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Ralsei can't sleep. He's laying in his bed, staring at the ceiling having just woken from a nightmare.
Same nightmare again...
Ralsei looks over at Kris, laying in their bed peacefully. He was thankful he didn't wake them up this time. He sat up on the edge of his bed with bags under his eyes, staring at the floor, visibly shaking. Life was supposed to be better for him up here, but it seems the Dark Worlds had one last nasty trick for him. He stood up from the edge, and quietly made his way over to the door of their room, before turning on the knob and opening the door as slow as possible. He tiptoed down the stairs as sneakily as possible as to not wake anyone up, and got himself a glass of ice cold water. He pulled himself a seat from under the dining table, and sat down quietly, contemplating about his life. He was so happy to have made it to the Light World, even if it wasn't the exact paradise he had envisioned for him and his friends. Still, why was it all so hard for him? He had nothing but amazing people around him. Toriel fed him and gave him a place to live, Susie was an amazing friend as always, Noelle and Berdly helped him at school and Kris... Well Kris does everything for him.
The more he thought about Kris, the more he felt guilty about it: They have been nothing but kind to him, and how has he paid that back? Waking them up in the middle of the night accidentally? Crying in their arms like a baby? Stealing all their free time away from them because he is so desperately dependent on them to not be lost in his new life?
He felt tears forming in the corners of his eyes. He's done nothing but abuse the kindness of others, promising to be better to everyone, promising to try harder and here he is, crying in the kitchen of a house he doesn't even feel like he deserves to be in.
He hated himself so much for being like this. Why can't he just be good at these things, wasn't he supposed to be a prince? He felt tears rolling down his cheeks, had he started crying again?
Suddenly, he feels a touch on his shoulder. He turns around to see Kris, face illuminated by moonlight. They look worried.
"Ralsei?"
He sniffed- "Ah, I'm sorry Kris, did I wake you up again?"
"Are you ok?" they ask in a concerned tone.
He sniffles between words "Oh it's nothing I just worked myself up over nothing again! You know me, crybaby who can't do anything right Ralsei!"
He feels two arms wrap around him. "Ralsei."
Normally he would have resisted attempts to comfort him, he didn't deserve that. But something about this very moment made him lose himself as he started sobbing into their shirt. He hated the fact he had woken Kris up, and now instead of letting them sleep he wanted to keep them here.
I'm so selfish, aren't I? I just-
"I'm sorry Ralsei." they admit after a few seconds.
"About- About what?" that was the last thing he expected them to say. He was shocked out of his self-deprecating spiral.
"About thinking you were going to be fine. That you could just get used to the Light World in a few weeks. That you could be able to leave your own life behind just like that. I- I just wanted to- wanted to-" they sounded like they were getting teary themselves.
How can they be so selfless? I'm the one being unreasonable and THEY'RE apologizing?
"No, Kris. You- You do so much for me and I appreciate all of it. I just- don't want you to spend all of your energy on me. That's why I- I've been so distant lately." Ralsei's words carried heavy on the air.
They hug him even tighter. "You are never a waste of time for me, Ralsei. I care about you so, so much."
He started crying more into their shirt. How could they be so nice?
...
After finally calming down from the sobbing, Kris guides him up from the chair and hugs him again.
"Ralsei. Your happiness is important to me. If you ever feel like you're not worth it, or that you're a disappointment, I want you to know that. I care about you. A lot. Ok?"
He nodded into their chest with teary eyes, trying to hide the slight blush he had.
They took his hand and dragged him upstairs. His face slightly reddened at the gesture, but couldn't deny how grounding Kris's touch was to him. It made him feel so real, even if only for a moment.
When they went to sit at the edge of their bed, they whispered at Ralsei. "Psst. Rals?"
He turned around, his ears flopping cutely as he did so.
"If you can't sleep, I was wondering, if- if you wanted to- possibly, sleep with me? Next to me?" Kris looked embarrassed as they said that.
Ralsei blushed in response. "I- uhh- are you sure? I can just- sleep here- I-"
"I used to. With Asriel. When I had a nightmare. He calmed me down. I would climb into his bed in the middle of the night, and he would hold me and scratch my hair. And I fell asleep instantly. I just thought that-" they sounded a little flustered themselves.
"I- I would maybe like to try that. I think. To help me sleep." Ralsei cut Kris off, almost too eagerly. He mentally cursed himself for that.
Ralsei slowly shuffled over to Kris, who held the blanket over the bed invitingly. Ralsei was burning up inside, but he felt it was too late to back down at this point.
The moment he lied down in bed he felt two arms circling him. He almost jumped from the sensation.
"K-Kris?" he yelped.
"Hmmm?" they replied.
"I just- I just didn't expect that."
"Well, the bed's big but it's not that big. Besides, you're very fluffy. How could I not?" their voice took on a slight teasing tone.
"If you think so..." the redness on his face was quickly intensifying, spreading all the way to his ears.
"Is this ok?" Ralsei asked Kris. "You know, what we're doing?"
"Why wouldn't it be? I'm the one who invited you to sleep here. If you're uncomfortable you can leave I didn't mean to push you or anyth-"
"No no! Kris I didn't- not like that. I just worry that you're doing this because you want to make me feel better, not because you want to yourself. You know?"
They pulled away, taking Ralsei by his shoulders and staring into his eyes. He thought their eyes were beautiful.
"I want to. I- I-" Kris stuttered.
They cleared their throat.
"I love you, Ralsei."
His face turned red.
What? What? What? What? What? What?
Before he could even react, he felt Kris pecking his cheek, before looking away in embarrassment. Their face was red too.
He pulled them close before starting to sob into their chest. Unlike most times he cried, this time it was not because of impending doom. The opposite, in fact. He had never felt happier in his life.
"R-Ralsei?" Kris got caught off-guard by the sudden yank from him.
He aggressively nuzzled their chest, too overwhelmed for words, hoping his actions would convey his emotions.
"Hahahhah Ralsei that tickless-" They started laughing out loud, but quieted themselves quickly after realizing that it was still 2 am.
Ralsei finally calmed down enough to speak and simply spoke into Kris's chest- "I love you too Kris."
Kris takes Ralsei by his shoulders and brings him up to face them.
"May I?" their face turns into a smirk as they cup Ralsei's jaw.
"I would love-" Ralsei was cut off by Kris's lips connecting with his. They held it for a few seconds before pulling away and giggling to themselves.
Before either person could get a word in they both closed back in for a second kiss, more intense, more passionate. If the first one was curious, this one was bold. They held it for as long as they could, pulling each other closer.
"I- I need more. Please Kris" were the only things Ralsei muttered while gasping for air. The only things he needed to say.
With barely a moment to draw air, the two closed into each other again. This time their tongues brushed. Their hearts beat in unison with each other as the two pulled themselves even closer to each other. Kris had their hands on Ralsei's back and neck holding him tight while Ralsei was holding onto the front of their shirt with both his paws. No matter how much they wanted to keep going, they would have to eventually breathe. There they now lay in the aftermath of the impromptu make-out session, holding each other close while staring at their lovers eyes.
"Thank you Kris, for choosing this. Choosing me." Ralsei broke the silence.
"Always, dear Ralsei." they shot back, teasing as ever.
He made a disgustingly cute noise between a bleat and a whimper, before burying his face into Kris's shirt out of embarrassment.
"Staawwwppppp iittt" he groaned into their chest.
They hummed while bringing up their hand to Ralsei's head to pet him.
"Feeling any better?" They asked, already knowing the answer.
"Mmmhhmm", an affirmative hum came from their chest.
"You want to sleep?"
"Y-yeah... I guess we could..."
Kris pulled Ralsei up to their face before kissing him one more time.
"Love you."
"L-Love you too."
Maybe things would be okay.