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  1. Public Bookmark 51

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    Shane holds up the stone to Ilya’s face. The stone matches Ilya’s stormy eyes exactly.

    “A perfect match,” Shane murmured.

    Or — Shane and Ilya find stones of each others eyes and Shane realises just how loved he is. Inspired by that amazing piece of art by intercrusher on tumblr

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    05 Feb 2026

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    “Did you… Did you get a whole roll of wrapping paper for it?”

    “Yes. And ribbon.”

    “You’re cute.”

    “Shut up.”

    // shane’s birthday is next week. ilya has gifts for him.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    Ilya swallowed audibly. “Maybe it will do nothing.”

    “Yes,” Shane said suddenly, like he hadn’t thought of the possibility. “You’re right, it’s…they’re probably just sugar pills. A placebo. They can’t legally sell anything more than that…right?”

    Or, Ilya receives a bottle of gas station erectile dysfunction pills as a birthday gag gift.

    Shane accidentally takes one. By accident. As a mistake.

    There are consequences.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Hayden Pike is sad. He wants to go to bed with Shane Hollander, the most beautiful man in the MHL, but he can’t seem to score because he is very bad at hockey.

    Hayden Pike probably wrote this. Not Ilya Rozanov. Ilya Rozanov would never do such a thing. Don’t tell his husband.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane has never been religious. But he found himself praying, to something, to anything, to the wind that can anchor every wish he had for Ilya—to keep him safe, to keep him healthy, to make him happy again. 

    He thinks of Ilya’s cross on his necklace, and thinks of his Mom. 

    Is he going to meet her now? Will he get the chance to tell her how wonderful her son grew up to be? Will he be able to tell her that he tried to love him for the both of them the best way he knew how? 

    Or: what if it's Shane's plane that almost crashed?

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane put God on a back burner sometime between the ages of eleven and twelve. It was around that time that he barely stepped foot off the ice. His dad would joke that he was born with skates on, while his mother cursed out a grown man for a bad play. God, religion, faith came second to the rush of adrenaline as he flew on the ice.

    It takes seventeen years and the love of his life being dead for twenty-eight minutes to relearn how to pray.

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    Or, Shane's game is cancelled and he reads Ilya's would have been last messages in a tiny hotel room with JJ and Hayden at his side.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “Can I ask you something?”

    There’s a flash of what looks like fear that crosses Ilya's face before he sits back, his posture slightly closed off as his arms cross in front of his chest. “Depends on what it is,” he says, eyes somewhat steely.

    She gets why people are intimidated by him on the ice.

    “Why Ottawa?” She knows it’s something everyone has been asking, but she feels like it’s a legitimate thing to ask. “I mean, I get maybe you’re not happy in Boston, but you could have gone anywhere.”

    “Not anywhere,” he says with an almost pout.

    “But almost anywhere.”

    He lets out a long breath of air through his nose. “I know it does not make sense, but it should not have to make sense to anyone but me.”

    Kate tilts her head to the side, appraising him from across the table. “That’s not an answer.”

    Ilya shrugs, but he holds her gaze steadily. “Maybe one day you will understand. But for now, know I am where I am supposed to be.”

    And who is she to argue with that?

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    Or, everyone asks 'why Ottawa?' Ilya's neighbor, Kate, just happens to figure it out first.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “And Shane, if you are curious,” Ilya whispers in his ear, the word curls on his tongue just like it did over nine years ago. He then adds, close and hushed like a secret that the world doesn’t deserve, and because sometimes he is a lot more insightful than Shane would like, “We can switch.”

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    31 Jan 2026

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    After Shane's accident on ice, Yuna sees Lily messaging him and decides to make a phone call.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    That’s what’s so dangerous about Shane. Not the kind eyes, not the temptation, not the little voice in the back of Ilya’s head that he feeds that keeps telling him to fuck it all and choose happiness over duty, over stability, over birthrights and stipulations. The danger is that Ilya has spent a lifetime perfecting the art of keeping things to himself, and Shane—with his empathy and his endless need to know—opens his mouth once and Ilya’s body spits out the truth before he can vet it first. Before he can make sure it’s safe. Not too much, not too vulnerable, not self-pitying, not a lie, but not necessarily the truth either. There is no just right when it comes to Shane. There is only impulse and hunger and, against every single fucking odd, a trust so deep that it’s in Ilya's blood now, helpless to pinpoint when it had first punctured and spread like a poison. 

    No. That isn’t right. 

    Like, maybe, the only antidote that Ilya has ever been offered without strings attached.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

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    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    19 Jan 2026

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    “So, uh, I’m off,” Shane says from the other room. Ilya can hear his steps heading towards the door. Ilya remains in the bed, undressed and unmoved, staring blankly at the wall.

    “Goodbye, Hollander,” is all he can say. Ilya hears the door click shut.

    It didn’t even slam. It closed softly. Almost makes it worse. A few words and a soft click, and Hollander is gone.

    “Fuuuck,” Ilya groans, teeth almost biting into the filter of his cigarette. We didn’t even kiss, Ilya thinks as he lets his head fall back against the headboard.

    Or: Ilya is the one regretting they didn't even kiss.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    After a massacre of a game, Shane Hollander has nowhere to go with his frustrations— Well, except to Ilya’s, where he’s given some good advice on how to get it all out of his system.

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    Shane is pissed off. Ilya says he’ll feel better if he fucks something (someone).

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    15 Jan 2026

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    Buck likes to feed the ducks.

    It’s a simple thing, really.

    Quiet. Easy. Steady.

    When he was little, Maddie would take him down to the lake with a paper bag full of bread, mostly the odds and ends no one wanted, crusts, heels, stale slices.

    But to the ducks, it was a feast.

    They’d sit on the worn wooden bench near the shore, shoes kicked off, toes curled into the grass, and tear the bread into tiny pieces, tossing it into the water one by one. The ducks would come paddling over in a flurry of feathers and excited quacking, pecking at the floating crumbs with enthusiastic energy.

    Buck loved it.

    He loved the way the water rippled out in rings, the soft sounds of beaks on water, and the way Maddie would smile at him like he was doing something important.

    He was.

    In his young mind, he wasn’t just feeding ducks, he was taking care of them.

    Or; Over the course of his life, when things feel like too much, Buck finds a lake, feeds the ducks… and tells them all his secrets.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    When Shane mentioned that he would like to try weed, he expected Ilya to disregard it. Imagine his surprise when Ilya shows up a few weeks later in a fancy car with some surprises in the glove box.

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    14 Jan 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 61

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    “You, Shane Hollander, are much too adorable,” Ilya said, leaning in to kiss the tip of his nose, “I cannot keep my hands off of you.”
    “Well good,” Shane said, wearing his dead serious face, “I don’t want you to keep your hands off me…ever.”
    “It is good we play hockey then, yes?” Ilya’s voice was playful, “it is our job to put our hands on each other.”

     

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    Shane wants to know more about Ilya's mom, and they also still can't keep their hands off each other.

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    11 Jan 2026

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    “I was thinking of you,” Shane gasped. “Always you. Since… since Vegas. When you said… you wanted to watch.”

    A slow, predatory smile touched Ilya’s lips. “And I am watching now. Are you going to be good for me?"

    (or, Ilya walks in on Shane fingering himself and calling his name)

    Tag to be covered: Shane Hollander Likes To Be Called "Good Boy"

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    09 Jan 2026

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    The road to the Stanley Cup is fraught with expectations, injuries, and worst of all, conversations about feelings.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.

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    07 Jan 2026

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    The doorbell rings just as Shane is finishing brushing his teeth – the first thing they rose to do, because he wants to kiss Ilya good morning – and he and Ilya exchange a confused look in the bathroom mirror. It's barely dawn, and Ilya's curls are adorably tousled from sleep as he scratches his ribs lazily, toothbrush dangling from the corner of his mouth. 

    Shane hesitates, then rinses his toothpaste out and runs a hand through his hair. "Fuck, it's probably anti-doping."

    No one else would be here at this hour – unless it's an emergency.

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    07 Jan 2026

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