death, die, and dying | stories
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It was a well-deserved, self-content sound. Quiet, but loud as it echoed in his crummy apartment bathroom. It was a sound of proudness unshielded beyond the murky waters, the light that shined to show a glimmer of hope and freedom — and today, Reid was gonna feel that freedom.
And he was gonna feel every inch of it.
OR; Spencer overdoses in the privacy of his bathroom, and his last moments are spent thinking over his suicide note.
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- Part 1 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 1 of sleep well | series
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“Hotch –?” Spencer called, arching his neck to look desperately for his superior. “Sir? I, please tell them to not take me, I can take it. I'm strong I'm strong.”
A hand landed on his chest, pushing it back down on the gurney, “I don't doubt that you're strong, Reid, but you need to be brought to the hospital immediately.” Hotch, voice riddled with something acute, something foreign, something that almost sounds like grief, said.
“I'll tell them to not give you narcotics.”
OR; Spencer's delirious when he gets hit during a shoot out, at least Aaron is there with him.
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- Part 2 of death, die, and dying | stories
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Spencer licked his lips anxiously, and looked anywhere else but at Rossi. “I feel like …” he gulped, “there are two types of people in this world, Rossi.” his voice cracked as he said his friend's name, the same friend that had seen the ends of earth.
Had been a friend of his previous mentor, and friends with the person that shot his lover.
His life. His entire existence.
But surprisingly, he finds that he held no mirth towards the man in front of him. “The one that get over their grief and move on and the ones that descend” he shrugs at his wording, “into some sort of endless misery.”
OR; Rossi tries to talk to Spencer after two weeks had passed from Maeve’s death. Spencer ends up hating the conversation.
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- Part 3 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 2 of trying to conjure peaches | series
- Part 6 of i’ll rest when i die | stories
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Love was what it used to be.
Overwhelming and utterly vulnerable love and adoration for his superior for being the only one who noticed when Gideon, hell, Morgan, didn't care enough to step forward and tell him to stop.
Not like how Hotch did so, anyways.
OR; Spencer has always loved happy endings. His team makes him realizes that not everybody wants him to have one.
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- Part 4 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 1 of trying to conjure peaches | series
- Part 5 of i’ll rest when i die | stories
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it didn't take a profiler to realize that Spencer was absolutely incapable in the field, nobody expected him to; he was only a kid in their eyes after all, of course, except in Jason's eyes.
OR; When Spencer gets injured during the Boston Bomber take down, Gideon snaps.
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- Part 1 of aut iure quis | stories
- Part 5 of death, die, and dying | stories
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Spencer wasn't a parent though, but he did read an unhealthy amount of parenting articles, once, when he was 11.
So he was pretty much set for life.
OR; Spencer takes care of a baby in the field.
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- Part 6 of death, die, and dying | stories
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He had watched all of them die, so why hadn't he gone along with them?
“There is beauty in this. You are all too human to see it. You have escaped the Labyrinth! That is worthy of celebration.”
OR, IN WHICH; hotch and blake are the only ones left, and the voice seems to enjoy taunting them and making them more miserable.
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- Part 7 of death, die, and dying | stories
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The moment things had started to get out of hand, Spencer noted, was when he had started to stare at his bathroom mirror for a little bit too long.
Pointing out his imperfections and impurities, telling himself that what he saw in the mirror was enough reason to be dead.
OR; the aftermath of Spencer’s suicide.
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- Part 8 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 2 of sleep well | series
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“We understand that, Dr. Reid,” You don’t. “But that doesn’t explain why you were caught running away from the crime scene, bloodied.”
Right.He scowls, “I didn’t kill anyone if that’s what you’re asking.”
OR; Spencer gets interrogated
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- Part 9 of death, die, and dying | stories
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what’s this, the consequences of my actions? by cherubcurls
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
23 Jun 2023
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Because Spencer wasn’t used to safe. He needed adrenaline to pump through his veins and soften the blow for him to have a good day.
His family never really liked how violent he was.
OR; Spencer comes back home from a particularly horrible fight and his Dad is less than amused.
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- Part 10 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 1 of wake up and thank god it’s over | series
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he lives your own life in retrospect by cherubcurls
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV), Supernatural (TV 2005)
28 Jun 2023
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In his free time, Spencer’s favourite thing to do was visit the boy across their street.
Like, say, right now.
OR; Sam gets hurt and Spencer visits him to see if he’s alright.
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- Part 2 of wake up and thank god it’s over | series
- Part 11 of death, die, and dying | stories
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kiss the skin from my lips if it makes you feel good by cherubcurls
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV), Supernatural (TV 2005)
29 Jun 2023
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“This’ll take a hot minute. Try not to get squeezy.”
And since Spencer had already gotten himself in trouble with the pretty comment, he makes a brash decision to bring his lips to Sam’s fingers and press a quick kiss.
OR; Sam’s hands are bloody and Spencer tries to make it feel better.
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- Part 3 of wake up and thank god it’s over | series
- Part 12 of death, die, and dying | stories
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The ghost of Spencer only continued standing still at the entrance of the bathroom in the small motel, though as if completely unbothered. The lights behind him illuminating the obvious bullets of blood soaked into the fabric of his sweater.
And by the looks of it, he was as equally as confused as she was.
“Elle?”
OR; Elle finds an unexpected visitor in her motel room. All her questions go unanswered.
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- Part 13 of death, die, and dying | stories
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“I’m sorry.”
It’s quiet when he says it. Quiet enough that no one else but Emily could have heard it.
OR; Emily finally questions Spencer about why he keeps on fighting.
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- Part 5 of wake up and thank god it’s over | series
- Part 14 of death, die, and dying | stories
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is this what they meant by self-interrogation? by cherubcurls
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV), Supernatural (TV 2005)
27 Oct 2023
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Spencer wasn’t a stranger to the topic of killing people. Aside from Sam and Dean, the prime reason he had quit the FBI in the first place was because he had disliked the fact that he had a kill count.
The knowledge that he had killed grew heavy on him like it would any sane human being. No matter how many times people tried to convince him that it wasn’t his fault; he knew that it was.
Of course it was his fault, his hands had been on the trigger. He had held the weapon. He had made the decision to steal their life. Criminal or not, he couldn’t choose whether they died or not. It simply wasn’t his place.
So Spencer had decided to quit. Meeting the Winchesters was just a heavy bonus.
OR; Spencer gets to know himself. (Literally)
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- Part 15 of death, die, and dying | stories
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Lumine, for the first time, was scared.
Which was ridiculous.
OR; Lumine reacts badly to the flowers in the cave.
(In the depths, an unexpected reunion)Series
- Part 16 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 8 of <1k words
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your hands hurt because they feel exactly like his by cherubcurls
Fandoms: 30歳まで童貞だと魔法使いになれるらしい | Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard?! (TV), 今際の国のアリス | Imawa no Kuni no Alice | Alice in Borderland (TV)
06 Jan 2024
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Though, at the back of his head, he wondered who had hurt Kurosawa.
“Was he a friend?”
Who had fucked him up so deeply that he felt like he needed to sleep with him, out of all people, to flood his feelings away – because he looked like a well-intergrated member of society, so why? Why did his nails dig into his skin the way that it did?
OR; Arisu copes with losing Karube by fucking someone who looks exactly like him
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- Part 17 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 5 of 100 day ship extravaganza
- Part 1 of balconies & cigarettes | series
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every time that i miss you, i feel the way you hurt by cherubcurls
Fandoms: 今際の国のアリス | Imawa no Kuni no Alice | Alice in Borderland (TV)
07 Jan 2024
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But in the end…
Karube wanted to kill himself, because that’s how Arisu had left him.
OR; Karube doesn’t know what to do with his life anymore with Arisu gone
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- Part 18 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 6 of 100 day ship extravaganza
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in a secondhand bed with a secondhand man by cherubcurls
Fandoms: 今際の国のアリス | Imawa no Kuni no Alice | Alice in Borderland (TV), 30歳まで童貞だと魔法使いになれるらしい | Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard?! (TV)
14 Jan 2024
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“People have always said that it’s unhealthy to cling onto those who are dead.” Kurosawa spoke, and there was this sadness in his voice. That familiar ache that Arisu has heard exit from his own mouth countless times before. “But the people who say that usually haven’t experienced losing someone the way that we have.”
Kurosawa snakes a hand next to his. Not attempting to intertwine them unlike countless times before, instead just letting them co-exist. As if to tell him that it’s okay, that he didn’t need to rush to forget.
“It’s always hard to heal. That’s what people don’t get about us.”
OR; Arisu is desperate to forget about what he went through with Karube, but unfortunately for him, Kurosawa can’t keep his questions to himself. In the meantime, someone falls in love. (5 times + 1)
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- Part 7 of 100 day ship extravaganza
- Part 19 of death, die, and dying | stories
- Part 2 of balconies & cigarettes | series
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the day after him by cherubcurls for choi yoon (Kimlee104)
Fandoms: 30歳まで童貞だと魔法使いになれるらしい | Cherry Magic! Thirty Years of Virginity Can Make You a Wizard?! (TV)
12 Nov 2024
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The day after Kurosawa killed himself, Adachi wanted to scream.
OR; Kurosawa was gone. Adachi is left to live a life without him.
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- Part 20 of death, die, and dying | stories