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An Oral History of the End of Innocence by Scedasticity
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
05 Mar 2022
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F.A. 560. While the War of Wrath rages in Beleriand, the House of Olwë attempts to assemble a more complete account of the First Kinslaying than what seems to be the common version these days.
("I feel like we could have done a better job passing it all along in song. But it's so much easier to lament for murdered kin and lost ships than it is to, to… Lament for my niece's harpoon collection which she can't look at any more. Lament for my husband being kicked by a panicking horse and not seeking a healer until it was too late because he was trying to help people. Lament for my daughter's expression when she talks about the drownings. Lament for coming to regret a mass grave.")
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23 May 2026
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An Oral History of Dying in the Dagor Bragollach by Beleriand Death Trip (ajf)
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
20 Oct 2023
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According to a popular saying in Tirion, history is written by the survivors and edited by the dead.
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22 May 2026
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Sharper than a Serpent's Tooth by EmberOfTheSea
Fandoms: The Lord of the Rings - All Media Types, J. R. R. Tolkien's Middle-earth Legendarium & Related Fandoms
11 May 2026
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When Elrond learned the choice of his daughter, he was silent, though his heart was grieved and found the doom long feared none the easier to endure.
– Return of the King, Appendix A, The Tale of Aragorn and Arwen, J. R. R. Tolkien
Or, Arwen tells Elrond of her betrothal to Aragorn. He – doesn’t take it well.
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Her father! Her dear, dear world of a father. As ineluctable as the seasons and as unknowable. She was made in his likeness. They were a mirror and its reflection, spiralling on for eternity. A virus self-replicating, an aberration; their riverine bloodline nothing but a glitch in the great fabric of the universe, perpetuating itself over and over in the hopes of resolving its own paradox once and for all. The line of the peredhel – Arwen and Elrond and Elrond and Elwing and Elwing and Dior, all the way back to Lúthien herself – a poem of fixed meter and rhyming pairs, each generation following the same pattern time after time after time. No hope for escape.
Arwen had to get out; she had to break the mirror. That was the only way any of it would end. Could he not see that? He had to. He had to.
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20 May 2026
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This is Not for Tears by EmberOfTheSea
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
29 Jan 2026
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A dead man and a former queen bid each other farewell. Neither is sorry to see the other go.
Or, Fëanor and Indis, in the aftermath.
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19 May 2026
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The Last War Council at Tol Sirion and the Death of Love by Beleriand Death Trip (ajf)
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
16 Jun 2023
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Finrod and Fingolfin, an Age after their deaths, look back on their assorted triumphs and tragedies, compare cairn locations, mourn the kingdoms of Men they raised up in Beleriand, and conspire around a novelty cake.
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“I came to terms with my own betrayal a while ago,” said Finrod. “If you’re correct, it was only the minor refrain of a long-running and very disappointing theme.”
“I don’t mean to open old wounds,” said Ñolofinwë. “Although I suppose we’ve been doing little else since I sat down in this chair. It’s a very comfortable chair, at least.”
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19 May 2026
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As Flowers From the Sky by Beleriand Death Trip (ajf)
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
05 May 2023
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In the wake of the Quenya ban, a diplomatic mission to Doriath is arranged under cloak of secrecy. Two kings in Beleriand, one new and one old, have a volatile encounter.
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Thingol, shocked, drew in a sudden breath through tight-clenched teeth. “He is the very image of Finwë!”
“I warned you of that earlier,” said Galadriel quietly, her smile returning. “The resemblance never failed to madden Fëanor, by the way.”
Sympathy for mad, dead Fëanor was not what he expected to feel today, but he felt it nonetheless. A beloved memory from a life long before the sun now rode into his kingdom under plain daylight. His mind whirled. He could not reconcile it.
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19 May 2026
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Tremble to Behold by dwellingondreams
Fandoms: A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
13 Jul 2023
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The gown Viserra wore to meet the Khal was lavender silk, to bring out her lilac eyes. It felt too smooth, too slippery against her skin. Once, she had been a pretty little girl, doll-like and frail, with a shy, gap-toothed smile. But she was a woman grown now, two-and-twenty, and over a decade of running and hiding and fighting for every scrap of bread, respect, and recognition had worn her hard and bare.
(Fourteen years after the Usurper's dogs destroyed her family and sent them fleeing into exile in Essos, Viserra Targaryen barters what little she has left on a desperate alliance with the Dothraki, determined to bring herself and her sister Daenerys home)
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15 May 2026
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Meteoroid by dwellingondreams
Fandoms: A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms (TV), A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
30 Mar 2026
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The old septa died in Bitterbridge, in a dark, shuttered room. She had been ailing when they reached the town, plagued by a sharp, nagging cough Dunk did not like the sound of, likely brought on by several days of rainy travel. They had been headed northeast, towards King’s Landing, for the landed knight they had served for the past three years had little need of septas after his daughters came of age to wed.
Well, Dunk had been more maidservant than septa, it was true, and mayhaps she had never really said the right vows, but it hardly mattered, did it? She wore grey robes, for white showed stains too readily, and carefully veiled her hair, which she kept cropped to her chin to make it easier to tend to. Septa Arla always said a maid of her size would always stand out and attract trouble, so she ought to let the Seven be her shield.
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15 May 2026
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「葬我于寒雾或血火」（Bury me with the frozen mist, or somehow in fire and blood） by Divano_Messiah
Fandom The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
19 May 2023
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费艾诺从星下之战幸存（但还是失去了王位，而且死于骤火）的if线路，主旨是希斯路姆小铁匠跟至高王搞男同性怨。
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09 May 2026
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Post-Endgame AU. In which Tarrlok and Noatak survive, but their relationship doesn't.
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- Part 1 of Hinterland
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03 May 2026
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Beneath the Silver Shroud by HewerOfCaves for miztes
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
06 Sep 2024
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The wind blew against Fingolfin’s face as he took his usual path among the dark tents flung like burnt charcoal against the endless white. Not for the first time he wondered where he was leading these people. His father had claimed his crown by promising the Noldor safety, abundance and light. He had kept his word. What promises could Fingolfin make now to these starving, disheartened people? What save darkness and revenge?
Trapped in a long snowstorm on the Helcaraxë, Fingolfin fights against famine and despair.
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26 Apr 2026
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Shitshow at the Finwë Factory by Emerla
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
15 Aug 2022
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Finwë runs one of the world’s largest media corporations, but the volatile relationship between his sons is threatening the future of the company - especially while the question of his successor is undecided. When an attempt at reconciliation ends in near-violence, Fingolfin has to decide how much more he’s willing to take.
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22 Apr 2026
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Two Half-Kings and a Full Lake Between by Melesta, polutropos
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
21 Apr 2024
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In the aftermath of their tumultuous arrival in Beleriand, Maglor has scarcely managed to hold together the bruised and splintering House of Fëanor and their Sindarin allies.
Then, the Sun's first rising brings with it Fingolfin’s host of Ice-hardened Noldor, hungry for retribution. With battered hearts and fraying minds, the two half-kings must navigate fragile relations among their own people even as they face the impossible task of reuniting the Noldor under a single leader.
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20 Apr 2026
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Out of the Dead Land by Limeritry
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
24 Mar 2026
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When Fingolfin felt time begin to weigh on him and a longing for life arise, he knew he was ready to leave the Halls of Mandos. Now he just had to find his way out.
But for that, first he had to speak with his family. Those with him in death, which was almost the full house of Finwë.
And Fingolfin is long overdue on a good old family reunion.
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14 Apr 2026
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Fitly food for tragic poets by hautdesert
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien
09 Mar 2026
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Nerdanel abides.
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14 Apr 2026
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to carthage then i came by crownlessliestheking
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
25 Jul 2022
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“Apologies, I had not known that Elwing outlined a curriculum for their education in her last moments,” Maglor retorts. His voice breaks, still recovering from Sirion. For a moment, he allows himself to imagine that this is where Maedhros will silence him with a kiss, will offer hot lemon water with so much honey that it is thick and golden as syrup, a cup pressed to his lips as it was those days in Himring, when he still held the Gap and had glory at his tongue.
“Those were far from her last words.” Maedhros smile is vicious, a thing with teeth. “As I said. She thought they were dead, and it was not an unreasonable assumption. She never believed me when I told her how we looked for her brothers.”
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10 Apr 2026
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running blind again by crownlessliestheking for samarqand
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
27 Jul 2021
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Maedhros is not told until later.
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09 Apr 2026
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The Island Dwellers by timelessutterances
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings - All Media Types, The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien
18 Mar 2025
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"Maedhros has nothing to say, less to give. He looks Elwing in the eye, stares right into the face of a catastrophe of his own making. There’s no forgiving or forgetting, but it is only the two of them on that island. Both their lives, collapsed into this yawning whole. Their very existence is now an exercise in the capacity for empathy and identification. On the island, there is only one thing that binds them: she threw herself into the sea, and he threw himself into the earth. The two of them had spat in the face of divinely-gifted eternity, and would have to learn their lesson before Valar and Eldar, flopping fish on a hot-dry-pan."
_______Maedhros Fëanorian is re-embodied onto a desert island in Aman, inhabited solely by Elwing of Doriath, and separated from the mainland by a body of uncrossable water. This, it turns out, is the Valar's judgement - though neither Elwing nor Maedhros take very kindly to being judged.
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- Part 1 of The Archipelago
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08 Apr 2026
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Light Splintered and Sewn by LeetheVix
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
21 Dec 2025
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So Fëanáro does not die cursing under the stars.
It softens his temper a little, binds him tighter to his sons. Still, he remains himself - self-aggrandising, wilful and thorned.So Ñolofinwë does not lose his youngest in the battle of Lammoth, and receives weregild.
Begrudgingly, for the good of all, he will co-operate. Yet, though a good man, he is no less proud and ambitious.Can they find a healthy way to co-exist? Perhaps not. They are a little too awful to one another. Still, they will try.
Meanwhile, Elu Thingol's concerns are not unjustified, Artanis and Celeborn court, Findaráto is more than meets the eye, and Lúthien labours to make her own future possible. Can a somewhat better united Beleriand stand against Morgoth?
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[Yes, there is half-sibling incest, beware! But, at least in my interpretation, they barely interacted in youth, as Fëanor was mostly out of Tirion by the time Fingolfin toddled, so their social and emotional dynamic does not really have familial tones.]- Language:
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08 Apr 2026
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In Sickness and in Health by LeetheVix for StarShadeEmily
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
13 Dec 2025
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Tirion changes. Anairë wavers.
She does love Ñolofinwë, but not quite as beforetime.
She desires him but fears him also - his hunger and his growing violence; and yet desires him more for it, and hates herself that such is her desire.
She sometimes recognises him, and sometimes she does not.Then Ñolofinwë's father and his older brother are slain, and how can she turn from him now?
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03 Apr 2026