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the sound of the unlocking & the lift away by anemicaxolotl
Fandoms: IT (Movies - Muschietti), IT - Stephen King
18 Feb 2022
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Upstairs, there’s a sharp, sudden clatter, followed by the predictable but no less unsettling “Fuck!” that always follows.
Downstairs, Richie winces but fights off the instinct to run, to call out, to help however he can. They’ve gone over it so many times that he still feels the sting of Eddie’s words — “I don’t need you babying me, Rich!” — and the twinge of guilt that goes along with the memory. He grips the armrest of the couch, an anchor and a reminder.
But then there’s a muffled thud and a refrain of “Fuck, fuck,” this time quiet and anguished, and that Richie can’t ignore.
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31 Jan 2026
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the gory truth of it by goodmourningdove
Fandoms: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti)
10 Mar 2020
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You wouldn’t think that there’s a lot of time for inner reflection when you’re bleeding out, but there is. In fact, there’s little else to do after you’ve given up on holding your own insides inside but tell yourself that if you live, you’ll actually live this time and that the echoed chanting of “clown, clown, clown, clown” had better not be the last thing you ever hear.
After narrowly avoiding death, Eddie learns that the hardest promises to keep are the ones you make to yourself. An un-tragedy in three acts.
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15 Jan 2026
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It would be okay to love him forever and be in love with him forever and want him forever, even if Eddie never loved him back. Richie is realizing he’s already felt that way his entire life - he just didn’t understand that was what he was feeling. Being Eddie’s friend is already so much better than not remembering him at all. It isn’t a consolation.
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03 Jan 2026
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Deep breaths. Eddie counts them; one, two, three, four.
He unlocks his phone and reads the text again. It's from Richie.
I don't know how to say this but
i'm gay
i'm sorry for not telling you when we were all togetherSeries
- Part 1 of one, two, powershift
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25 Dec 2025
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The available data was this:
Richie had a history of hiring escorts. Male escorts. Like, for sex. For gay sex, with men. This confirmed at least one of Eddie’s hopes, even as rage filled him at the way Richie’s manager and supposed friend had let that slip in front of a stranger.
Richie deserved better. Eddie was going to tear Steve to fucking shreds if their paths ever crossed again.
Apparently, the escorts Richie hired all had some traits in common with Eddie. A lot of traits. A suspicious amount of very specific traits.
The list-style description that Steve had rattled off was seared into his brain. It played in his head now, when he looked in the mirror across from the bed.
Short, brown hair, big brown eyes, polo shirt, small build. Bitchy face.
The inevitable conclusion was that Richie wanted to have sex with guys that resembled Eddie, but not Eddie, himself. This could be for any number of reasons, not the least of which was Eddie’s horrible, abrasive personality. Or multiple disfiguring scars.
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25 Nov 2025