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Buck knew without a doubt that if any one of his friends or family could be in his mind for even a second they’d go mad. The constant screaming, the repeated phrases of his greatest hits—they’d never survive it. He doesn’t even know if he can survive it.
When he got like this in the past, it was always easily cured with a quick text to Bobby or plopping onto the Diaz couch with a beer and a sigh. Except neither of those things were possible anymore.
Bobby was gone
Chris was gone
Eddie was gone
Bobby is gone.Everyone left, everyone had someone, but Buck’s someone is gone and even when he was here, Buck was terrified of being too much, doing too much, until even Bobby gave up on him. It had happened before and not just with Bobby.
(Or: Buck is struggling more than anyone knows, and the 8x17 fight and Buck’s need to take back control over his life manifests physically)
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- Part 1 of I love you, kid
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Rocks in Rushing Rivers by henkomar
Fandoms: Wheel of Time - Robert Jordan, The Wheel of Time (TV)
13 Apr 2025
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“Do you think they’re really gone? Rand, Mat, Nynaeve? Is that why you’re saying all of this?” Egwene doesn’t wish to know his answer.
“I don’t know if our friends are alive, but I have to believe that they are.” Perrin inhales sharply.“So long as I believe, I fight. So long as I fight, I know there’s nothing in this world or in any turning of the wheel that could stop us all from finding each other. Egwene, I know you. You don’t give up on the people and the things you believe in, so please hear me when I say that they are alive. They are alive, and we will all find each other.”
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Basically, WOT TV/Lit, but Egwene more than just looks up to her mentors and never lets anyone hold her back.
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Carved into History. by Cinderella323
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
29 Jan 2026
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30 Jan 2026
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Until You Breathe Again by underthewolfstars
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
24 Dec 2025
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Shane Hollander has a heart attack and "dies" on the ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game.
Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown.
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24 Jan 2026
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back and forth from new york by alphalupi
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Feb 2026
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After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.
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Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.
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- Part 1 of back and forth from new york
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Bookmarked by henkomar
16 Jan 2026
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Buck had always had an obsession with soul marks.
Most people were born with at least one soul mark, the love of a parent strong enough to appear on their newborn's skin almost instantly. Throughout someone’s life, their skin would be decorated with the marks of those they loved deeply enough that it intertwined with their soul, whether that be platonic or romantic.
The endless void inside of Buck that yearned for belonging clung to the way the marks served as permanent proof of someone's love.
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a partial rewrite of 9-1-1 that's written (mostly) through buck's eyes, in an au where deep love for another marks skin.Bookmarked by henkomar
21 Nov 2025
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It was not an invitation (should have kissed you anayway) by my_little_pie
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
11 Oct 2025
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What if Buck crashes out after his chat with his nephew, discovers something about his feelings, and finally lets himself grief the man he treated as his father? Will his family finally step up and pick up the pieces of their youngest’s heart?
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Buck has a breakdown after his talk with his nephew (set during 9x01) and he finally gets everything off his chest and finally is supported by his family when he needs them.
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19 Nov 2025