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    Yuna and David Hollander raised a perfect son, a born star. But even stars are lonely up in the sky. They've always been worried, Shane tends to have tunnel vision, and a discipline that always isolated him.
    Then came Ilya, the menace, Russian playboy, grade A asshole. It took exactly a week for the family of three to become a family of four. The corridors in the house had new column of photos, dining room lined with new frames, an extra cupboard filled with new clothes.

    Yet, the reality didn't change. Despite the reputation, Ilya was as isolated as Shane was. Or so Yuna thought until her door bell started ringing again and again and again and the entirety of Boston and Ottawa roster shows up at her door to plan the wedding....

    May God give her patience because if she gets the strength she'll kill the 20 or so adults crowding her living room like a bunch of ducklings looking up at her as their mother duck.

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    16 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 29

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    Fics that focus on how much Shane loves and adores Ilya Rozanov. Fics are not connected but they're all focused on the same thing and that's Ilya Rozanov getting loved, specifically by Shane Hollander but sometimes by his friends too lol

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    16 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander isn’t good at understanding the unsaid, but 6 months of silence interrupted by the reminder he’s nothing but boring and fucking annoying is pretty easy to interpret.

    It’s over. He lets Ilya have him. Fuck him. And it was fun, and now it’s done. He’s lost the appeal when he gave it up. Message received, the player is done chasing.

    He’s going to throw up.

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    Ilya Rozanov and his avoidant technique of “if I don’t touch or say anything, then I can’t make it worse” is used on a spiralling, self-deprecating, repressed homosexual overthinker with anxiety. It does make it worse.

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    15 May 2026

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    “I could marry Svetlana,” Ilya says in one breath, like the sentence bores him with its mundanity.

    Shane feels like he’s been pushed from a cliff, left to fall and break his bones, like the lungs just got ripped from his chest, like a bullet was shot on his shameful, stupid, desperate heart.

    He likes her. She makes him happy. In the rare times he said her name in Shane's presence, it brought a smile soft as cotton on the Russian’s face.

    She was there first. She's a woman. She's perfect for Ilya, his lifestyle, and his career. Why would he bother himself trying something more with Shane? Why, when he could have that more with someone who would be so much less complicated?

     

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    Or Shane thinks his love has to be selfish for it to have any worth. Ilya disagrees but that man is circling around the subject from so far away it might as well be from space.

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    15 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 73

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    Adventures of the Autistic Uncle and Nephew Duo (and Ilya, sometimes)

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    15 May 2026