writing letters. He knows that he often goes down to the markets, where Cookies pull and tug to get even a glance from their beloved king, Pure Vanilla Cookie. Though, he couldn't blame them, Shadow Milk Cookie would probably do the same. He knows that Pure Vanilla Cookie lets little kids play and braid his hair, even apologizing for wincing when they pull to hard. 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie was such a sweet delicate cookie. He had almost the same day every day, yet every time Shadow Milk Cookie watched from afar, merely admiring and taking mental notes of all that he did. Maybe preparing for the future- of course, only to get his soul jam back- no other reason. Shadow Milk Cookie often hid in different places, maybe in a bush, on top of a tall landscape, or any other place Pure Vanilla Cookie wouldn't think to look at. Sometimes, he would even take form of another Cookie, a mere persona of his. Very little, Pure Vanilla Cookie would feel an odd feeling like he was being stalked, like a wolf keeping watching on its prey, a small weak sheep. Pure Vanilla Cookie would look around wearily for whatever could be watching him, when that did happen, Shadow Milk Cookie was already prepared and ready to move over out of his sight.

 

One bright day Pure Vanilla Cookie was out in the markets, checking in on Cookies that eagerly conversated with him, many Cookies talking to him at once. It was obvious Pure Vanilla Cookie was overstimulated by so much going on. Once again, Pure Vanilla Cookie was draining himself by helping others. This day, Shadow Milk Cookie had taken shape of a beautiful lady Cookie, Blue Butter Cookie. Her long light blue hair down to the floor with a blue bow keeping it well tamed, a half blue half black elegant dress with a blue cape tied around her neck, taking an appearance almost like little red riding hood.

 

Blue Butter Cookie had been picking up blueberries from a stand. She was one of the only Cookies not surrounding Pure Vanilla Cookie, of course, only holding herself back. If she did try to get Pure Vanilla Cookies attention, she could've gotten it easily, though she didn't need to be seen today. She only wanted to watch Pure Vanilla Cookies utter elegance. Though, unexpectedly, Pure Vanilla Cookie noticed her, being one of the only Cookies not currently wrapped around his finger, it obviously quickly caught his interest. Pure Vanilla Cookie politely dismissed the other Cookies, struggling to get through all the Cookies, especially the pouty young Cookies. Though, eventually he makes it through and approaches Blue Butter Cookie.

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie clears his throat quietly as he slightly looks down at the short Blue Butter Cookie, "Well, hello there! I've never seen you around, are you a new Cookie?" Pure Vanilla Cookie greets her politely with that sweet smile of his that quickly lit up a room that Shadow Milk Cookie got to see from afar every day. Shadow Milk Cookie was freaking out. Oh Ancients, what was he going to do? 

 

Blue Butter Cookie hums as she looks Pure Vanilla Cookie up and down, "Well, yes, in fact, I am new around here! ~" Blue Butter Cookie said in a sweet tone. Though, Shadow Milk Cookie was freaking out. He had really dug himself a hole. He could've just said he was only visiting, but no, he got too nervous and now Pure Vanilla Cookie thought he actually lived there.

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie's face lit up almost excitedly, "Oh, welcome! If you need me to show you around sometime, I'd be more than happy to do so!" Oh, it was so obvious Pure Vanilla Cookie thought that Blue Butter Cookie was utterly gorgeous.

 

Blue Butter Cookie gives Pure Vanilla Cookie a polite soft smile and nod as Shadow Milk Cookie freaks out, "Yes, I think I'd like that actually." Shadow Milk Cookie really wouldn't. He should've declined. Oh, what ever would he do? Though, maybe this could get him closer to Pure Vanilla Cookie. It would definitely get tiring being perfect Blue Butter Cookie for so long of course, but it would be worth it to be with Pure Vanilla Cookie. Of course, only because it would help him devise a plan to get his soul jam back, not because he wanted to hang out with Pure Vanilla Cookie.

 

"Well, then I could do it right no-" Pure Vanilla Cookie started, though he was quickly interrupted by another Cookie.

 

"Pure Vanilla Cookie! Come check out my stand!" The male Cookie beckoned Pure Vanilla Cookie. Blue Butter Cookie snarls at the male Cookie under her breath in annoyance. Of course, her valuable time with Pure Vanilla Cookie just had to get interrupted. How rude.

 

"Oh, yes. I'll be there in a moment, just let me talk to this kind lady for a moment." Pure Vanilla Cookie remarked, politely shooing away the other Cookie before looking back at Blue Butter Cookie, "So what's your name?" Pure Vanilla Cookie asked in an almost skeptical tone, though Blue Butter Cookie decides to ignore it.

 

"Ah, my name is Blue Butter Cookie. I must say, it's quite a pleasure to meet you, Pure Vanilla Cookie. I've heard nothing but good things about you." Blue Butter Cookie compliments. 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie blushes, obviously flattered, "Oh, you're too sweet. Well, it's a pleasure to meet you too, Blue Butter Cookie. Now I must go get back to the other Cookies before they get impatient." Pure Vanilla Cookie offers a kind smile to her before turning around and walking away to the other civilians.

 

Oh goodness. Shadow Milk Cookie was, as the younger Cookies say, cooked. He could just disappear and never show his face as Blue Butter Cookie here again, but who was he to turn up a day with Pure Vanilla Cookie? Anyone in the kingdom would be more than happy to spend time with their sweet king, and truthfully, he would be too. Oh Ancients, this is why he preferred deceit. 

 

Blue Butter Cookie sat down on a bench to relax letting out a long sigh of anguish and regret. As she sits, pondering about what she should and shouldn't have done, Shadow Milk Cookie keeps his eyes on Pure Vanilla Cookie. He noticed how gorgeous Pure Vanilla Cookies hair was and how symmetrical his face was. He also noticed how Pure Vanilla Cookie had these cute little chubby cheeks that he could probably just squeeze and- Whoa, why was he thinking this? He had to stop this thinking before it got too far... 

 

Blue Butter Cookie goes out to a secluded place and snaps his fingers, quickly going back to his handsome ol' self, Shadow Milk Cookie. That was definitely enough for today. He would've never thought that Pure Vanilla Cookie would go up to him- or well Blue Butter Cookie. He was sure if he didn't have that disguise, Pure Vanilla Cookie would definitely not be as happy to see him. Why did Pure Vanilla Cookie have to notice Blue Butter Cookie? Of course, she was a beauty, but really? He would've preferred being noticed in a good way as Shadow Milk Cookie rather than Blue Butter Cookie. 

 

This was all too much for him right now. This stupid Cookie was disturbing his thoughts. He'd just meet up with Pure Vanilla Cookie, let him show Blue Butter Cookie around then dip. He'll worry about it tomorrow.

 

 

time-skip - the next day

 

 

Shadow Milk Cookie- or well Blue Butter Cookie- was back at the markets the next day, knowing that Pure Vanilla Cookie would be there soon, as Pure Vanilla Cookie always goes to the markets Monday throughout Thursday. It was a bright day, and you could hear the bluebirds singing. The Cookies were getting their stands all fixed up eagerly and Blue Butter Cookie sat down on a bench, there but quiet, only observing. No one noticed her. That was until, right on time, Pure Vanilla Cookie showed up. His eyes were immediately on her for some reason. It was almost like she was a siren, leading Pure Vanilla Cookie towards her. Shadow Milk Cookie knew she was pretty, but was she really that pretty? He'd never seen Pure Vanilla Cookie look at him the way he looks at her. Jealousy fills him. Why did he have to make such pretty personas? 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie walked up to Blue Butter Cookie, offering a hand out to her to help her stand up off of the bench, which she took quickly. "Good morning, Blue Butter Cookie! Would you like me to show you around now?" Pure Vanilla Cookie greets Blue Butter Cookie kindly.

 

Blue Butter Cookie nods her head as she uses Pure Vanilla Cookies hand to stand up, "Yes, I would."

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie hums and leans to give her hand a gentle and polite kiss, making Blue Butter Cookie laugh softly. "Well then, c'mon, M'lady," Pure Vanilla Cookie mutters as he looks up at Blue Butter Cookie from her hand, their gazes never leaving each other's. Shadow Milk Cookie was insanely frustrated. Why was Pure Vanilla Cookie kissing Blue Butter Cookies hand? He never did that to him. After all that Shadow Milk Cookie had ever done for him when he was Truthless Recluse, Pure Vanilla Cookie had never shown an effort to return that. Though, they hadn't really seen each other face to face since then - or at least not that Pure Vanilla Cookie knew of. 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie leads Blue Butter Cookie throughout the kingdom, showing her different landscapes and all that. Explaining backstories, place names, blah blah blah. The entire time Blue Butter Cookie mindlessly nodded as Shadow Milk Cookie observed Pure Vanilla Cookie from up close, something he never did. He only watched him from afar, and yet it was never like this. Pure Vanilla Cookie was so.. entrancing. His soft, calm, comforting voice that made him feel as if he were in heaven. It sounded so caring and genuine. He hadn't heard that beautiful voice to him specifically in oh-so long. The last time was when he offered for them to be friends out of pity. He took that moment for granted. Pure Vanilla Cookies hair was also gorgeous; it framed his face perfectly and fell along his body so well. It looked so... soft and fluffy. He just wanted to run his fingers through it as they sat in comfortable silence, maybe besides a fireplace. Pure Vanilla Cookies face was so utterly... perfect too. And when he opened his eyes to look directly at him, Ancients, he felt like he could pass out right then and there. He realized how fondly he thought of the other usually horribly irritating cookie. Well, that's what he always said at least... Maybe he just did it out of toxicity and regret... Maybe he actually did like this compassionate beauty of a Cookie.

 

Oh no. Oh no, no, no. He can't like Pure Vanilla Cookie of all Cookies... It's doomed. It's not meant to be. Like the stories that have been told to young Cookies for centuries, Ancients and Beasts just don't go together. He had to get away from Pure Vanilla Cookie. Away from these thoughts. Away from everything before he ruined himself. 

 

"-utter Cookie? Are you okay?" Pure Vanilla Cookie asks. Apparently, Shadow Milk Cookie had gotten so lost in thought he forgot to play his role. Pure Vanilla Cookie looked genuinely concerned for Blue Butter Cookie.

 

"Huh? Oh, yes! I'm perfectly fine! Don't worry about me, dear," Blue Butter Cookie cooed sweetly as she snaps out of it, "I just got... lost in thought. That's it."

 

Pure Vanilla Cookies expression softens in relief as he smiles again, "Well, that's good to hear." Pure Vanilla Cookies cheeks were a bit rosy. Shadow Milk Cookie knew he liked nicknames from watching how he reacted from other Cookies calling him nicknames and complimenting him. "Anywho.. I think that's it! I guess I'll see you around sometime!"

 

Blue Butter Cookie gives him a polite nod. "Yeah, sure.." She muttered, though she did want to be with Pure Vanilla Cookie just for a little bit longer, but Blue Butter Cookie didn't chase after boys like that. She needed to make Pure Vanilla Cookie desperate, not the other way around.

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie and she awkwardly stood in silence before Pure Vanilla Cookie speaks up again, "Y'know.. You kind of remind me of a certain Cookie I used to know.."

 

This quickly peaked Blue Butter Cookies interest, "Oh really? And who may that be?"

 

"Well, he was quite a handsome Cookie," Pure Vanilla Cookie says with a soft chuckle, "And quite a trickster. I was quite fond of him, though we just didn't work out." Pure Vanilla Cookie had a tone of disappointment.

 

Oh Witches. He was talking about Shadow Milk Cookie. Well, Shadow Milk Cookie was definitely nervous to hear what the other would say. "Really? Tell me more, darling," Blue Butter Cookie beckons.

 

"Ah, well, though we're soulmates, beasts and ancients just do not go together I'm afraid. My friend, Golden Cheese Cookie, thinks strongly on that," Pure Vanilla Cookie explains, "And plus, it would've probably been toxic. Though I wanted to treat him with nothing but utter kindness, he was quite the opposite. But maybe that's just how he is." Pure Vanilla Cookie goes quiet for a while, as if he's pondering or regretting. "Y'know, I offered to be his friend, but apparently I did something wrong. Whatever that something is, I strongly rue."

 

Blue Butter Cookie acts surprised as she hears all of this, but Shadow Milk Cookie, well he quickly got excited. Really? Pure Vanilla Cookie felt that way? Huh, how cute. "Oh, that's so sad. I'm so sorry dear.." Blue Butter Cookie lamented, not truly apologetic much at all. Shadow Milk Cookie was still surprised that Pure Vanilla Cookie felt bad when he had obviously saw him as weak and pitiful. Hey, maybe Pure Vanilla Cookie was lying for once. Wow, Shadow Milk Cookie was proud. 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie shakes his head, "No, no, it's fine. It was my fault for thinking we would work out." Pure Vanilla Cookie mutters in a sad tone. Wow. He was quite the actor.

 

"Well, it probably was..." Blue Butter Cookie mutters, "Have you ever thought that maybe you made him feel weak?" Blue Butter Cookie now spoke in an almost salty tone. Shadow Milk Cookie knew that Pure Vanilla Cookie was literally blind, but was he actually this blind mentally? 

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie makes a stupid confused face, that was kind of cute if Shadow Milk Cookie was being honest, "Well, no... I tried my best to make him feel better... I knew he was lonely, and I was the only one that could understand him... And he knows I would never think he was weak, he and I both know how strong he is..."

 

"Maybe he thought you were pitying him..." Blue Butter Cookie mumbles annoyedly. Pure Vanilla Cookie was trying to help him? Ha! Oh, how funny! Get a load of this guy! Shadow Milk Cookie didn't need help. Blue Butter Cookie speaks up again, "Well... I best get going then... I'll see you around, Pure Vanilla Cookie."

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie gives Blue Butter Cookie a sad smile, "See you around, Blue Butter Cookie."

 

Blue Butter Cookie walks away, leaving Pure Vanilla Cookie there to think about his past actions done to Shadow Milk Cookie. Shadow Milk Cookie also had to think a bit. Did Pure Vanilla Cookie actually feel bad? Did Pure Vanilla Cookie really think that highly of him? Shadow Milk Cookie was quick to assume that Pure Vanilla Cookie thought he was weak. But why? It's not like he cared what the other Cookie thought... Or maybe he did... But why? Who even cared about what that stupid Cookie thought? He hated Pure Vanilla Cookie for betraying him. For... betraying him... Was this heartbreak? No... this can't be... Not from Pure Vanilla Cookie...  Oh Witches. 

 

Shadow Milk Cookie had gotten his heart broken by Pure Vanilla Cookie of all people. He really was weak.

Chapter 2

Summary:

shadow milk cookie is really desperate and hates it. he's going through stuff.
pure vanilla cookie has no fucking clue and just wants to hang out with blue butter cookie

It had been a week since Pure Vanilla Cookie had shown Blue Butter Cookie around. A week since Shadow Milk Cookie realized that he let such an innocent, boring Cookie as Pure Vanilla Cookie break his heart. 

 

Curse Pure Vanilla Cookie. How dare he make Shadow Milk Cookie fall for him. It was all his fault. Everything was his fault. He fucking hates Pure Vanilla Cookie, but he loves him.

 

If Pure Vanilla Cookie had never came into his life, he would've never had this horrid obsession with him. He would be in his tower right now, letting Candy Apple Cookie frantically please him. But no, here he was, dressed as Blue Butter Cookie, sitting with Pure Vanilla Cookie eating biscuits. Biscuits of all things. Was this how Pure Vanilla Cookie treated his guests? Shadow Milk Cookie was expecting better treatment from a such a kind king such as Pure Vanilla Cookie, but apparently not. 

 

Blue Butter Cookie and Pure Vanilla Cookies bond had grown quite a lot the past week. Pure Vanilla Cookie had invited Blue Butter Cookie on walks, out to the markets, to the park, and for lunch many times. Pure Vanilla Cookie always seemed to get a little bit too close to Blue Butter Cookie, or just in any way, seemed to be more affectionate with her. It pissed Shadow Milk Cookie off so much. Why was Pure Vanilla Cookie so close to her? Of course, Pure Vanilla Cookie was always very kind and nice to him, always trying his best to find the good in Shadow Milk Cookie, but that wasn't enough. Shadow Milk Cookie wanted to be treated like this by Pure Vanilla Cookie. He was getting jealous of another persona of himself. Even if it was him behind the disguise, it was still pretty unfair. Pure Vanilla Cookie thought this was another Cookie, and he was so very fond of this other Cookie. Shadow Milk Cookie had never seen Pure Vanilla Cookie look at another Cookie the way he looks at Blue Butter Cookie. 

 

Actually, Shadow Milk Cookie had once seen that same look in Pure Vanilla Cookies eyes. To him. When he offered to be his friend, he gave that same sweet look that could've made him have a heart attack if he wasn't still utterly enraged. That Shadow Milk Cookie didn't know how lucky he was. How much Shadow Milk Cookie would now long for that look past him got. 

 

Blue Butter Cookie slowly takes a small bite of the bitter biscuit, letting out a weak hum of feigned pleasure. Of course, as usual, Pure Vanilla Cookie hadn't touched his food at all. Which was quite unfair. Pure Vanilla Cookie only watched Blue Butter Cookie eat his biscuits, making it quite awkward for her. Blue Butter Cookie clears her throat, "So! May I ask, why haven't you touched your food at all, dear?"

 

"Oh, I'm just not hungry. Don't worry about me," Pure Vanilla Cookie quickly reassures Blue Butter Cookie. Blue Butter Cookie hums unbelievingly. He was never hungry, and it concerned Shadow Milk Cookie awfully. Witches, why did Shadow Milk Cookie have to be this caring of Pure Vanilla Cookie? ...Well someone had to care for Pure Vanilla Cookie if Pure Vanilla Cookie would not himself- or Blue Butter Cookie since that was his only way of communicating with Pure Vanilla Cookie.

 

"Okayyy... If you're sure..." Blue Butter Cookie mutters in a disappointed tone. Maybe Pure Vanilla Cookie would eat for Shadow Milk Cookie if they had become friends. Maybe. Though, that was unlikely.

 

"Mhm!" Pure Vanilla Cookie answers enthusiastically, "Do you like the biscuits? It's uh, all we really had to make, sorry..."

 

"Oh, yes!" Blue Butter Cookie lies as she takes another bite. "It's fine, they're better than most biscuits I've have, that's for sure." That was a straight up lie. These fuckass biscuits. Whoever made these should meet Silent Salt Cookie. Unless it was Pure Vanilla Cookie. And if so, it was, the biscuits were quite perfect. Not biased at all of course, Pure Vanilla Cookie sucked as much as any other dumb chef, he just had more pros. Like his kindness and prettiness and selflessness and like a lot.

 

"Oh, good, I was worried you wouldn't like them!" Pure Vanilla Cookie says with a sigh of relief and a soft chuckle. Goodness, Pure Vanilla Cookie was just so selfless. It was lowkey kind of hot- not in that kind of way, of course- in a good and promising way! Of course that's a thing. Check Google you dumbass.

 

"Oh, no! Don't worry about what I think, dear. It really doesn't matter, I'm just glad to be with you." Blue Butter Cookie reassures Pure Vanilla Cookie kindly as she takes his hand, holding it in hers comfortingly. This obviously affected Pure Vanilla Cookie, his cheeks turning pink quickly as he laughs it off.

 

"Oh dear, you're just too sweet, Blue Butter Cookie.." Pure Vanilla Cookie mutters. Why did Pure Vanilla Cookie never blush because of Shadow Milk Cookie.

 

"You deserve it, Pure Vanilla Cookie. You're the kindest Cookie I know." Why was Pure Vanilla Cookie so much more affectionate with who he thought was Blue Butter Cookie

 

"Oh, no I really don't. I'm sure there are kinder Cookies than I." No one could be more kind than Pure Vanilla Cookie. And yet, he still broke Shadow Milk Cookies heart.

 

"And who may that be, hmm?" Surely, it's no one, and only a joke.

 

"White Lily Cookie, of course!" Oh. White Lily Cookie. That damned Cookie. Shadow Milk Cookie had so much fury filled inside of him, and that almost broke him. Really? Shadow Milk Cookie was so much better than her! White Lily Cookie wasn't nice at all, in fact! She locked him and the rest of the Beasts in that goddamn tree for eons and eons! Pure Vanilla Cookie only ever saw the nice and innocent side of White Lily Cookie. Oh, how deceiving of her... And Shadow Milk Cookie thought he was deceiving! Ha! If only Pure Vanilla Cookie knew... It's not like Shadow Milk Cookie or even Blue Butter Cookie could tell him. Afterall, why would he believe someone he had just met over someone he's known since they were but young Cookies. Blue Butter Cookie would just have to trick him. Somehow, someway, he would do it. He wouldn't let White Lily Cookie get in the way.

 

"Oh! White Lily Cookie? Her?... That's... Nice." Blue Butter Cookie mutters, a bit of Shadow Milk Cookie slipping out into her tone.

 

"You don't seem very happy, are you okay?" Pure Vanilla Cookie asked, as oblivious and idiotic as ever. If only he wasn't so stupid and unaware of everything. Well, of course not everything... Pure Vanilla Cookie was always able to understand when he was upset and quickly went to his comfort. Like that little friend stunt... Maybe if Shadow Milk Cookie wasn't so quick to get angry and accepted... If he had only accepted to befriend him... Oh witches, he was about to get emotional really quick.

 

"Oh, yes! I'm just fine! I think I have to go soon, though. I have... A friend I need to meet with soon..." Blue Butter Cookie mumbles as she quickly gets up from her seat and almost rushes out of the door.

 

"Oh! Goodbye, I guess? Have fun!" Pure Vanilla Cookie calls out after her.

 

Blue Butter Cookie was quick to shut the door behind her as she runs off to a quiet place, an alleyway. She slumps down on the wall of the alleyway, and with a snap of her fingers, is Shadow Milk Cookie again. He lets out a long groan as he slid his hands hard down his face, pulling his dough. "That damned White Lily Cookie, I should've gotten rid of her when I had the chance too!..." Shadow Milk Cookie sweeps his cane, slamming a trash can against another wall of the dark alleyway, the trash that was contained within it flies out. A piece of trash hits him hard on his nose. He feels his jam rush to his nose as he feels something warm drip out of it. Great. Now his nose had that warm icky jam running down from his nose to an addition of his anger. His jaw was clenched tightly, as to keep any reminisce of a scream in his mouth. Oh, how he wished to throw White Lily Cookie against a wall as he did with that trash can. Shadow Milk Cookie had never been more jealous of a Cookie before, and Shadow Milk Cookie was a very easily jealous Cookie. He couldn't wait for Silent Salt Cookie to deal with her.

 

Suddenly, Shadow Milk Cookie comes to a realization. If White Lily Cookie crumbled, then... Pure Vanilla Cookie would be utterly devastated. Shadow Milk Cookie could use that as an advantage, a time to comfort him and get closer to him, but it would still hurt and burn to see Pure Vanilla Cookie in that pain. There was always good to the bad. They would never be able to be happy together, and that devastated Shadow Milk Cookie. No matter what, White Lily Cookie would always get in the way of Pure Vanilla Cookie and his's relationship.

 

Shadow Milk Cookie should just stop seeing Pure Vanilla Cookie, as Shadow Milk Cookie or Blue Butter Cookie. But that would be like someone told him to stop lying.

 

literally impossible.

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie was so bad for him, but he just couldn't help himself. Call him a masochist, but he doesn't care how much Pure Vanilla Cookie breaks his heart. The sting he felt in his heart when Pure Vanilla Cookie friendzoned him or talked about another Cookie was so painful, but witches did he love it. He loved how clueless Pure Vanilla Cookie was even if it hurt. That only made it better.

 

Blue Butter Cookie was supposed to see Pure Vanilla Cookie tomorrow. It was Monday tomorrow. So Pure Vanilla Cookie was going to the markets. Blue Butter Cookie would tag along as the past week had been. Blue Butter Cookie would always tail behind Pure Vanilla Cookie, because he invited her. That would bring Shadow Milk Cookie another chance to see him. Maybe that's a bad thing. He'll have time overnight to debate whether it's a good thing or not. Blue Butter Cookie needs her beauty sleep for tomorrow to impress Pure Vanilla Cookie. If Blue Butter Cookie showed up with eyebags under her eyes and messy hair, she'd ruin her entire perfect reputation, and she can't have that happening. Shadow Milk Cookie has been trying so hard over the past week to keep her looking perfect that he couldn't stop now. 

 

Though, sometimes he does doubt what he's doing. He's doing all this for a risk of Pure Vanilla Cookie falling for her. How stupid was that, eh? Very actually. But it was fun, and that's all that mattered

 

 

Tomorrow morning - The markets, again.

 

 

What is love? Shadow Milk Cookie had found himself debating that last night. Does anybody know how to define love? You could say that love means you care for a person dearly. Love could mean you like the idea of something. But is that what love actually is? Love is unprecipitated in many situations. Love is toxic for some. Love is dangerous. Dangerously obsessive. Draining. Annoying. Confusing. And many other horrible things. A lot of people describe themselves as a 'hopeless romantic' while some feel hopeless while in a relationship. You could long for a relationship for a long time but in the end, there will always be cons. There will always be arguments you get in. Love doesn't promise happiness. It doesn't promise it to be returned back. It doesn't promise anything except for liking someone. And yet, love isn't forever. You could go through so much for love, but in the end it could all collapse. 

 

With all of this, is love really worth it? If you love the person enough, you'd do anything for them. That's how Shadow Milk Cookie feels. Yet does he love Pure Vanilla Cookie? That was the hard question. One day he obsesses over his dear Pure Vanilla Cookie, the next he despises the annoying Cookie. It was all too much for him. All of this, just for a boy. How stupid is that? Love is pointless, but he still wanted it. He felt lonely without love.

 

Lonely. Great. That stupid word. It always came back to haunt him. He hates the word l*nely. It's his new trigger word. If you're going to talk to him, censor the L word please. He very obviously wasn't lonely. He could say that to himself a thousand times, but still long for Pure Vanilla Cookie.

 

Truth is, he feels like he's nothing without Pure Vanilla Cookie. Of course- he was still something- but he felt empty. L*nely. He had Black Sapphire and Candy Apple Cookie, but neither of them were like Pure Vanilla Cookie. Nobody was. Not even Especially not White Lily Cookie. 

 

Shadow Milk Cookie decided that he wasn't going to let White Lily Cookie outshine him. So, he transformed into Blue Butter Cookie, put on her most classy heels- which Shadow Milk Cookie would serve literal cunt in- and did her hair, half up and half done. Pure Vanilla Cookie wasn't ready for what was going to hit him.

 

Shadow Milk Cookies least favorite thing about being Blue Butter Cookie is that he had to walk and 'put his damn leg down' like all the idiots tell him too. Blue Butter Cookies heels clack against the concrete as he approaches Pure Vanilla Cookie, "Pure Vanilla Cookie! I'm so glad to see you today, thank you for inviting me to come along again, dear!" 

 

"Of course, Blue Butter Cookie. I'm glad to have you attend alongside with me." Pure Vanilla Cookie replied calmly, not even glancing at Blue Butter Cookie twice. Shadow Milk Cookie noticed on Saturday when they went out to a park that Pure Vanilla Cookie never called Blue Butter Cookie nicknames as she did to him, neither did he take much interest in her look. Was her perfectness not his type? Were males his type, perchance? Hopefully.

 

Pure Vanilla Cookie and Blue Butter Cookie walk around in the markets, Pure Vanilla Cookie talks with other Cookies and checks out stands as Blue Butter Cookie happily follows behind. Shadow Milk Cookie obviously gets bored quickly as Pure Vanilla Cookie is just a boring Cookie. Shadow Milk Cookies thoughts slowly start to wander off.. elsewhere. He thinks odd things that his past self would curse him for. Like, would Pure Vanilla Cookie be good in bed? Would he be just as boring? Prolly not. Would Pure Vanilla Cookie be sub or dom?

 

Yeah, it's crazy, but what was he supposed to do? Listen to Pure Vanilla Cookie conversating with such boring Cookies. Shadow Milk Cookie didn't know why Pure Vanilla Cookie would rather talk with other Cookies over him, he was much more fun. Especially in bed.

 

Okay maybe that's enough of me telling you about Shadow Milk Cookies lustful thoughts. But what can I say? He's a freak for Pure Vanilla Cookie.

 

Well, eventually over time Pure Vanilla Cookie got tired from talking to so many Cookies so he and Blue Butter Cookie decided to go. "Thank you for staying here with me all day, I could tell you were getting quite bored," Pure Vanilla Cookie teased with a soft chuckle.

 

Shadow Milk Cookie wanted to make some smartass comment but Blue butter Cookie didn't do that. So, she speaks up softly, "Oh yes, my apologies dear. I'm not quite good at socializing with people I haven't met before, I guess."

 

"But you easily clicked with me?" Pure Vanilla Cookie asks skeptically. Well Shadow Milk Cookie had already met him, but he couldn't know that, of course, so.

 

"Well, I guess you were just easy to talk to. Like it was meant to be~" Blue Butter Cookie says sweetly and teasingly, but apparently Pure Vanilla Cookie didn't get the hint. Thank the witches.

 

"Oh... Well, I'm glad you think I'm easy to talk to!" Pure Vanilla Cookie beamed casually, like the flirt had gone right over his head. Well, it hadn't, Pure Vanilla Cookie had obviously just decided to ignore it.

 

 

Timeskip - in Shadow Milk Cookies tower

 

Shadow Milk Cookie laid on the floor of his room, rather than his bed. It made it easier for him to focus. There was so much to think about. Was it really worth it loving Pure Vanilla Cookie? His mind had been such a mess the past week and he hated it. His mind was all organized and fun before that fuckass hot Cookie came around. Once again not that kind of hot- or at least he thinks not that kind of hot- it's confusing. Everything is. That's the risks you take with love. Love made him want to scream, shout, and let it all out. Maybe tie that goddamn rope- okay maybe that was a bit much- but that's just what love did to you. And to think he'd have to see Pure Vanilla Cookie again tomorrow. Why was Pure Vanilla Cookie so persistent on seeing Blue Butter Cookie every single damn day. It was getting annoying. Of course, it was nice to see Pure Vanilla Cookies face every day, but he's doing it for Blue Butter Cookie not him.

 

For Blue Butter Cookie. All for her. He's starting to regret even making her as a persona. If Pure Vanilla Cookie fell for Blue Butter Cookie, he would be devastated, destroyed, and so done. Why would Pure Vanilla Cookie even fall for her? Why wouldn't he fall for her. She was just perfect. That's what Shadow Milk Cookie made her to be. Why. 

 

If Pure Vanilla Cookie loved Blue Butter Cookie, that would be the end of Shadow Milk Cookie.

 

Suddenly, here was a quick knock on Shadow Milk Cookies door, and before Shadow Milk Cookie could say anything Candy Apple Cookie barged in, "Master Shadow Milk Cookie! You've been gone for a week! What for?"

 

Shadow Milk Cookie lets out a long groan. Great. This was exactly what he needed right now. He sweeps his cane, launching a pillow at Candy Apple Cookie. "Nothing! Now get out!!" Shadow Milk Cookie complains.

 

Candy Apple Cookie gasps as she scrambles out of his room, "Ah- Yes Shadow Milk Cookie!-" She exclaims as she shuts the door.

 

Witches was Candy Apple Cookie exhuasting to deal with.

 

What was he thinking about again? Probably nothing more important than his beauty sleep.

 

Shadow Milk Cookie crawled up onto his bed and covered the sheets over his head as he prepares to go to sleep. Though he felt an odd presence in his room, like someone was watching him. He doubted someone was actually watching him sleep, but he still had to check. Maybe Candy Apple Cookie was watching him sleep again. Shadow Milk Cookie peaked over his bed sheets, and as he had assumed, there was nothing. Maybe he was only paranoid. Surely, nobody was watching him sleep. Though, he couldn't shake off the damn feeling. He knew it was only paranoia, but he hated this feeling. Maybe it was from all of his sleep deprivation of stalking  walking very close behind Pure Vanilla Cookie that made him keep thinking things. Plus, how would anyone even manage to get into his tower? It was almost impossible. Almost.

 

Well, he'd have to worry about it tomorrow, he was exhausted from Pure Vanilla Cookie. Pure Vanilla Cookie was very hard to deal with. No matter how much Shadow Milk Cookie called him boring, he still seemed to turn out very fatigued. Maybe he was just trying too hard to seem perfect as Blue Butter Cookie.

 

And great. Now Pure Vanilla Cookie was disturbing his beauty sleep. Shadow Milk Cookie couldn't go ten minutes without thinking about him, that's a hundred forty-four times a day. And yet, all those times, he could've been admiring himself. 

 

He should just go to sleep before he started thinking about something like how pretty Pure Vanilla Cookie was. Well, when he thought about it, Pure Vanilla Cookie was actually reeeaaallyyy handsome.

 

Shit, he wasn't going to sleep at all tonight.

Notes:

this chapter was pretty fuckass
so was the one before
uh i made a few tyler the creator references
i think thats it
hope u enjoyed

Chapter 3

As Shadow Milk Cookie rose from his slumber, he pulled the silky sheets off from over his head, revealed to the eerie darkness of the night, nothing heard but quite crickets and the hoots of owls. He pushed the sheets to the side, off him as he sits up, letting out a quiet groan, reaching his arms above his head. He rubbed his hands over his eyes and blinked at his blank and dark room. 

 

Before he even knows it, he finds himself standing up and his legs leading him to the balcony, opening the grand doors as he floats to sit on the edge of the railing, looking out to the night sky. The stars sparkled in the night, and the Moon shone even brighter than all the mere, tiny little stars. Shadow Milk Cookie felt more at ease than he had the night before, more like there wasn't a pair of eyes watching him and inspecting his every move. Maybe the night before he was only paranoid, caught up in his own cockiness. Why would someone even want to watch him? Only a fool, he had no reason for someone to actually like him. All he does is put on a facade and entertain people through lies. 

 

Shadow Milk Cookie was a mess. A hot one at that. Was he right or was he right. 

  

Some people found the night comforting, like the dark warmth of the night hugged them and caressed them soothingly, though Shadow Milk Cookie found the night to strangle him, the cold air grappling its hands around his throat as his mind was filled with thoughts about insecurities and fears that he never dared tell another. The night filled up his lungs with empty air that felt like toxins, leaving him gasping for air desperately at times as the night began to spin, the walls that he could barely see and floor around him beginning to faze as he clung to his knees, desperately clawing at his clothes, looking for something to keep him at reality, as his grasp on what's true or fake slowly slips off, leaving him alone in a dark pit of bad thoughts. Thoughts telling him that nobody actually enjoyed his shows, nobody actually liked him, he wasn't enough. That he should just stop. Hurt himself, just as everyone had wanted to do to him. These such bad thoughts always haunted him in the depths of the dark, lonely night. When he was all alone in the dark, vulnerable and desperate. It made him want to k- 

  

 'baaa'... 

. 

Huh?.. Shadow Milk Cookie was taken out of his thoughts as he heard a crash and the sound of an annoyed sheep. He looked down and saw two little sheep fighting. Well, more rather, a cream sheep and a wolf in sheep's clothing. The cream sheep had pushed the wolf in sheep's clothing onto the ground. The wolf looked up at the sheep, its eyes filled with betrayal and utter shock. The cream sheep gave a simple scoff of 'me-eh' and walked away, leaving the wolf in sheep's clothing, sprawled out onto the floor, still appalled from what had just happened. Shadow Milk Cookie too was taken by surprise. Who would've expected the usual nice guy too just hurt another and just scoff and turn away? It almost gave Shadow Milk Cookie unwanted flashbacks. He shuddered quietly and turned his head away from the distraught wolf that stubbornly stood up, acting like it wasn't affected at all as if someone was watching and ready to judge, to call it weak, dependent, needy.  

  

Shadow Milk Cookie couldn't stand the thought; he almost felt bad for the little wolf. Now, he didn't want to be like Pure Vanilla Cookie, but before he knew it, he was floating down from his balcony, right next to the wolf. 

  

Shadow Milk Cookie let out a stubborn sigh, like he was forced to be there, and patted his lap, offering the wolf a nice seat. The wolf looked down at his lap, and back up at Shadow Milk Cookie in a confused nature. The wolf snaps its head away and gives a reluctant whimper of denial, resisting his graceful gift of help. Shadow Milk Cookie lets out a groan of annoyance as he drags his hands down his face in dread. It seems this stupid wolf was just like him. He reaches his arms out to pull the wolf into his lap forcingly, petting its back in a supposedly comforting motion, though it came off more aggressive rather than soothing. The wolf let out a sigh as it gave up and let itself go limp. Shadow Milk Cookie, having never been the most comforting cookie, just awkwardly sat there comforting the wolf in silence. He didn't know why he was even doing this, he had so many other better things to do than comfort a random person, let alone it being a wolf. Shadow Milk Cookie had just felt related to the wolf in some way, though maybe it was just his delusions at work again. 

  

Shadow Milk Cookie looked up at the night sky, the stars twinkling as the moon, as always, outshone those tiny dots in the sky. The center of attention in the peaceful night sky. What a dream. 

  

Shadow Milk Cookie and the wolf sat there, just basking in the coolness and beauty of the calm night sky. Soon enough, the wolf calmly fell asleep. Shadow Milk Cookie looks down at the wolf lying limp in his arms, he ruffles the fur next to his ear and leaves a nice gentle kiss, before smoothly out from under the wolf and back up to his balcony, leaving the wolf laying there on the cold ground outside, all alone. Shadow Milk Cookie let himself just lie in bed for a while, contemplating whatever he had just done. There he lied with just him and his thoughts, until the sun started to rise, and he had to get ready for the day. A day filled with Pure Vanilla Cookie. 

  

That was his life now. Pure Vanilla Cookie this, Pure Vanilla Cookie that. If only he had never gotten obsessed over such a peaceful, calm, benevolent, beautiful, godly, gracious, amazing, kind cookie. Is that a bit much? Nah... 

  

Shadow Milk Cookie let himself dress in the usual disguise, outfit and makeup as Blue Butter Cookie.  What a beauty she was, a beauty that Pure Vanilla Cookie must fall head over heels for - or maybe Shadow Milk Cookie - but that's not the case! 

  

Shadow Milk Cookie had planned to relax in his room a bit longer until he heard a gentle but quick knock on his door, which he already knew would be that same bothersome cookie - Candy Apple Cookie - so with a fast sweep of his cane, Blue Butter Cookie was in a secluded place in the Vanilla Kingdom. 

  

Blue Butter Cookie made her way to the markets. She knew it would be a few minutes before Pure Vanilla Cookie's arrival, so she might as well have some fun whilst she waits, no? Because what's the fun in waiting if no cookies get hurt, hm? 

 

Blue Butter Cookie went up to a couple of stands, pretended whatever they were selling was faulty and left a trail of arguments and disagreement wherever he went, causing a big ruckus. Oh, how fun it was to... what do the young cookies call it? Oh yes, ragebait other cookies. What a fun thing ragebaiting is.  

  

Soon enough, Pure Vanilla Cookie arrived at the markets and was quickly shocked by the arguments and shouts that echoed throughout the markets. Blue Butter Cookie snickered quietly to herself before approaching Pure Vanilla Cookie, her nice heels clacking against the hard concrete on the floor. Walking was quite a slow way of transportation, but it'll have to do.... 

  

Pure Vanilla Cookies gaze scattered across the messy markets before landing on Blue Butter Cookie, Pure Vanilla Cookie seeming to loosen up after seeing her as his smile quirks a bit more. He waved at her cheerfully, Blue Butter Cookie giving a flip of her hair in response as she then stood in front of Pure Vanilla Cookie, "Well! What a peaceful day it is today, isn't it?" Pure Vanilla Cookie gives a strained chuckle in response to the obvious sarcasm, seeming a bit stressed from all the chaos going on. Blue Butter Cookie hummed as she reached her hand out to soothingly caress Pure Vanilla Cookie's biceps underneath his robes, "Don't woorryyy, darling. It's just a few arguments. Why don't we go to a place away from here, a bit more... secluded, eh?" 

  

Pure Vanilla Cookie clears his throat, trying his best to give a calm tone, "Though, who'll calm down all these crazed cookies?" 

  

Blue Butter Cookie looks from the chaos and back to Pure Vanilla Cookie many times before speaking quietly, "I do not know. But I'm sure it'll have to die down soon enough!" 

  

Pure Vanilla Cookie sighs and shakes his head, "Well, it is quite overstimulating here... Will you lead the way?..." 

 

"Mhmm.." Blue Butter Cookie hums with an intellectual smirk tugging at her lips as she offers her hand out for Pure Vanilla Cookie to take, in which he does, his warm hand enveloping hers. Blue Butter Cookie led him away from the markets, making sure to put a little sway to her hips as she walks, each step filled with confidence, her heart fluttering with every step- Was Pure Vanilla Cookie even looking? Blue Butter Cookie turned around to look at him. Pure Vanilla Cookie had been gently holding a bluebird that landed on his finger, smiling sweetly at it, giving it a gentle kiss on the beak. Oh? So, that's how he treated bluebirds? Shadow Milk Cookie would have to try that form out sometime... 

 

Oh, how the sun fluctuated every bit of Pure Vanilla Cookie’s curve of elegance. His long delicate eyelashes, and calmly settled eyebrows with that gentle curve tugging at his lips. His sharp jawline and sharp, perfect point of his nose. Pure Vanilla Cookie’s achieved everything he’s dreamed of and its all that he could think of. Why was Shadow Milk Cookie’s heart pounding against his chest, thumping aggressively, quickly, a hitch to his breath. 

 

It seems Pure Vanilla Cookie had to have had noticed, for he looked over at Blue Butter Cookie with a sorrowful and supportive smile, “What’s wrong, Blue Butter?” A tilt to Pure Vanilla Cookie’s head, and a blush behind Shadow Milk Cookie’s facade. 

 

Blue Butter Cookie shakes her head with a sigh of despair, “Oh, nothing. You know, just tired.. Oh-so tired...” She says as she sits on a nearby, leaning back, pressing the back of her hand on her forehead. Pure Vanilla Cookie scoffs. He can SCOFF?!  

 

“Oh, please, Blue Butter, do you can much better than this.” He says, reaching out his hand for hers. I’m sure they both had no idea where they both were going, but that’s okay. Quality bonding time! Or whatever shit them parents be saying. More... and more bonding time... YAYYY!!! 

 

Notes:

this is so ass and rushed.
i just got discharged from the mental hospital not too long ago and now im in the emergency room so!
is this the ao3 writers curse.

Notes:

first time nervous kinda writing a fanfic..
dude ts gonna flop so bad. my dream is to affect the fandom as much as jambound or oblivion au did. maybe one day my writing will be that good. for now ill stick to writing crappy stories ill probably never post or just flop on and drawing fuckass shadowvanilla porn. oh to be a good writer or artist one day
also sorrry about any typos i wrote most of ts at like 4am.
istg if i get that ao3 author curse im gonna crash tf out
uh if this does good i might do more gng
thx
also how tf do i do tags.