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    “Why him?”

    Lucifer closes his eyes with another sigh. He crosses his arms over his stomach, simulating the hug he so desperately needs.

    There’s a lot he can say here.

    Like how Alastor makes his hopeless heart flutter with the belief that maybe dreams are still possible; that Alastor makes him feel something, anything, everything all at once, and it is as heavenly as it is torturous.

    But all he can manage, in a voice so small he can scarcely believe it’s his own, is, “He makes me laugh.”

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Alastor's stubborn refusal to accept any aid but his own lands him in the care of the last person he'd have taken it from - the king of Hell himself, Lucifer Morningstar.

    Now if only he could be normal about it, and ignore a different, emotional wound he'd left to fester too long.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    In an AU where a small number of the population become Changelings at a young age, at 17 John Watson believes he's destined for Normal life but then the Change takes him and he is sent to the Baker Institute. There he meets Sherlock Holmes.

    AN: Some common trigger warnings apply, but aren't listed due to spoilers. If you need a full list of warnings/triggers, they can be found in through the link in the first author's notes.

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    21 Jan 2019

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    For the first time, John isn't alone when he wakes up from a nightmare.

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    John had always assumed Sherlock was uninterested, untouchable, married to his work. He was wrong on all counts. But when Sherlock embarks on a relationship, John worries that he is in over his head...and this time he might be right.

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    12 Dec 2018

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