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  1. Public Bookmark 34

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    His daughter is a week away from graduating college when a bundle of letters arrives. The first thing he notices is that the paper is worn, weathered by time and close to falling apart. The second thing he notices is the newer, small letter on top.

    Marge is in the kitchen, and he can smell a hint of cinnamon and warm bread as he unfolds the letter. Dear Major Gale Cleven, I am writing to inform you of the passing of my husband, Major John Egan. I believe you were close - 

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    Or Gale "Buck" Cleven survives the War, and he goes home to his girl. He gets the life with the white house and blue shutters and the daughter who has never been covered in so much blood and mud you forget what it's like to be clean. He gets his life, and he forgets the hell he survived. Twenty years later he gets the letters Bucky wrote and never sent.

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    13 Jul 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 7

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    Sweaty, sticky and tired, Gene sat up with the feeling he was not going to fall asleep again, no matter what.

    With his eyes closed, Gene tried to hold on to the last dregs of the dream, to remember the details, and how it had made him feel.

    He listened to the crickets screaming outside the window and the screech of a passing bird far in the sky and he tried to calm his beating heart.

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    12 Jun 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 95

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    “You’re supposed to be? Annie, where are you?”

    She bit her lip, half-tempted to lie just to keep that disappointed tone out of Dick’s voice. “Grand Central Station?”

    “Grand – New York? You're in New York City. Right now?"

    (Ann only wanted to see her brother. The can of worms being opened was probably inevitable.)

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    03 Jun 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 2

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    Elizabeth Margaret Cleven is seventeen going on eighteen when her father walks out to the rusty shed in the backyard and blows off the side of his head. A week after his funeral a set of letters comes in the mail with his name on it.

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    (Or, Bucky writes letters he doesn't send, Gale leaves the war behind, gets the girl and daughter and perfect, picket fence life. Fifteen years later he gets the news that John Egan has died, he swallows his gun and - Elizabeth finds a set of letters sent to her father, letters he never read, and dear god, even with the cruelty of the world, love perseveres.)

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    A study of queerness in a world that wants you dead, those who survive and those who don’t, and the importance of remembering both.

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    08 May 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 22

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    “I think it would have been nice,” Curt starts, his voice muffled from sleep and drink, “if we had all met before all of this happened.”

    or: Curt sends the Brit to the ground with one well placed punch. Then its a long walk back to the barracks.

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    26 Apr 2025