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“to be with each other not as a quick stolen pleasure, nor as a wild treat but like sunlight, day after day in the regular course of our lives.” - audre lorde
kaoru & kojiro do the 36 questions.
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“it was totally consensual. i said ‘yes’ to everything we did.”
ilya considers this, then gently grips shane’s hands in his own. “moya lyubov,” he begins, “is true you said ‘yes.’ but this does not mean it has to be good memory.”
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something small triggers shane’s memories of having sex with rose. the memory expands. untethers him. locks him underwater.
ilya is there to help coax him to the surface.
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within, without by thisandthisandthis
Fandoms: Star Trek: The Original Series, Star Trek
30 Dec 2024
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janice rand reflects on & recovers from the events of “the enemy within.”
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arei giggled. “i didn’t think you could look any more flustered than you did before. wow, that’s so embarrassing for you.”
“shut up!” j muttered through gritted teeth, acutely aware of the rush that swept through her body at the other girl’s words, feverish & shameful & alive.
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even over i love you by thisandthisandthis
Fandoms: Star Trek: Strange New Worlds (TV), Star Trek
18 Aug 2024
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m’benga reflects on hemmer’s death. grieves, bleeds, puts himself back together.
nothing hurts like the almost.
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you can't help but become the sun by PoeticallyIrritating
Fandoms: All Her Fault (TV 2025)
16 Nov 2025
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A few days into the investigation, Peter is gone for the night. Marissa asks Jenny to come over.
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04 Feb 2026
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please leave a message by subcorax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.Jackie
Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.Jackie has added Lily to the conversation
Lily
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what is thisOr: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.
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17 Jan 2026
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Ilya introduces Shane and Svetlana, and gets a little more than he bargained for.
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04 Jan 2026
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“I don’t need to see a doctor. I am fine. You’re worrying for nothing. Let’s just go to sleep.”
Go to sleep? Shane huffs, Ilya thought it was fine. It didn’t matter if he was in pain or danger? They should just move on? As if.
“It’s not nothing. I’m worried about your health. Which you don’t seem to care about! Tell me one reason that I shouldn’t be worried!”
“Because I didn’t take them.”
“What?”
“I threw the bottles away when you left. Happy?”
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Ilya doesn’t keep pills in his house and Shane finds out why.Series
- Part 2 of ⟡ sad Ilya ⟡
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30 Dec 2025
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a wish saved for a rainy day by Veto_power_over_clocks
Fandoms: SK8 the Infinity (Anime)
05 Oct 2023
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Once, Kaoru made 980 paper cranes. Now he's throwing them away, along with whatever it was that he'd been hoping to wish for.
Kojiro won't let that happen.
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26 Dec 2023