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    "Ilya, like, does this thing.”

    Rose leans in conspiratorially. “What thing?”

    “S’like…like my brain shuts off, finally,” Shane mumbles. “Like everything is floaty, and my arms and legs go numb, and like, all I can feel or think about is just him. It’s like flying, sort of, and then, like, afterwards, he cuddles me and brings me back down to earth.”

    “Oh, so he puts you in subspace?”

    Shane blinks blankly at her. “Huh?”

    “Y’know, like, dominant/submissive type stuff. Where like, the dom puts the sub into subspace.”

    Shane shakes his head. “I have no idea what that means.”

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    Shane gets drunk and spills to Rose about his and Ilya's non-boring sex life. Rose has some thoughts.
    a/k/a Shane discovers that he and Ilya have been kinky this whole time, and no one ever thought to tell him.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Ilya followed. Of course he followed. He'd been following Shane Hollander for years. Across rinks, across borders, across every line he'd ever drawn for himself. And he wasn't going to stop now because of an elevator and a silence and two words he wished he could swallow back down.

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane was speechless, and Ilya was unknowingly saying the sweetest things to him without even knowing. Shane's eyes started to water. He loved Ilya so much. He had watched for years as the man he loved slowly disappeared. turning into a shell of the strong, smart, cunning man Shane once knew.

    "We did a commercial," Ilya said, grabbing Shane's attention. He knew what he was talking about.

    "You did?" Shane replied to keep him talking.

    "Yes, it was hockey something, very early, I was very young," Ilya said, waving his hand trying to bring the rest of the story to him.

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    Ilya has dementia and tells Shane about a Jane, not knowing that they were the same person

    Thank you to my bsf who came up with the name and reading the unedited version :P

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    30 May 2026

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    With a record-breaking transfer fee in the 2018 off-season, Ilya Rozanov moved to Ottawa and wrecked his entire career and legacy in one go. Three years later, in a hole-in-the-wall pizza joint in Canada, a few of the Boston Raiders reckon with why.

    Relatedly, Shane Hollander is getting married.

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    30 May 2026

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    “Why not strip poker?”

    Shane blinks. Over the roars of the rest of the table, Ilya has to lean over so that Shane can hear him. His hot breath tickles across Shane’s cheek.

    “Hollander? This is okay with you?”

    Shane opens his mouth to say no are you all crazy there is no way I could get naked in front of you without you being able to see how desperately I want you, but swallows it down.

    “Sure. Yeah, it’s fine. I’m okay.”

    Or: the boys gang up on shane during strip poker and ilya is going to kill them dead

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    30 May 2026