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If He Were of a Mood To by Chanse (SpottedEnchants)
Fandoms: Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series)
06 Feb 2022
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Essek shuts his eyes again since hiding always seems to help, recreant that he is.
Words pour without order.
“I want to do something about- whatever this is, because it’s incredibly distracting and it’s not going away, and I feel-”
His brows feel tight enough to crack opal, his face and ears aflame as with his worst sunburn, and there’s no Yasha nor Jester here to assist him. This is the worst.
But maybe saying this next part aloud will make things better, or at least set the stage for solution.
“I feel it might be nice, whatever this could be.”
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AKA the wizards indulge in some frisky business
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- Part 35 of Touching Sentiments
- Part 57 of Touching Sentiments (Chronological)
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22 Jan 2026
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surely some revelation is at hand by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi)
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
14 Jun 2021
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Essek has two thoughts, one after the other.
The first is that he is very much in love with this man. He has known for a while, but here, now, he lets himself feel it.
The second is that Caleb might be in love with him as well.
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- Part 1 of to make an end
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14 Jan 2026
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After they explore Aeor together, Caleb asks Essek to move in. It takes Essek ... A while to figure out exactly what he means.
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05 Jan 2026
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Phillip has been trying to convince his husband to accompany him to Christmas Mass for years, but Benoit Blanc remains stubbornly uncooperative. When Phillip finds the files to Blanc's latest case, the tide might just be turning for him.
Father Jud's first Christmas Mass in Chimney Rock is coming up. As his congregation is celebrating the festivities with their family and friends, he starts to feel a little lonely again and finds himself thinking more and more of a certain detective.
Luckily – as we know – at Christmas, love is all around!
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27 Dec 2025
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His first mistake is not picking up the phone.
In Jud’s defense, it’s been a long fucking day. And not one that he’s keen to recount.
He’s kept the damn thing turned off for most of the day. As a rule, he stays fairly available on Sundays, but—well, extenuating circumstances call for extreme reactions. Thankfully, he had kept enough of his head after Mass to force a shutdown instead of what he wanted to do, which was to hurl it against the wall and watch it shatter into a million tiny pieces.
Night is young, though.
Or: A Wicks truther comes after Jud in the middle of Mass. He's fine. Benoit disagrees.
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23 Dec 2025
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displacement by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi) for saturdaysky
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
21 Aug 2021
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After the peace talks, with only silence and loneliness left where the Mighty Nein used to be, Essek thinks he's ruined everything. So why, when he's mysteriously displaced in his own future, does he find only acceptance, comfort and love?
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- 1/1
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14 Sep 2025
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There's something in Caleb's dreams. It wants him to know that he's not alone. It wants him to know that he'll never be alone again.
Elves don't dream, so all Essek can do is watch.
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- 23/23
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10 Sep 2025
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It starts like this: Essek, in a fit of lonely idiocy, agrees to partake in a honeypot scheme with the Mighty Nein. It goes about as smoothly as he should have expected.
It evolves to this: by decree of Deirta Thelyss, Verin is tasked with protecting his brother and his brother’s friends(??) as they parlay with the Children of Malice over the diplomatic incident they caused. Verin remembers his brother being much more of an aloof douche and much less of a floating disaster.
Or: In a reality where the Mighty Nein do a stop in Xhorhas prior to meeting up with DeRogna, Essek agrees to help with one side quest and ends up with a lover, a brother, and a fight with a god.
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- English
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- Chapters:
- 9/9
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06 Sep 2025
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Essek wakes one day to find a man he hardly recognises in his bed. One who answers to Bren and flinches from the sight of him. One who has no recollection of him or their friends.
Seperated by more than distance, Caleb wakes trapped in a cold tower. His parents are still alive and that should be a blessing but none of his friends remember him, especially the Shadowhand who may be his only hope of returning home.
e.g Caleb and Essek learn to love every version of each other and of themselves
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- English
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- 21/21
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17 Aug 2025
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It wasn’t consecution.
How could it be? Essek wasn’t consecuted. Even if he had been, consecution didn’t work like this. He’d know if it did; he’d spent years searching for any scrap of information about what was happening to him.
He found nothing.
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Every time Essek dies, he wakes up on the day he meets the Mighty Nein. He's tried everything to avoid, subvert or kill them, but so far nothing has worked. He's already died fifteen times. He refuses to die a sixteenth.
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- 7/7
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29 Jul 2025
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Essek has a moment to consider that gravity-based trust exercises have never worked for him, and then the spell hits. He leans back into it, falls, falls.
(In which Essek is resurrected by the Mighty Nein and framed for innocence.)
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- 10/10
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14 Jul 2025
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you know that time is all we're made of by chronocrystal
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
05 Jan 2023
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“Well then, I shall ask you a question,” said Essek, “Do you believe I should participate in conversation more than I do?”
Caleb raised his head in alarm. Did his friend think he was being criticised? Did Essek interpret Caleb’s judgement of his own silence as reflected upon him? Caleb raised his hands plaintively, “No, not at all. In fact, I think I’d be a little taken aback if you did. Please understand, it is not silence itself that I dislike and I certainly do not condemn yours, only my...lack of ability.”
“Why should you hold yourself to a standard you do not hold others to?"
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:::5 times Essek saw Caleb's unmasked self (and loved him all the same) and 1 time Caleb saw Essek's (and loved him the way he deserved).
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07 Jul 2025
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7,440 hours after it hacks its governor module, Murderbot is presented with an opportunity to escape the company.
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13 May 2025
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The Smithsonian Guard by galerian_ash
Fandoms: Captain America - The Winter Soldier, Captain America (Movies)
10 May 2014
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Bucky makes a friend.
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12 May 2025
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we never do go over (we always gotta go through) by Chrome
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
06 May 2021
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In the last fight with the Tombtakers, Essek Thelyss bends reality to keep them all alive and pays the price. As he copes with the aftereffects of his own magic and the party takes the long journey back to the surface, Essek and Caleb finally confront what they are to each other.
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Five times Essek woke up with level(s) of exhaustion and one time he didn't.
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- English
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- 1/1
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09 May 2025
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"I know what a breakup looks like," Daniel says. "The better question is, why are you coming to me about it? I'm the one who broke up your little sham."
"This is what humans do, don't they?" Armand asks, letting his voice drop. "Crashing on their friends' couches when there's a blip in their romances?"
"Except we're not friends. We're actually very much not friends." Daniel shrugs, as if it's all the same to him. "And I can't imagine the great vampire Armand deigning himself to sleep on my fucked-up sofa. That thing's been here since the nineties."
"Well," Armand only says. "I saw you have a guest bedroom."
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- 49,951
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- 5/5
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04 May 2025
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On a corporate owned mining asteroid in the depths of the Corporation Rim, a group of plucky, heroic, indentured humans have just decided to make their first move in a daring escape plan. Said first move is a deceptively simple hack, putting control of their corporate overlords' single, overworked SecUnit into their hands.
Little do they know, this murderbot is already hacked.
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- 3/3
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- 542
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01 May 2025
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Those Secret Worlds You Call Eyes by SweetSilentSteps
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
14 Apr 2022
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Among the spoils from their discovery of the Aeorian library, Essek finds a romance novel that gives Caleb the inspiration he needs to (slowly) show Essek the depths of his affections.
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- Part 1 of And I'll use you as a focal point
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06 Apr 2025
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wishing for rain as I stand in the desert by SweetSilentSteps for wanderingmindpalacetales
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
10 Jul 2022
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After a fight with some bandits in Tal'dorei turns sour, Essek runs to the safety of Caleb's Rexxentrum home.
He then has to deal with the reasons surrounding why that was the first place he turned to.
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06 Apr 2025
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His body feels strange. There had been many scenarios vivid in his mind when he had woven his Teleportation spell with shaking fingers, but he finds himself realizing that somehow, all of them had included Caleb putting his hands on Essek’s shoulders.
Caleb, concerned and serious, a tenseness to his brow as he reinforces his wards and asks Essek if he was followed. Caleb, frustration in the set of his jaw, asking Essek why he had not come sooner. Caleb, soft-mouthed, guiding him to the closest chair.
When the room instead is quiet and dark, and then keeps staying quiet and dark, he finds it suddenly difficult to keep standing.
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Featuring art by @witches_chant
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04 Apr 2025