pilotflyingj
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as much sweetness as i can decently manage by pilotflyingj for marichat_04
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
09 Feb 2026
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If the walls of their apartment could talk, they’d speak of quiet nights in, Steve dozing in Bucky’s lap while Bucky read after dinner. They’d remember the muffled sounds of Steve’s Ma’s old record player in the background, playing Armstrong and Sinatra. They’d tell how Bucky would carry him to bed and how Steve clung to him in his sleep. If the walls could talk, they’d speak of love.
So, so much love.
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- Part 2 of because you have lived
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wear your heart on my sleeve by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
07 May 2025
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When he sees her, his breath catches and tears immediately spring to his eyes. She’s so beautiful. He’s missed her so much.
“Ma?” he says, voice catching on the single syllable.
She turns to fully face him, and her expression melts into a smile, her eyes soft and loving in that way they only ever were for him.
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will you forgive my soul (when you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care) by pilotflyingj for xoxoxes, marichat_04
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
02 May 2023
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Faith is a fickle thing, but Steve finds himself comforted by the idea that maybe the afterlife is real, Heaven or something close to it, and maybe when he dies — actually and fully dies, that is — he’ll get to see his Ma again. He’ll get to see her smile for longer than he can make the image linger in his brain, he’ll get to greet her with a kiss on the cheek and get one from her, too.
And the flowers. He’ll get to give her those flowers.
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- Part 1 of because you have lived
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the best and worst day of june was the one that i met you by pilotflyingj, xoxoxes
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
28 Oct 2022
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It’s not so much the words Rafael says that piss Alex off. It’s his tone, it’s the way he speaks to Alex like he’s still as naive as he was then, like he’s still that bright-eyed teenager that could be convinced to do or believe almost anything so long as it would help him be the man he wanted to be — a man like Rafael Luna.
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god knows where i would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
26 Jun 2022
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Then Sam says his name, a gentle “Buck?” and it’s hushed, kind, and it blows out the flame in Bucky’s spine, calming him, because he is safe, and he’s loved, but there’s still hurt curling in his gut when he lets himself fall into Sam’s arms – because while he’s incredibly grateful for Sam, for one beautiful moment he thought Steve was there.
Recent series
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because you have lived by pilotflyingj
Fandom Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
09 Feb 2026
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“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
(Or: Steve, Bucky, and their journeys through grief for each other, and for everything they thought they knew.)
Slow updates because this series is like, terrifyingly personal and difficult to write, but it’ll be finished eventually!
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We're pretending, right? by TheOnlyCeeCeeJ
Fandoms: Marvel, Winter Soldier (Comics), Hawkeye (Comics), Black Widow (Comics)
29 Dec 2021
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Clint needs a date to a wedding, so he asks his friend to help him out. Due to some... miscommunications, their duo becomes a trio and they have to make it through the wedding together.
It's all pretend, anyways. What could possibly happen?!
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- Part 8 of Poly Armory Bingo Fics
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A kiss with a fist (is better than none) by heirtodriftmark
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
10 Dec 2025
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“Are you done yet?” Bucky asked, mostly to egg Sam on rather than to actually know.
Of course, his teasing worked–as Sam was lunging back towards him in a matter of seconds. This time, instead of raising his hands up to protect himself, Bucky lowered them down to Sam’s hips–grabbing at them to keep the man close to his chest.
Sam immediately fell into the touch, bringing his hands up to tangle in Bucky’s long hair and slamming their lips together–the force of it so violent that it caused Bucky’s injured lip to split open once again, blood spilling out of it and mixing with spit throughout both of their mouths.
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This Is How All Their Debates End by LuxeAvenger
Fandoms: Marvel, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
16 Sep 2021
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A heated debate leads to other heated activities.
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- Part 17 of Backstage Pass
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Spread Me Open by fandomfluffandfuck
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe
23 May 2021
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Prior to Steve's current heat he told his alpha he could restrain him to keep him from squirming too much and to keep from accidentally hurting himself because he's very good at biting off more than he can chew- especially when Bucky's cock is what's on the line. Now though, while actually in heat, Steve isn't just beginning to regret that decision. He does regret that decision.
He's never been more desperate to be fucked in his life and Bucky only seems to want to push that desperation further and further and further.
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I Don't Think I Will by Msty
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
29 Aug 2025
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It had been five years since he last saw Steve. And that was the time he had given himself. Steve had gone five years without him, so he promised himself to endure five years without Steve. Five years to try and make things right. To avenge. To amend. To be someone that is not the Winter Soldier but not entirely Bucky Barnes either.
His time was up. It's time to go.