12 Bookmarks by mnesia
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When Shane Hollander suffers a career-threatening injury, the game that has defined him and given him language to understand himself is taken away. Ilya becomes his anchor, witnessing the slow, fragile unraveling of identity and the painstaking, reversible work of rebuilding.
Who is Shane Hollander without hockey?
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11 Jan 2026
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Shane doesn't fall apart loudly. He spirals, shuts down, missteps. Ilya pays attention. He stays. He helps Shane learn what it feels like to be noticed without being corrected.
or, 5 times Shane needs help regulating his autism, and Ilya is there for him + 1 time Shane is there for Ilya.
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11 Jan 2026
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17 Apr 2024
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“Maybe the fool has it right, then,” Levi says, voice thick and low. “Maybe the smart man just thinks too damn much.” His pupils are wide enough to fall into. He wets his lips, and Erwin watches him. “He either sacrifices the thing he wants, or he sacrifices himself. Maybe the only difference between them is what they’re willing to lose.”
In the end, the surrender is easy. All that’s left is to fall from the ledge.
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08 Feb 2024
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Levi nearly snorted at the look of him - flushed, hair awry, yet still his eyes had the look of a man in the midst of calculating one of his improbable field maneuvers, of solving some impossible thing when nothing in the world, Levi thought, could be simpler. Play the game, or don't.
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07 Feb 2024
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In the wake of the outbreak of a vicious disease, Levi travels the wilderness with his companion. It is not so bad, living off the land. Levi has learned which berries are safe, which mushrooms pair well with roots and potatoes, and how to catch fish from rivers.
For Erwin, it is not quite so easy. All the way out here, his only food source is Levi.
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09 Dec 2023
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Zeke and the Commander are similar in many regards. The Commander is intelligent; the Commander is a Titan shifter; the Commander has his own Ackerman - perhaps he and Zeke will be alike in that respect someday, too.
Although, if Zeke were to have it his way, he would take the Commander’s Ackerman for himself. It would not be something they would share.
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"His body sings, it screams - 'I’m made for you. I can feel the end of you, like the end of me. I’m sick with it.'"
Canonverse AU where the Ackerman bond manifests as a genetic illness, flaring up when your liege is in danger.
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“I had wondered—” Erwin coughs again, and is cowed into lowering his gaze when the Captain looks at him. He has the most scrutinising of stares. Erwin isn’t sure if he can see out of his left eye, but in that moment, it could well be penetrating his heart. “Ah, that is. In your letter, you didn’t mention much. Of what you expected from me during this session.”
The Captain takes so long to answer, that Erwin begins to think he does not feel inclined to say anything at all. He finishes his tea, and returns his cup to the tray. “What does your job usually entail?”
“Usually? Well, I might accompany a client to an event, or have dinner with them, or simply keep them company.”
“Do you have sex with them?”
“Yes.” Erwin swallows.
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In which Levi is a retired war veteran who hires Erwin to drink tea with him in silence.
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- Part 1 of Captain, the Captain, and the Courtesan
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15 Jul 2023
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After recruiting the Underground gang to the Survey Corps, Erwin witnesses Farlan and Levi in sexual activities in their barracks. The door is cracked open like an invitation, and Erwin cannot look away.
"Erwin steps toward the cracked door, looking through it, stepping over the forbidden line. In the small bed, he sees Levi lying on the side, his dark hair dangling off the bed as he bites his lips. The other man fucks him with erratic hip thrusts, spooning him from behind. It’s too quick and shallow to be satisfying.
And all Erwin can do is watch as if transfixed, glued to the sight before him. He’s intoxicated by it, the slapping of the skin and the smell of oil, sweat, and mint. For a moment, he wants nothing more than to open the door, push the scrawny young boy away and shove his own cock in Levi’s tight hole. Fuck him properly. Show him what it feels to have a man thrusting in you with the force of a charging army. Let the other boy watch as Levi melted in Erwin’s hands with tears in his eyes and dread in his heart. Oh, Erwin would ruin Levi for everyone else. Make it so nobody else can satisfy him the way Erwin does."
*Eruri getting together fic post ACWNR*
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23 May 2023
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Levi came Above three months ago. Levi has been picking at his nails. Levi walks alone through the woods at night. Levi picks fights with trees. Levi wears bruises. Levi takes no lovers. Levi has a red rash on the side of his neck. Levi does not visit the graves. Sometimes, Levi appears at Erwin's door.
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Enemy, apprentice, friend. Associate is too clinical, lover sounds too personal, partner too enduring. Confidante? Comrade? Companion?
There is no word for what Levi is, to him. What do you call an equal other than an equal?
A counterpart, Erwin thinks.
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from ACWNR to fall of Wall Maria
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- Part 1 of counterpart