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    Avid convinced himself to go back to town six times as he stumbled through the underbrush, tripping over rotten logs and smacking his face into needled branches. But each time he turned to go back (because being alone in these woods was stupid) he saw Sausage avert his eyes, Martyn shrug with an apologetic wince, and Drift stare at him silently.

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    Avid doesn't go back to Oakhurst.

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    “Being afraid is a sort of entertainment, isn’t it?”

     

    Considerations on identity and the self. Recorded by the Archivist in situ.

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    Delusions. Jon had been dealing with delusions since he was a child, around seven or eight. He would lay awake until two or three in the morning, staring at the window, chest heavy with the absolute certain knowledge that somebody was about to break in and kill him and his grandmother. He had tried to warn her—of course he had tried to warn her—but she didn’t listen. So he would sit, tears in his eyes and stuffed rabbit clutched to his chest, waiting for the moment when somebody broke in with a knife.

    A fic where Jon's struggles with paranoia in season two are greatly worsened by schizoaffective disorder.

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    Sasha has some personal woes to get off her chest and Jon recognizes them a bit more than he expected.

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    He fell into a deep bow, smiling the whole while. “I’m the ringmaster, of course.”

    “Is that skin— Is it yours?” Old wood groaned as the Archivist shifted his weight. “Originally.”

    “It is!” the ringmaster said as he swooped back upright. “Nikola decided I wore it well, so she let me keep it. Why do you ask?”

    The Archivist gave him another once-over. “You just… you look familiar. Like someone I know.”

    On relearning, reconnecting, and redefining.

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    21 Jun 2025