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    Akito angst because...I like Akito angst
    This is from the same AU as the AU in my book Smile For Me (in short meaning this possibly could appear there but idk-)

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    English
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    390
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    1/1
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    7
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    120
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    Akito can still picture Toya’s face when they said bye at Akito’s door Thursday night. It was windy and kinda cold- fall’s coming, so the air’s getting crisper. Toya always looks so fucking pretty standing in the dark, the light from the lamp above Akito’s door mood-lighting him and making the crown of his hair shine. That soft smile on his face as he says bye, kissing Akito on the cheek and then turning around and walking off.
    Ugh. Akito wishes he woulda grabbed his hand and dragged him back inside, Harumichi be fucking damned.
    A week. A whole fucking week.
    In short, it’s miserable.

    or; toya is gone on a trip with his family for a week and akito suffers from toya withdrawals for the entirety of the seven days. featuring their yearning text messages between every chapter

    Language:
    English
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    17,634
    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    59
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    600
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    Ena and Akito get into a fight. Once Ena's cooled down, she realizes how badly she fucked up- and all she has for making it up to Akito is a slice of cheesecake. So here goes.

    or; ena and akito fight and then both get torn up over it so ena pathetically apologizes

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,880
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    35
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    297
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    Akito Shinonome had failed everything he ever tried, so in the end, he gave up.
    Tsukasa Tenma on the other hand, had achieved his one goal, make people smile, leading to him and his troupe's fame.

    Finally, recieving a well needed break, Tsukasa comes back to his home town to visit his sister and brother, Saki and Toya. Unexpectedly, Toya asks Tsukasa for a favour. To make Akito smile again. Only make him smile and become friends. Nothing more. Confused, Tsukasa agrees, thinking it'll be easy. He doesn't realise becoming nothing more was hard.

    Language:
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    1,207
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Kudos:
    13
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    134
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    Dear diary

    Today my dumbass dad forced me to get this diary to help me with “my feelings” and to “properly deal with my emotions” and shit like that

    Its fucking riduclous im 17 turning 18 IN NOVEMBER yet he still expects me to write in this dumb diary like a little kid

    The only reason im writing in this is because i get 100 yen for everyday i write in this so yay great for me but no

    If i dont keep up writing in this stupid fucking diary my dad will read it out loud at family dinner so its a lose lose situation and if i dont write in it today im grounded for the week THE WEEk

    Even though i clearly explained to my dad that i have a performance at vivid street tomorrow that i cant miss cause why the fuck would i he said

    “Then you better get writing” the fuck am i meant to write about huh my “emotions” this whole things childish and stupid

    Language:
    English
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    15,658
    Chapters:
    85/85
    Comments:
    856
    Kudos:
    506
    Bookmarks:
    39
    Hits:
    10,523
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    Cutting is a one-time thing, he tells himself. He’s not, like, an emo fag or whatever. He’s not.

    bloodeater

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    649
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    28
    Hits:
    253
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    For a moment, Akito wonders if it might be someone who works at the print shop bordering one side of the courtyard. But then he notices familiar blue hair, and a hoodie that he definitely recognizes, since he has at least six photos with that same article of clothing in it. (Actually… is that his? He can’t remember if Toya’s given that back since the last time he let him borrow it.)
    Akito blinks, utterly surprised. “Eh? Toya?”

    Or; Akito gets sick of sitting around at home alone and goes to vivid street to occupy himself. toya's there too

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,388
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    52
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    522
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    Summary

    akito can't handle the loss of his beloved partner.

    but he'd never give up on finding a way to see him again.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    418
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    23
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    352
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    Summary

    akito remembers wanting to die.

    tw: mentions of psych wards/mental hospitals, descriptions of su*c*de methods, su*c*dal thoughts and ideation

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,139
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    159
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    1,921
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    Akito comforts Toya after finding out about his poor mental health

    Language:
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    Words:
    924
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    92
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    2,128
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    Talentless.
    That’s all he will ever be.
    What’s the point in trying if all that’s going to happen is disappointment. From his peers. Idol. Sister. Father. The only people who didn’t abandon him because of his lack of talent are lying. They don’t want to hurt his feelings.
    So what’s the point? The world’s gone gray. Food’s lost its taste. No will to go on. It’s time to give back what is not his.
    -ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈
    Or, Shinonome Swap! N25 Akito and VBS Ena.

    Series
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    English
    Words:
    75,305
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    12
    Kudos:
    220
    Bookmarks:
    49
    Hits:
    4,451
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    Summary

    you can’t save people who don’t want your help. acceptance is exactly what it is, and akito has already accepted his death.

    sometimes you can’t save everyone, even if it’s your birthday wish.

    fic for national suicide prevention day :)

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,684
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    74
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    1,049
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    "Akito, please. I love you."

    "Don't tell me you're only saying that to convince me not to kill myself."

     

    Rooftops, the wind, and late night phone calls.

    Language:
    English
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    4,036
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    40
    Kudos:
    175
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    1,539
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    Your sister likes to draw.
    You feel stuck. Same place, same goal, same room. Same body with the same brain and the same thoughts. You work yourself into exhaustion as you slowly start struggling to balance priorities.

    You have a dream.

    Nothing else. There is no after. There is no Plan B.

    If you don’t surpass RAD WEEKEND, you’re not sure what will happen to you after.

    Or;
    An AU in which Akito Shinonome slowly sinks so low that there really is no saving for him.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    6,501
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    76
    Kudos:
    365
    Bookmarks:
    38
    Hits:
    2,929
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    Unable to quit art and find herself an out from the pit of dread and ineptitude she's put herself in as a result of her father, Ena Shinonome looks, desperately, for any reason at all that her art is good- or any reason to quit art, at all. She can imagine what her life would be like- Shopping, chatting, being relaxed, enjoying every day. Maybe doodle every once in a while. But she lead such a life?

    Asahina Mafuyu has long since given up on her dreams. Said dreams died, along with her passions or anything that made her life worthwhile. Her existence is now an existential null with which she forces herself to live through sheer grit and love for her mother. Love- or maybe fear. She can't imagine what a life spent chasing her own dreams is like. Not at all.

    Before Nightcord at 2500 was formed- before they met anyone or had anything to validate their existence and dreams, they meet each other. Ensnared by the rain, the two of them meet, and keep meeting. They continually chase after and pine for the other, drawn to chase their dreams because of each other. They become each other’s allies, the only allies in the entire world they have.
    The only people in the world that can validate each other's dreams.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,750
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    35
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    482
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    he procrastinated calling the doctor for too long and now he’s going to run out of meds before he can get a refill. carefully pouring the remaining pills into his palm, akito determines that he has two days from when the medication runs out until his appointment with the doctor. that’s not too long, right? he can do it. he’ll be fine.

    -:-

    akito is not fine. 

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,021
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    129
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    1,490
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    It’s 2AM, and Kohane arrives in the Sekai in a post-panic attack haze. A part of her is still burning, clawing at her insides, and yet her energy feels utterly spent. She just wants to curl up and stay here forever. This happens far more often than she’d like to admit; the eyes on her at shows affect her much more than she lets on, even now. But that doesn’t matter. It’ll be gone by morning.

    It definitely doesn’t matter when she sees Akito already in the cafe.

    The doorbell rings above her head. He turns, eyes wide and forehead laced with sweat.

    They stare at each other for a moment in utter silence.

    Akito is the one to break it.

    ---

    Kohane visits the Sekai at 2AM, tired and miserable. She finds Akito there in what he intends to be his final moments.
    She has to save him.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,525
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    38
    Kudos:
    246
    Bookmarks:
    23
    Hits:
    2,177
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    akito hates himself.

    that’s all there is to it, really. he hates the way he looks, the way he treats others, the way he drags his team down, the way he hasn’t and won’t ever accomplish anything meaningful in his life.

    but he’d rather feel hatred than feel nothing at all.

    he’s been clean for almost three months. did he really want to break that streak? 

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,044
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    225
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    2,520
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    “i…” it’s too difficult. people never react well when you tell them you want to die. “i’m fine.”

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,838
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    224
    Bookmarks:
    11
    Hits:
    2,753
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    it's not the first time he's depended on toya during a suicidal episode. it probably won't be the last, either.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    909
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    221
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    2,375

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