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Buck probably thinks Eddie’s freezing up because he’s remembering the time before Buck, except he isn’t, because he can’t. Buck came along and redefined what it means to touch, to be touched.
And Eddie doesn’t know to explain that. He doesn’t know how to split the whole thing into parts.
How to say: I want you more than I have ever wanted anything. I want you close, and here, and always.
I don’t know how to let you take what I want you to have.
in which eddie can almost, almost let himself have everything with buck. it takes one google invite, one therapist, and a never-ending series of stops and starts to figure out why the almosts keep happening.
(a coda to tell me about despair.)
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- Part 2 of tell me about despair
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Bookmarked by rekawrites
08 May 2026
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My italicized oh ♡
(Put the pieces back together)
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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- Part 1 of tell me about despair
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Bookmarked by rekawrites
08 May 2026
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Oh my God. I feel completely undone by this piece. I'm not sure whose job it will be to put me back together.
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The kid with blood pouring down his shins is not so far from the dog lonely enough that he thinks breaking his housetraining is worth it for the ten minutes of berating that come with it, the ten minutes of undivided, if reluctant, attention.
Buck thinks, sometimes, that at least he wasn’t the kind of puppy that gets put in a sack and drowned at birth. He wasn’t always unwanted. And he isn’t anymore.
or, evan “i love you like a dog” buckley has only ever known how to love like, well, a dog, but maybe eddie diaz is the kinda guy to give a flea-bitten mongrel a forever home
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- Part 1 of i love you like a dog
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Bookmarked by rekawrites
14 Feb 2026
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This fic reached parts of me that I haven't felt in years ♡
A buffet of my favorite foods (even the ones I haven't admitted to liking yet)
Back about a month later. This is the one where eddie gets hurt and buck takes care of him +chris
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Jimin is a late-bloomer when it comes to presenting as an omega. Jungkook is a late-bloomer when it comes to dealing with his feelings. Together, they are kind of a Mess, but these things have a way of working out.
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12 May 2019
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Namjoon and his roommate Jeongguk are exhausted. So, together they sleep.
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06 May 2019