1 - 20 of 235 Bookmarks by Phanson
Navigation
List of Bookmarks
-
your presence has gone through me (like needle through a thread) by GatheringBlue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Mar 2026
Tags
Summary
"We're setting you up with a billet situation," Fletcher continued. "It's pretty common for first-year players, especially international guys. Gives you a chance to settle in, learn the city, have someone looking out for you."
"Okay," Ilya said slowly, not entirely sure what a billet was, but not wanting to admit his ignorance.
He could guess from the context – he’d heard of rookies being assigned to live with older single players, veterans who could show them the ropes. Maybe that was what Fletcher meant. Connors maybe, he was probably a handful of years older than Ilya. Or perhaps Becker. Ilya just hoped it was someone who–
"You'll be staying with Nikolai Petrov and his family."
The words hit Ilya like a punch to the gut. For a moment, he forgot how to breathe.
"Petrov?" he managed, his voice coming out strangled.
__________________________________________________________________The Bears decide that Ilya should be set up with a billet for his first season. The idea of spending a year living with a man that Ilya is sure hates him is completely terrifying. And yet, it ends up being the best thing to ever happen to him.
Series
- Part 5 of heated rivalry fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 91,209
- Chapters:
- 10/?
- Comments:
- 1,824
- Kudos:
- 6,331
- Bookmarks:
- 2,186
- Hits:
- 136,810
Bookmarked by Phanson
26 Jan 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Neil joined the Nest shortly after Jean and has been enduring alongside him for years. After Kevin broke his hand and left for the Foxes, Neil and Jean stuck close and survived together. When Kevin makes an unprecedented return to Evermore, the equilibrium of the Nest is disrupted. Now with Kevin back but permanently sidelined as an assistant coach, Neil and Jean are faced with a new hopelessness. It drives them to extremes until they're cut and exiled from the Nest. An impromptu transfer to the Foxes secures them a team, but not without its challenges.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 150,119
- Chapters:
- 26/?
- Comments:
- 593
- Kudos:
- 701
- Bookmarks:
- 176
- Hits:
- 25,274
Bookmarked by Phanson
18 Jan 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Andrew met Neil in a park when they were five, hiding in a tunnel in the playground set and immediately the two became inseparable; causing chaos for the adults around them, growing closer and closer as the years trickle by even through trauma and abuse from caregivers and unstable mothers all until one day Neil's unstable mother snatches Neil away for eight years just as everything in Andrew's life shifts- from having a new adoptive mom, to finding his brother and doing everything he can to protect him, to gaining a family that he wants to share with Neil. And after eight years, after thinking that his best friend and only love was dead, Neil comes back into his life easily fitting himself by Andrew's side once again, leaving the two of them to navigate their new developing relationship together alongside their traumas and complex family relationships
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 126,460
- Chapters:
- 28/?
- Comments:
- 1,159
- Kudos:
- 1,483
- Bookmarks:
- 292
- Hits:
- 40,780
Bookmarked by Phanson
09 Dec 2025
-
You Made a Monster Out of Me by basicallymonsters
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
13 Mar 2025
Tags
Summary
He realizes that everyone feels exactly the same way he does, filthy and buzzed and understood and angry. His eyes find Andrew again, sober but animated like the drums are a live wire and he’s electric.
He thinks, if he could be part of this, if he could stand in the middle of the stage in a garden full of monsters, and sing the audience’s veins open, he would never need another drink, or another moment on court.
Prompt: Andreil in a rock band setting – tattoos, harsh lighting, calloused fingers, Andrew’s sweaty arms, Neil’s striking blue eyes, someone’s excellent voice, an uncomfortable undercurrent of drug abuse.
-
Tags
Summary
Still recovering from his brief stay with the O’Driscoll’s, Arthur, frustrated by his slow improvement, decides to make things worse. Dutch helps.
TW: ableist language, mentions of child abuse, mentions of suicidal thoughts, mentions of self harm, mentions of eating disorders.
Series
- Part 3 of Facing West
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 88,734
- Chapters:
- 44/44
- Comments:
- 1,122
- Kudos:
- 807
- Bookmarks:
- 103
- Hits:
- 22,245
Bookmarked by Phanson
10 Mar 2025
-
Tags
Summary
But despite the beauty of Hyunjin’s features, Felix’s skin prickled with a wave of goosebumps when he saw the dark look Hyunjin had fixed him with.
Felix’s voice trembled slightly when he spoke, and his sentence sounded more like a question. “Um, hi. I have... a coffee for you.”
Hyunjin’s glare only intensified as he pressed the button on his phone set, leaning over to it slightly. “Send me Minho. Now.”or
When Lee Felix lands his dream job, he’s hopeful to finally break into the world of high fashion; while his distant boyfriend barely notices, his supportive new colleagues are everything he could have ever hoped for. The only problem is the company’s impossibly handsome CEO, Hwang Hyunjin, who seems to hate Felix with everything he has in him.
DISCLAIMER: ALL ABUSE TAGS ARE NOT BETWEEN HYUNLIX
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 278,392
- Chapters:
- 35/35
- Collections:
- 4
- Comments:
- 2,508
- Kudos:
- 3,011
- Bookmarks:
- 509
- Hits:
- 92,922
Bookmarked by Phanson
18 Dec 2024
-
Tags
Summary
Jeongguk has learned the hard way from the tender age of thirteen when his father pushed him down the stairs, that people are a disappointment. They always will be and so he breaks hearts instead.
Hurt people hurt people.
Jeongguk likes hurting girls, but he doesn't like hurting Kim Taehyung.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 100,605
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Collections:
- 20
- Comments:
- 1,286
- Kudos:
- 20,539
- Bookmarks:
- 6,820
- Hits:
- 591,530
Bookmarked by Phanson
01 Nov 2024
-
Bookmarked by Phanson
29 Oct 2024
-
Tags
Summary
Neil woke up on Wymack's couch, his skin torn as a result of Riko's torture over the past two -three?- weeks. So when hazel eyes stared at him with such intensity, he chalked it up to dizziness.
Andrew couldn't be here yet. Andrew was supposed to be at Easthaven.
Or,
Andrew comes back from Easthaven before Neil gets back from the Nest. Andrew is there for the immediate aftermath.Russian translation available by darrrrrrssst HERE
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,052
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 60
- Kudos:
- 1,082
- Bookmarks:
- 141
- Hits:
- 8,798
Bookmarked by Phanson
28 Oct 2024
-
Losing Face by casey_writes_domestic_fluff
Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), Video Blogging RPF
07 Aug 2021
Tags
Summary
It’s not until George is finally drifting off to sleep, feeling sticky and used, that he really sees it. He sees the man he used to be, brazen and content. He misses that man dearly.
He wonders how he withered away into bruises on thighs and scarring on wrists. He wonders if he could still turn back or if it’s too late for him.
He wraps his arms tighter around himself, sobbing silently as his fingers dig into his rib cage. He doesn’t want to spend the rest of his life like this. But he doesn't want to die tonight, either.
If you want, I can fly out. Or you can come here.
Maybe it's time George let somebody love him.
- - -
Or, the one where George is in an abusive relationship and Dream will stop at nothing to show him that he deserves better.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 60,344
- Chapters:
- 38/38
- Collections:
- 4
- Comments:
- 2,011
- Kudos:
- 4,213
- Bookmarks:
- 623
- Hits:
- 96,959
Bookmarked by Phanson
01 Jul 2024
-
Tags
Summary
After the end of the five-year mission, Kirk and Spock go their separate ways. Spock to New Vulcan and Kirk to Iowa. But eventually they are reunited in Riverside where Jim is also navigating his relationship with his mother.
Series
- Part 31 of Stand-Alone Stories
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 60,101
- Chapters:
- 45/45
- Comments:
- 2,115
- Kudos:
- 2,366
- Bookmarks:
- 442
- Hits:
- 59,340
Bookmarked by Phanson
05 Mar 2024
-
Tags
Summary
The year is 2258. Jim Kirk is a Lieutenant on the U.S.S. Farragut, Spock the science officer of the U.S.S. Enterprise. When the ships come together for a priority landing party, these two strangers find themselves fighting against the odds for a chance at life in an alien world, and the only way they'll make it through is by relying on each other.
Series
- Part 1 of Sha Ka Ree
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 180,505
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Collections:
- 3
- Comments:
- 2,734
- Kudos:
- 6,122
- Bookmarks:
- 2,118
- Hits:
- 152,943
Bookmarked by Phanson
05 Mar 2024
-
Tags
Summary
Wymack’s voice trails off, words stuttering to an abrupt stop. All heads turn, slowly following the path of Wymack’s gaze.
Andrew spots him almost immediately - hair as black as night, curls gentle and full atop his head. He’s got a bruise the size of a baseball around his eye, freckles spattered out around it like an explosion of stardust. His eyes are the colour of the sky, cresting with storm clouds.
His hands are in his pockets as he walks by, fisted around something. He doesn’t look at any of them as he passes, eyes downcast.
Andrew’s never seen him before.
“What the hell happened to your face, Neil?” Wymack shouts, voice startling in the aftermath of silence. Neil doesn’t stop, plundering by the team and their coach without a second-glance.
__
In which Wymack adopts Neil at the age of 13, after the world has already chewed him up and spit him back out a few times over.
The Foxes are still the Foxes, and Neil and Andrew are still destined to find each other.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 81,844
- Chapters:
- 50/50
- Comments:
- 1,981
- Kudos:
- 8,069
- Bookmarks:
- 1,515
- Hits:
- 219,914
Bookmarked by Phanson
07 Jan 2024
-
Tags
Summary
An AU where Mary never got Nathaniel out. Instead, he became too invaluable of an asset to be killed off or 'gifted' to Tetsuji. Instead, he's raised with Ichirou and Jean as a part of Ichirou's inner circle.
He'd always had a knack for languages and lying and all the 'messy stuff' came easily enough when your father is called the Butcher of Baltimore. So Nathaniel became the Wraith. He was untraceable, unknowable, infalliable; a criminal fairytale.
When Kevin Day leaves the Nest, there's no better person to send.
~
"Who the hell are you?" Andrew demanded.
He wasn't anyone, not really; not anymore. He hadn't really been anyone in years now. There'd been a time. Once. But there were entire lifetimes between who he could have been and what he'd become. He could taste it sometimes; blackberries and sand stinging his tongue like the iron branded on his shoulder.
It was easier to pretend he'd never been anyone at all.
"I'm nothing," he answered. The ghost of a smile pulled at his lips; sharp and cruel. "A wraith." The Wraith, he didn't say, but the shadows ran through Andrew's eyes and he wondered if Andrew had heard it anyways.
Series
- Part 1 of Innominate
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 320,822
- Chapters:
- 28/74
- Collections:
- 3
- Comments:
- 3,133
- Kudos:
- 4,164
- Bookmarks:
- 1,099
- Hits:
- 195,952
Bookmarked by Phanson
22 Dec 2023
-
Tags
Summary
This is not an investigative podcast. I am not trying to find anyone. I am not delusional enough to believe that a decades-long cold case could be cracked by a case worker in South Carolina. I do not even believe Nathaniel and Mary wish to be found. By putting this out into the world, I’m only hoping to find evidence - that he was alive, that he’s still surviving. Just like I am.
or: detailing the evidence of the disappearance and survival of one neil josten.
Bookmarked by Phanson
21 Dec 2023
-
Tags
Summary
Somewhere on the road, Mary Hatford gets pregnant with her second child. When she passes, she leaves behind not only Neil, but his toddler brother. Survival is difficult without also raising a kid. Worn out and desperate, Neil still somehow ends up at Palmetto, only this time, he brings his four-year-old brother with him.
Series
- Part 1 of The Sun Still Rises
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 619,001
- Chapters:
- 95/95
- Comments:
- 6,579
- Kudos:
- 10,195
- Bookmarks:
- 2,122
- Hits:
- 585,161
Bookmarked by Phanson
12 Nov 2023
-
Tags
Summary
The Pros were never in the cards. Not for an ex-medicated alleged psychotic with a dysfunctional family and an Exy career he’d rather not have. But even if it wasn't his first choice, no matter what happens, it can’t possibly be worse than that one fucked up sophomore year when he stood toe to toe with the Yakuza-and won.
At least, that’s what Andrew thinks until a familiar face shows up.
Another Raven!Neil AU. Or, the one where the boys don’t meet until the Pros.
**Currently updating once a month.**
Series
- Part 1 of Not Yours To Bleed
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 408,215
- Chapters:
- 57/?
- Collections:
- 10
- Comments:
- 6,384
- Kudos:
- 3,941
- Bookmarks:
- 912
- Hits:
- 234,873
Bookmarked by Phanson
08 Nov 2023
-
Tags
Summary
Neil is on the run with his mother for three years before his father catches up to them. And after finally being handed off to The Ravens his life is never the same.
After three more years of brutal training and abuse at the hands of Riko and Tetsuji, his life is changed yet again on the day Kevin Day runs away to the foxes, leaving him and Jean Moreau behind to suffer the consequences.
Six more heinous months after that, in the summer before his long promised debut, he's finally allowed to leave the nest...but he's still anything but free.As the list of friends and allies grows, so too does his list of problems. How much of himself is he willing to give away to keep the people who matter to him safe? And how many lies and secrets can he stack on top of one another before his house of cards comes crumbling down?
Edit: Check out my discord for regular updates on this and all my other fics :) https://discord.com/invite/Ehad9M5f28
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 943,033
- Chapters:
- 109/?
- Comments:
- 4,260
- Kudos:
- 2,459
- Bookmarks:
- 451
- Hits:
- 132,246
Bookmarked by Phanson
06 Nov 2023
-
Tags
Summary
When Neil Josten gets arrested for a fake ID and thrown into the Juvenile Detention System, he knows that he's running on borrowed time before his father's men catch up.
His mother is dead, there's nowhere to run, there's nothing left at all but an Exy court at the Oakland County Detention Center that he has to earn the right to play on through good behavior.
And Neil's never been great at obeying rules.
***
An Andriel AU where the boys meet as teens in Juvie.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 105,947
- Chapters:
- 31/31
- Comments:
- 1,772
- Kudos:
- 7,032
- Bookmarks:
- 1,618
- Hits:
- 158,058
Bookmarked by Phanson
03 Nov 2023
-
Tags
Summary
Andrew has finally managed to steal Neil away from the Nest, but Riko wants Neil back, and he'll stop at nothing to get his revenge. They're not out of the woods yet.
Series
- Part 3 of Out of the Ashes
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 90,194
- Chapters:
- 22/?
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 1,084
- Kudos:
- 2,683
- Bookmarks:
- 390
- Hits:
- 64,473
Bookmarked by Phanson
03 Nov 2023