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  1. Public Bookmark 3

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    Fyolai cheats on Dazai

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    07 Sep 2025

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    Bro lost all dignity

  2. Public Bookmark 3

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    Nikolai was struggling to lose himself. Nikolai was struggling to resist god. Fyodor was the only one who understood him. The only one who reached his hand out to this poor caged bird when he needed it. Fyodor was his god. But what was Nikolai to him? Was he just another pawn on his chess board? No no no! That just won’t do.

    Nikolai will be what Fyodor needs too. He will be the one to make sure Fyodor isn’t bored, doing whatever Fyodor doesn’t expect him to do. Nikolai will be the only one who’ll survive the touch of this russian. Nikolai will be special.

    Oh, will he ever be able to free them both from the grip of their emotions? The fluttering feeling they both get when Nikolai’s hands clasp around his. And oh, if only Nikolai were a girl.

    If only he were a girl— would Fyodor finally accept him? Nikolai just wants to cage himself in Fyodor’s heart and make it beat for him. Nikolai longed to see his eyes soften towards him.

    And oh, how Fyodor couldn’t, not until he could destroy Dazai. But oh, how the cracks in his actions showed. How Fyodor would let Nikolai touch him so easily, his big hands grasping the russian’s so tightly, longingly. Fyodor ignored the flutter of his heart. Yes, it was nothing.

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    05 Aug 2025

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    READING THIS SHIT NOW (Love it)

  3. Public Bookmark 11

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    “You’ve been agonizing over getting older again,” Nikolai deduced.

    Fyodor gave a noncommittal shrug. He wondered how Nikolai picked up on his emotions so swiftly without being able to see his expression clearly. Intuition or experience turned habit, he supposed.

    “Relax, my sweet dove.” Nikolai stooped lower, peppering open-mouthed kisses across Fyodor’s jaw and neck as he lay him down on the sheets, his hips notching comfortably between Fyodor’s thighs. He was warm. He smelled like summer. He held Fyodor like something worthy of reverence. “I don’t want you thinking any nonsense tonight. Just be with me.”

    Fyodor wrapped his arms around Nikolai’s neck and murmured against his lips. “I’m here, Kolya.”

    “Good.”

    [or: in their twenties, fyodor and nikolai decided to get hitched and raise a few cat children instead of committing brutal acts of terrorism. tonight they celebrate their 15th wedding anniversary in bed and love each other very much]

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    03 Aug 2025

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    OMFG THIS WAS CUTE.

  4. Public Bookmark 4

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    Nikolai thought of life as a sort of half-sleep. The couch kind. You fade out in the middle of a thought. You come back not knowing if you’d gone unconscious or not. You don’t dream. You only imagine. You wonder: is this all there is? There are gas station doorbells and laundromat dryers ringing in your ears. The slats of blinds erect crooked prison bars across your eyes. And the stench of cigarette smoke wafts into your nostrils, and the Devil has returned to you with a bottle of vodka, and he wants to share.

    “Fedya, it’s two o’clock in the morning,” Nikolai said flatly—no theatrics at this hour, and not in this mental state—but opened the apartment door wider and let him in.

    “We are a pair of insomniacs. You expect this.”

    “Are we a pair of anything?”

    He was fixed with a look from Fyodor that was resigned like a dull blade, hacking at soft things until they ruptured because it could no longer slice. 

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    25 Jul 2025

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    Meow

  5. Public Bookmark 7

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    “You know Dos-kun…”, Nikolai susurrated while circling around his willing victim. “Sticking to the old-saw doesn’t suit mind brilliant like yours”

    “I’ve lost count how many of your plans involved getting abducted and restrained. Surely you’d come up with something new”, a dry snort. “That is, unless there’s an ulterior motive”

    Trembles ripping down spine indicated he was spot-on. Nikolai cracked a triumphant grin. No more hemming and hawing. He strode in front of Fyodor, tipped chin up with the cane and looked him straight in the eye.

    “You have a thing for being tied up, don’t you?”

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    25 Jul 2025

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    Yooo

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