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    “Oh my god,” the intruder says, voice coming faster and higher-pitched. “Shane, what the fuck? Oh my god.”

    “Eeleeyah, come to my cottage,” Ilya mocks, voice muffled by Shane’s skin. “Don’t go to Russia. Come to my house instead. Is so private. No one will know…we will be completely alone. Together.”

    “Oh my god, is that Ilya Rozanov?” the intruder yelps like he's about to start hyperventilating. “Why is Ilya Rozanov half-naked in our kitchen, Shane?”

    “Okay, I know how this looks,” Shane tells Ilya, “But I mean, technically, we are still alone. Together.”

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    At the cottage, Shane and Ilya meet eighteen year old Shane Hollander. This is really only a surprise for one of them. Everyone handles it as well as can be expected.

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    04 Apr 2026

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    I’m smart in Russian. It fucking pisses me off—I sound like a toddler in English. The language simultaneously makes no fucking sense and is pathetically boring. It has no complexity, no richness, no nuance. It’s impossible to create the same layers of thought in English that I can in Russian. It’s as if I am trapped inside myself and can only use a megaphone held by a third grader to speak with him.

    I want to say things to him that make no sense in English but would make him melt in Russian. My mother used to read poems by Pushkin to me when she tucked me in, and I want to read them to him, but every translation I find is fucking dull and stupid. He won’t even let me call him my “lover” because English has ruined that word. I hate English.

    Or, Ilya tries to use poetry to get better at English.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    What does it mean to love someone who can't be fully known? These stories examine the architecture of connection—the walls built, the doors left unlocked, the people patient enough to wait on the other side.

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    01 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 93

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    Mornings in the Hollander-Rozanov house were always, to be honest, a bit of a nightmare. From the moment that Anastasia Hollander-Rozanova woke up, she could expect to be in a flurry of noise and annoying little sisters for at least an hour before she got to school. Trying to keep up with three teenage girls was probably the hardest thing that Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov had ever done.

    Five Eldest Daughter Moments + one time where she was still their little girl.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Shane has always believed survival meant discipline. Precision. Powering through the noise, the pressure, the parts of himself that never quite fit. Hockey gave him rules when the world didn’t, and he learned to excel inside that structure even as everything else scraped him raw.

    Ilya notices what no one else does.

    Quiet adjustments, steady presence, and the refusal to treat Shane’s needs like flaws. When the idea Shane has been running from finally takes shape, it doesn’t break him. It reframes everything. The anger. The exhaustion. The brilliance.

    This is not a story about fixing what’s broken.

    It’s about learning a language for the way Shane’s mind has always worked, and what becomes possible when he stops fighting it. It’s about love that makes room instead of taking space. About a rivalry that becomes partnership. And about what happens when understanding doesn’t just change a player, but reshapes the game itself.

    Because some legacies aren’t written in records.

    They’re written in who gets to stay.

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    29 Mar 2026