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    Oh, alright, cool.

    Cool, cool, cool. Neat.

    That is a photograph of Eddie Diaz's dick.

    It's just there. On the screen. In his hand. In high resolution. His best friend’s dick is in his hand. Well, wait — the photo. The photo of the penis is in his hand. Eddie’s dick isn’t in his hand. That would be absurd.

    It’s just a penis. Buck has one of those.

    So does Eddie, apparently and it’s… Buck has seen it, absorbed it, and every thought he's ever had has been replaced by a high-pitched tone and the image in front of him, which is — and this is the last coherent observation he'll produce for the foreseeable future —

    Big.

    Genuinely, impressively big.

    Buck closes out of the photo and locks the phone so hard he's surprised it doesn't crack in half.

    "Maddie say anything?" Eddie asks.

    "Yep," Buck squeaks. Like a mouse. A giant, shocked mouse that has just seen its best friend’s erect dick.

    "You okay?"

    "Great. Y-yep. So great. I-I'm just really— the sunset was really— it's very— yep."

    "It’s yep?"

    "Uh-huh. Very yep."

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    Stumbling upon your straight best friends' nudes is fine. Buck is fine. Everything is fine.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    16k words of I'M NOT THINKING ABOUT IT OH GOD I'M THINKING ABOUT IT THINK OF SOEMTHING ELSE

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Ilya in 2014 had no idea his time with Hollander was so limited — something that Ilya in 2016 knows all too well.

    Ilya in 2016 is also playing hockey like shit. The version of himself on the television misses an easy shot, and the commentators tear him apart for it. Ilya, watching from his bed, is inclined to agree with them. His father’s decline is almost a blessing this month, when his usual level of vitriol would be for once so entirely deserved.

    He’s thinking about all of this, beer in hand, when there’s a knock on his door.

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    15 Dec 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ep4 coda. what if they ripped the bandaid off and talked. actually talked

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    Ilya says his name like he’s taking communion. His pretty mouth wrapping around the whole syllable the same way he sucks Shane’s cock: with reverence.

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    15 Dec 2025

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    metaphors that bloom

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    The kid staring at him across the bar is young, Hawaiian shirt and blue board shorts, aviators pinned to a thin white undershirt, the V of his crooked collar showing a light smattering of freckles over sun-kissed clavicles. Probably some navy admiral's rebellious kid looking for a good time. Maverick's gone through his fair share of them way back when. This one is at least a decade too young for Maverick's current tastes. That ridiculous old-school mustache he's got going on does nothing to hide the signs of youth in the rest of his body — smooth supple skin and the effortless muscle that Maverick has to work hard to keep at his age.

    "Like what you see?" Maverick says in way of greeting. It's a lot more straightforward than his usual pickup lines, but he's four drinks in and itching to be bent over some flat surface and fucked hard.

    Something that looks like disbelief flits over the kid's face, then his expression smooths out once more, hardens.

    He opens his mouth and it's a man's voice that says, "Yeah, I do."

    Companion Piece: This Empty Love

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    17 Aug 2025