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    After their engagement, Ilya and Shane return to Russia under the cover of the Irina Foundation, knowing it may be the last time Ilya ever sets foot there. What waits for him is not closure, but grief, memory, and a past he learned to survive by becoming quiet and hard.

    It isn’t about going back to the life he escaped.
    It’s about one final goodbye—to the place that shaped him, and to the mother he never stopped missing.

    With Shane beside him—steady, patient, and fiercely careful—Ilya faces grief he’s spent years surviving, old fear that still lives in his bones, and the quiet truth he’s been avoiding:
    some doors don’t close cleanly… but you can still choose how to leave them.

    This is a story about grief, survival, and choosing a future where home is no longer a place, but a person.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Shane finds out on Twitter.

    Not from a lawyer or a teammate or even one of the journalists who've been calling nonstop since the FanMail video went viral. He finds out at 6:47 am, still in bed, that Russia is coming for Ilya. Propaganda charges. Passport revocation. Return to the Russian Federation required.

    What follows is weeks of watching everything fall apart. Ilya's career. Their safety. The system that was supposed to protect them. Shane keeps playing while Ilya can't. The lawyers file paperwork and say to wait. Montreal demands silence.

    Shane faces a choice: keep his head down and trust the process, or burn down his career and force the world to pay attention.

    He chooses fire.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    16 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    the fucking coding!!!!

    love love love the formatting on the letters and the emails and the dual-pov tabs?? absolutely insane anon u are a genius with html and hollanov characterization and i bow down to your talent.

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    “You know, one day you’re gonna meet someone you love so much you’ll want to toss all your stupid rules out the window just to be around them,” Jessica told him the day they broke up.

    God, Shane remembers thinking. I fucking hope not.

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    16 Apr 2026

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