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  1. Public Bookmark 67

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    “You are still you, yes?” Ilya repeated. “You are still slow hockey player with pretty freckles, yes?” It was a weak attempt at a joke, so Ilya shook it away and tried again. “You are still Shane, same person, same brain, yes?”

    Shane blinked up at him, thinking. Then, nodding slowly. “Mostly. Yeah. I don’t know about a name or anything yet, but—. Yeah. I’m still me.”

    “Then it does not matter.”
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    A trans Shane Hollander AU

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    04 Feb 2026

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    He sends Shane a link for an article about the Puppy Bowl. 

    Ilya [19:34] Shane Hollander. Did you know this exists? 

    Shane [19:46] No? Why would I have heard of this?

    Ilya [19:46] God, you are such a disappointment 

    Ilya [19:47] I love you. 

    Ilya [19:47] Whatever plans you have Sunday, they are cancelled. 

    Shane [19:53] I’m so confused. 

    Shane [19:53] I love you, too.

    Ilya [19:55] 😘😘😘🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐕🦮🐩🐕‍🦺🐕‍🐾🦴🐶

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    Or, Ilya learns about the Puppy Bowl. Shane never stands a chance. A dog gets adopted, and everything changes.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    “What are we doing?” Shane asks and Ilya holds out the other pair of skates he’d grabbed.

    “Put these on,” Ilya says, and Shane takes them from him with a skepitcal look.

    “Will these even fit me? And again, what are we doing? Are we even supposed to be here? I don’t think–”

    “Shane,” Ilya interrupts, taking Shane’s face into his hands and squeezing just enough to make Shane’s lips pucker out. “You are going crazy at home. You love to skate. You love hockey. So let’s go skate. And play hockey. Just you and me, okay?”

    Oh

    There’s so many things he wants to say. Like how much he loves Ilya. Or how glad he is that they’d taken the plunge off that scary, crazy cliff when they were teenagers. Or how even in the midst of the craziness and anxiety and unknown, Shane is so fucking excited for the life they’re going to have.

    But it all gets caught in his throat as emotion takes hold, and all he can do is nod and say, “Okay.”

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    Or, five times Ilya helps Shane when he's overwhelmed and one time Shane returns the favor.

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    02 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 27

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    Pez 🍬
    of course you get a critically acclaimed acting career, oscar buzz, AND a cute boyfriend
    your greed sickens me

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Hollander sighs. “It doesn’t concern you,” he says, and his eyes are pointed at Ilya but his gaze is unfocused, distant. Ilya remembers that last, game-winning shot. He wants Hollander’s attention, wants it more in this moment than he’d wanted the goal.

    Ilya spreads his hands. “Then why are we still here when we could already be having victory sex in another room?” He smiles, deliberate and mean. “Well, victory sex for me, not for you.”

    Normally, this would do the trick. Hollander stares back at Ilya and then says, 

    “Hayden’s sister thinks I have symptoms of autism.”

     

    (Set circa 2013 or 2014. Shane wrestles with the possibility he might be autistic. Ilya wrestles with how badly he wants Shane.)

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    29 Jan 2026