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  1. Public Bookmark 69

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    “You shouldn’t have to take care of me,” Shane said, voice muffled against Ilya’s shirt.

    Something cracked open inside Ilya, an overwhelming need to hold Shane as close as he could and protect him from whatever in the world had made him feel unworthy of care. Shane always took care of people. He carried his team to every victory they claimed, giving so much more than he got in return, and wore the heavy mantle of the Metros’ expectations alone. But it wasn’t just his team. When Ilya’s English failed him, Shane stepped in front of the microphone. When Ilya’s composure failed him, he was a comfort. Even when Shane did not know he was holding Ilya together, the force of his presence was so much more than Ilya knew how to deserve.

    Now it was Ilya’s turn. “Let me,” he said into Shane’s hair. “I do not mind.”

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    OR: Before Shane can leave post tuna melt, he has a panic attack. Ilya calms him down.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    There was a burst of static, a gusty sigh. "𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐤𝐚, you have the biggest 'bottom eyes' I have ever seen."

    "That's not a thing."

    "It is absolutely a thing, and that thing is you," she cackled, and he hung up the phone, ears so hot they should have been smoking.

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    Or, Shane meets Svetlana first, and it changes everything and nothing.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    With a record-breaking transfer fee in the 2018 off-season, Ilya Rozanov moved to Ottawa and wrecked his entire career and legacy in one go. Three years later, in a hole-in-the-wall pizza joint in Canada, a few of the Boston Raiders reckon with why.

    Relatedly, Shane Hollander is getting married.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Initially just a little one-shot of self-validation and recognition in relation to Autism.

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    Ilya moved and rested next to him, Shane leaned over and curled in on his side, moving the weighted blanket over his hips, to rest his head on Ilya’s thigh. He closed his eyes as he heard the video start.

    They both listened to the male voice from the UK start talking. Ilya immediately knew why Shane had run. He wrapped his arm around and under Shane’s arm, pressing his flat palm to his chest while he held the phone with his other hand. Shane pressed his hands over his and held him there. As the man kept talking, he felt Shane start to cry, his chest sobbing. He couldn’t make it more than five minutes in; he paused it and ran his now-free hand through Shane’s hair.

    Through tears his words came out in a torrent “Am I the weird one? Everyone always talks about how antisocial I am and makes jokes about how I don’t go out with people and I like to stay home and read. I am always boring and eat weird food and have such a strict focus on hockey and have all these rules and I make people follow them…” He was starting to struggle to take in a breath.

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    27 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 51

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    Coming out to his team had been - an idea.
    He hadn't expected a parade or popping champagne in the locker room.
    But he had expected decency.

    Or: Montreal sucks, Shane makes sure to tell them.
    Or or: Ilya Rozanov deserves only good things. Shane is actively, verbally, trying to make sure he gets them.
    Or or OR: I was rewatching the marvelous mrs. maisel and i was like what if shane did that

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