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    Shane Hollander is not a small fucking guy; he is all muscle, with big, calloused hockey-player hands and eyes nearly pretty enough to disguise the violence hidden in breadth of his shoulders.

    Alexei is impressed.

    Not a bad get, for someone fished out of a pool of hockey men who look like thumbs, their noses like squashed tomatoes and ears like boat sails. If it could not be beautiful, nosy bitch Svetlana, if it has to be a man, if it has to be a hockey player, then rich as God Shane Hollander isn’t the worst Ilyusha could have pulled.

     

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    or Alexei is in deep shit. He can’t get to Ilya, so he tries the next best thing.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    i cried and i cried and then i cried some more

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    The ice is where Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov fall in love, but the (mostly Asian) grocery stores in Montreal are where they learn how to be in love with each other.

    In which Ilya learns about mochi, Shane learns about Russian milk bags, and they both learn how to breathe. Together.
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    “I do not understand,” Ilya said, pushing their grocery cart down the aisles of a massive Chinese grocery store. “You act like alley murderer in Montreal Montreal but almost like normal boyfriend in not-Montreal Montreal.”

    “Hush.” Shane bumped his shoulder into Ilya as a warning. “Don’t say the b-word out loud.”

    “What b-word? Boyfriend?”

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    27 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 87

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    “Hello, moya lyubov,” he said sweetly. “How is your head?”

    There was a pregnant pause where Shane must’ve stood there in shock, his mouth slightly agape as he lost the ability to use any of his bodily functions. Then Ilya moved to pull him into a hug, the physical contact shocking him back to reality. He pushed Ilya away from the door with his good hand, Ilya going along willingly, and closed the door as quietly as he could in his panic.

    “Ilya, what are you doing here?” Shane asked, his voice barely contained. “How did you even get this address, did you find it online somehow?”

    The softness in Ilya’s face morphed into a wicked grin, which didn’t make Shane feel any better.

    “I got address from your mother, silly,” Ilya replied, without a hint of irony or sarcasm.

    “My mother. You got. This address. From my mother.”

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    A follow-up to "why do you hate him?". Shane doesn't remember much from his time in the hospital, which isn't helped when Ilya decides to surprise him at his parents' home. Shane knows he should be happy but...it's a shock, of course. But the time together allows Shane to learn a lot about Ilya that he'd never had the chance to before.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “ Okay!” St-Simon interrupted loudly. “Can we please go five fucking minutes without hearing about your fucking dick?”

    “You have a third message from: Jane. Gonna ride you so hard tonight.”

    “Holy fuck!” Connors laughed. “This fuckin girl! No wonder she locked down Roz!”

    St-Simon groaned. ”I just asked for five fucking minutes, man!” St-Simon whined. “Five!”

    (for years cliff marlow deals with jane. one unfortunate bluetooth connection reveals more)

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    Shane is finally ready to come out on his own terms in an emotional Instagram post about his relationship with Ilya...

    The only problem is everyone thinks he was hacked.

    To be fair, Ilya writing: No is true, I'm gay for Hollander, did not help.

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