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    Daniel sees life like a river. Thinks he is caught up in a current that only goes one way, that will eventually sweep him out to sea. It’s easier for him to think so. It keeps him alive to think so.

    He doesn’t know that he could stand up and reach the bottom. He doesn’t know he has a choice.


    Drugs don’t work, sex doesn’t work, New York hasn’t worked. Somewhere in the Appalachian Mountains, an improbable number of suicides have taken place. Somewhere in a bar in New York, Daniel hears about them. He wants to fill a void. The difference between what is real and what isn’t matters as little to him as the things he’ll find to throw into the darkness. Which, as it turns out, is quite a lot.

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    03 Oct 2024

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    Daniel is sprawled out across the bed, loose-limbed and lazy, somehow filling all the open space it has to offer and leaving Armand to nestle into the gaps. His cheeks are flushed, blood pooling like it knows what comes next. Maybe it does. Armand was reading about classical conditioning the other day. About dogs who become accustomed to getting food when their handler rings a bell.

    Perhaps Daniel is the dog, Armand’s teeth sharp bells reverberating in his veins. Or perhaps Armand is the dog, Daniel’s blood a song rattling in his ears. He has been a dog before. He runs his tongue along the bow of Daniel’s collarbone, gathers the salt-sweat there and imagines what it tastes like because Daniel does.


    Armand remembers he loved Daniel, once, and that Daniel loved him. Or a version of them did, at least. It isn't his intention to go back to that, but it's not not his intention, either. Such is the prerogative of an immortal: to hold two contradicting desires simultaneously. If nothing else, it passes the time while he waits for this miserable interview to end.

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    15 Jul 2024

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    Richard reminisces how him and Francis became close after Henry's passing. He values their friendship, but it seems that Francis has a different outlook to their relationship.

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    Had I not known Francis was a hypohondriac, I would have been seriously concerned, but hearing his voice, and being tempted with seeing my friend again, were what influenced me to agree to meet Francis. Of course he did not suffer from diabetes, as all five doctors we visited explained, but commuting from clinics to hospitals had brought us closer than we had ever been. Perhaps the irregular visits and Francis needing a permanent place to stay was what brought us together and what helped us to set our sights on a two-bedroomed middle class house in the neighbourhood Henry had once lived in.

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    05 Dec 2023

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    Francis/Richard as flatmates >>>

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    Francis loves words. He just wishes they worked for him.

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    05 Dec 2023

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    Oh Francis :(

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    “Do you like animals?” Laurent asked quietly.

    “Pardon me, exalted?” Nikandros answered.

     

    (Laurent gets a cat.)

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    10 Jun 2023