existentialwail
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欲不可纵 by existentialwail for ChezPillow (PillowLord)
Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
04 Jan 2025
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柳情歌的欲望强的下流: 柳情歌，落冰河，和五年血液。
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- Part 1 of All But English Exchange
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spark at the breaking by existentialwail
Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
01 Jan 2025
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Liu Qingge wants so much it's obscene: bingliu, and five years of blood.
English translation of CN fic "欲不可纵”
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- Part 2 of All But English Exchange
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because it is bitter, and because it is my heart by existentialwail for Kamaete
Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
08 Oct 2024
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The girl is in the middle of ruining Liu Mingyan’s borrowed silks when Qi Qingqi walks in on them.
It's overenthusiastic, to make such a mess so early on. But the girl's hot and pulsing even through the layers of fabric, and Liu Mingyan's pulse is quivering against the long fingers the girl’s wrapped about her throat. Each rough, graceless grind sends heat racing through Liu Mingyan’s own core. She could be any eager young thing fallen into Liu Mingyan’s bed during one of Luo Binghe’s many campaigns, but for her Xian Shu robes, and her face, still tensed in frustrated pleasure–still identical to Liu Mingyan’s own.
Liu Mingyan meets Qi Qingqi’s gaze, and smirks.
Or: PIDW!Liu Mingyan lands in SVSSS, and spends some time familiarizing herself with her alternate. Qi Qingqi gets caught in the crossfire.
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to the blade-dented bone by existentialwail
Fandoms: Professional Wrestling, World Wrestling Entertainment
18 Jul 2023
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Three days after Toronto and your neck still aches. Your arm, too, and your back, but those are lesser concerns now, dull throbbing things compared to the lightning-burst pain skittering across the column of your throat.
It's strange. A week ago you'd believed the blow to the back of your head would be the most painful you'd ever endure, that you'd already weathered Shirai at her worst and survived. But Shirai always did have a knack for surpassing her own limits. You really shouldn't even be surprised.
Or: Io Shirai puts her friendship with Candice LeRae to the torch. In the aftermath, Candice regroups, and re-evaluates.
Recent series
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All But English Exchange by existentialwail
Fandom 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
04 Jan 2025
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An Oral History of the End of Innocence by Scedasticity
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
05 Mar 2022
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F.A. 560. While the War of Wrath rages in Beleriand, the House of Olwë attempts to assemble a more complete account of the First Kinslaying than what seems to be the common version these days.
("I feel like we could have done a better job passing it all along in song. But it's so much easier to lament for murdered kin and lost ships than it is to, to… Lament for my niece's harpoon collection which she can't look at any more. Lament for my husband being kicked by a panicking horse and not seeking a healer until it was too late because he was trying to help people. Lament for my daughter's expression when she talks about the drownings. Lament for coming to regret a mass grave.")
Bookmarked by existentialwail
23 May 2026
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An Oral History of Dying in the Dagor Bragollach by Beleriand Death Trip (ajf)
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
20 Oct 2023
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According to a popular saying in Tirion, history is written by the survivors and edited by the dead.
Bookmarked by existentialwail
22 May 2026
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Sharper than a Serpent's Tooth by EmberOfTheSea
Fandoms: The Lord of the Rings - All Media Types, J. R. R. Tolkien's Middle-earth Legendarium & Related Fandoms
11 May 2026
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When Elrond learned the choice of his daughter, he was silent, though his heart was grieved and found the doom long feared none the easier to endure.
– Return of the King, Appendix A, The Tale of Aragorn and Arwen, J. R. R. Tolkien
Or, Arwen tells Elrond of her betrothal to Aragorn. He – doesn’t take it well.
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Her father! Her dear, dear world of a father. As ineluctable as the seasons and as unknowable. She was made in his likeness. They were a mirror and its reflection, spiralling on for eternity. A virus self-replicating, an aberration; their riverine bloodline nothing but a glitch in the great fabric of the universe, perpetuating itself over and over in the hopes of resolving its own paradox once and for all. The line of the peredhel – Arwen and Elrond and Elrond and Elwing and Elwing and Dior, all the way back to Lúthien herself – a poem of fixed meter and rhyming pairs, each generation following the same pattern time after time after time. No hope for escape.
Arwen had to get out; she had to break the mirror. That was the only way any of it would end. Could he not see that? He had to. He had to.
Bookmarked by existentialwail
20 May 2026
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This is Not for Tears by EmberOfTheSea
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
29 Jan 2026
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A dead man and a former queen bid each other farewell. Neither is sorry to see the other go.
Or, Fëanor and Indis, in the aftermath.
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19 May 2026
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The Last War Council at Tol Sirion and the Death of Love by Beleriand Death Trip (ajf)
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
16 Jun 2023
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Finrod and Fingolfin, an Age after their deaths, look back on their assorted triumphs and tragedies, compare cairn locations, mourn the kingdoms of Men they raised up in Beleriand, and conspire around a novelty cake.
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“I came to terms with my own betrayal a while ago,” said Finrod. “If you’re correct, it was only the minor refrain of a long-running and very disappointing theme.”
“I don’t mean to open old wounds,” said Ñolofinwë. “Although I suppose we’ve been doing little else since I sat down in this chair. It’s a very comfortable chair, at least.”
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