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  1. Public Bookmark 91

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    It’s the start of Shane’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are steady, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    It started, as so many things do, with a tweet.

    “Hey, Hollzy! Look at this! It’s so you and Roz,” Evan Dykstra said, shoving his phone in Shane’s face. Shane squinted at the slightly blurry screen, willing his eyes to focus on the small font. He never brought his glasses to practice (much to Ilya’s chagrin), but he also never anticipated reading whatever stupid meme the Centaurs decided was vital for his desolate knowledge of pop culture.

    Me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic, it read, followed by a photo pulled from Centaurs socials of Ilya and Shane smiling at each other like idiots at a team event.

    Shane read it a second time, then looked up at Dykstra, who looked incredibly proud of himself. Clearly, Ilya was supposed to be the ‘bad bitch,’ because no one had ever put those two words in the same sentence as Shane Hollander.

    “Funny, D,” Shane began, “but I’m not autistic.”

     

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    Shane Hollander realizes he might be autistic. He is the last person to do so.

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    15 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 78

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    Fuck. He can’t do this now. 

    He pinches his thigh in an effort to redirect his thoughts from spiraling, but it doesn’t help. The additional guilt of not wanting to make it about himself seems to tip him over the edge and - fucking, ugh. 

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya’s mouth twitched upwards. He looked delighted. “You are the guy who keeps haunting my sex life, yes?”

    Haunting? Shane wasn’t haunting anything. That was very offensive, since Cupids could not haunt by definition.

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    Shane Hollander is a Cupid trying to mantain his flawless two-hundred-year-long track record. Ilya Rozanov just won't stop sleeping around.

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  5. Public Bookmark 90

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    The people around him had already picked up on his other weird tendencies. His religious rigidity, his flat tone, the way he stumbles through the most benign of interactions. People call him words like neurotic, tightly-wound, robotic, boring– and he doesn’t mind all that much. But if people knew that a lip smack, overhead lighting, or another person’s touch could send him melting down, they’d call him something worse. Weak.

    or; Shane gets overstimulated on game day against the Raiders. He tries to hide it from Ilya in fear of being seen as weak, so Ilya has to remind him just how loved he really is.

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    27 Jan 2026