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    Evan Buckley left his past behind when he left home for good at age 19. But an unexpected phone call on a quiet shift disrupts the life he's built for himself: forcing him to confront his past in order to build a new future.

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    09 May 2026

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    Between Sochi and the Cup, there's an entire life.

    Or: Scott Hunter tries his hand at honesty.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.

    Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.

    His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.

    But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"

    By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.

    But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…

    Shane says yes.

    And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Team management e-mails him early in the afternoon, but it’s just after helping Jackie feed Ruby and Jade dinner, when Hayden has the chance to go to the bedroom and sit against the bed headboard, that he manages to see and read it. The language is polite but friendly, and the person writing it actually identifies herself as the lady from the team’s media relationship, Nathaly, which immediately makes the exchange feel more real. She calls Hayden by his first name too, which also helps. Hayden has read some official communication before, but they addressed the team as a whole, so he knows this is different. Nathaly is talking to him to know if there’s any way he might billet for next season.

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    Alternate universe where Hayden was drafted two seasons before Shane and is three years older than him. He's not quite a veteran, but, somehow, he still gets picked by the Metros to house hockey's second coming of christ, Shane Hollander, during his rookie season. Shane never really leaves.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    Luca Haas is playing on a team with both his hockey idols, he's not the youngest on the team anymore, they made it to the playoffs last season, this season they're locked in from the start. Luca's also realizing that he's a bit alone on his team. He's known he's queer,for years. He knows his team would accept him, the way they've accepted Troy, Ilya, Shane and Harris but... His best friend asks about girls he's hooked up with, the other "kids" all talk about their conquests. He could talk to his captain about it but Ilya's busy figuring out marriage, parenting a teenager, and navigating the foster care system.

    Ash Holmberg still, kind of, wants to die. He's cycling through medications, attending therapy and doing everything he's supposed to be doing after inpatient treatment. His twin brother's moved him into the frat house he shares with two other professional hockey players. He knows that his brother would be wrecked if he actually died. So he draws and works and pretends like he's doing okay. And then he realizes how frat-bro-y his brother and his friends are and gets conscripted into helping turn all six of them into dateable adults.

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    06 Mar 2026