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    “Ah,” Ilya said, grinning, going for the joke.

    Shane looked up, curious.

    “So being boring is genetic?”

    He expected laughter. Or the way Shane would roll his eyes even as he melted, the way that made the teasing feel welcome.

    Instead, Shane’s smile disappeared completely. It wasn’t dramatic. It just… went. Like a light switched off.

    “Yeah,” Shane said, clearing his throat, forcing the word out before it could crack. “I guess so.”

    He took a step back, creating space that felt suddenly necessary, like he might suffocate if he drifted any closer. Every instinct in him screamed to leave. To put distance between himself and this feeling and the source of it before it swallowed him whole

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    17 Mar 2026

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    For maria

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    Shane’s hearing is muffled, sound bubbling in and out like he’s swimming through the lake, dipping under the surface and back into the air. He can make out a word here and there, enough to know that Rozanov is trying to get him to breathe with him. He can feel the expansion of Rozanov’s lungs against his hands as he takes deep breaths in and lets them out. Shane tries to copy him, he does, but every inhale carries the scent of him, his cologne, his skin, his hair products. The scents are so familiar to him, and he wants more than anything for them to calm him, make him feel safe, but they are doing the opposite. Why are they still so familiar to him after not being anywhere near Rozanov for half a year? Why does he still want to shove his face against Rozanov’s throat and suck in every last last hint he can get?

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    Ilya takes longer to arrive in the bathroom after they present the award together, leaving Shane time to sink into a full-blown panic attack. This leads to a very different night in Vegas and an earlier beginning to Shane and Ilya’s relationship.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    OBSESSED

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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    on chapter 5, finish soon bitch

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    ...I guess I should just say it. I was wondering if you'd—”

    “I think we should stop seeing each other.”

    “—like to come to my cottage this summer.”

    The plate slips from Shane's hand and shatters on the kitchen floor.

    Or: Shane doesn't get injured that night Montreal plays Boston. Ilya follows through on his plan to break things off with him. Well, he tries, at least.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    yes

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    Jungkook totally forgot he had a scheduled video call with all six of the guys in his friend group, which is why he’s in the middle of browsing porn when they call him.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Yoooo this was freakyyy and I LOVE ITTTT

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    “Mic’ing us up? Did I hear that right?” Hunter questions.

    “Someone in PR thought it would be funny to hear the three of you during all of your games,” Coach LeClaire explains, “The idea got out and spread like wildfire.”

    “Huh,” Hunter responds.

    “It would be funny to hear me,” Ilya corrects, “I am funny. The other two are boring.”

    He hears Hollander huff out a laugh and bump shoulders with him as Hunter continues to ask questions. Casually glancing over to the other man, he sees a small smile playing at his lips. His eyes, though, there was a gleam that he hadn’t seen before. He wasn’t certain what it could mean, but it couldn’t be good for Ilya.

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    Or what if Shane had stayed with Ilya that night in Boston?

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    20 Feb 2026

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    waiting for pt 2

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    Shane Hollander is young, fit and healthy, he works out, he plays hockey, he eats a ridiculously healthy diet.

    Shane Hollander dies on the ice at age 30.

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    Shane’s body is cold. Ilya’s heart is cold.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    this one hurts so fucking bad!! but its so fucking good!!!!!

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    Shane does not know what he is staring at when he reads the name of the chat and the influx of texts.

    This looks like actual hell, and more importantly why on earth would Ilya ad him to the Boston WAGS chat?

    TLDR: In an attempt to socialise in this new country Ilya puts 'jane' down as his WAG to connect to the team, this has unforeseen consequences for himself.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    i am all up in this shitttt

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    He wanted to take it back instantly. Wanted to swallow his name down, down, down, shove it back into his heart where he’s been hiding it for - god - years. He wanted to go back in time a few seconds, to just before the moment when he ruined it all. He’d call him Hollander, instead. He’d whisper something sweet in Russian so Shane would never know - so Ilya could speak his feelings into existence without Shane hearing them.

    He’d do anything at all to fix it.

     

    (Or, Shane leaves. Then he comes back.)

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    14 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    you could read this again and again and never get tired of it

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    Shane and Hayden get a little too close for comfort one night, and Ilya decides to remind Shane who he belongs to.

    (This story will contain messy feelings, threesomes, some questionable choices, lots of angst, and some very depressing themes. Please do not read this if you don't like the idea of Hollanov being with other people. There is a lot of Shayden in this fic so please don't expect things to just be about Hollanov. This is just a fanfic and I wanted to do something a little bit different. Happy reading!)

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    12 Feb 2026

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    SO GOOD AAAAAHHHHH. put it in the rotation!!

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    ‘Who’s the freak stealing Ilya Rozanov’s game-worn jerseys?’

    A series of targeted thefts turns into a league-wide mystery. The entire league is obsessed. Ilya is unconcerned. And Shane…

    Shane is locking himself in empty bathrooms, sniffing and stroking himself raw over the stolen fabric like a total pervert.

    He thinks it’s a secret. Ilya knows better.

    Translated in Russian

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    31 Jan 2026

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    yooooooooooo

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    Ilya’s dad dies right before the 2017 All-Star Game, so he never learns that Shane and Rose broke up. While he’s in Russia, a threat from his brother makes him ask Svetlana for help and marry her so he can get a US green card—it’s meant to be a discreet, simple thing, but the Boston tabloids get a hold of it and then it’s all over social media. Three months later, Shane Hollander holds a press conference to share two things: he's leaving Montreal to play for the Ottawa Centaurs, and he's gay.

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    29 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    yoooooooo this shit hurt, but in a good way. 10/10

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    Ilya opened one of his messages.

    Have you seen the news?
    Ilya, call me. Now.
    Please tell me you already fucking know.
    Jesus Christ, man.

    That was it. No context. No explanation. Just panic wrapped in vague bullshit.

    His jaw locked. “Are you fucking serious right now,” he muttered, thumb scrolling harder than necessary. Say it or don’t, you assholes. The half-answers made his skin crawl. It felt like they were all circling something awful, whispering around it, waiting for him to step close enough to get hit.

    His chest felt tight now, pressure building, so he did the one thing that made sense. He opened social media.

    Shane Hollander’s name was everywhere.

    Or

    Shane was hurt in ways everyone could see, and in ways only Ilya would carry.

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    27 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    this story. was everything. FUCK. 11/10

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    26 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    THIS WAS EVERYTHING!!!!!! finished it in like 3 hours which was a record for you. so good. the yearning was immaculate. u were kicking and screaming during some parts. ah.

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    Being a beta has always meant safety for Shane Hollander. No expectations, no instincts, no distractions from hockey.

    Unfortunately, he meets Ilya Rozanov.

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    22 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    yoooo this made my chest hurt while reading. 10/10

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    “I’m sorry, but my answer is no. Someone else might be willing to switch if you ask.”

    “I can’t believe—this is unacceptable! I’m going to call the flight attendant over and get this sorted out right now!”

    Flustered and cornered, Shane injects his Captain Voice into the conversation. “Ma’am, I understand that you’re upset, but I paid for this seat and am going to stay here. You’ll have to find someone else willing to change places or just fly with the seat you booked. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you.”

    She hisses like a goddamn tea kettle, and starts to say, “You are the most selfish man I’ve ever—” when another voice behind her says, “You are blocking my seat. Move.”

    Shane and the woman turn to assess the new arrival. It turns out that his seat partner is well above six feet tall, ripped as hell, and knows how to deliver an excellent bitch face. He’s also the hottest man that Shane has ever seen in real life, including a chance run-in with Jensen Ackles at a Stars game.

    Or, still!famous Shane meets non!famous Ilya on a cursed flight from Ottawa to Boston and kind of (totally) falls in love with him at first sight (and first chirp)

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    22 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ACTUALLY SO FUCKING SOFT AND FLUFFYYYYY. LOVE ITTTT

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

    +++

    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    19 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    THIS WAS SO GOOD FUCK!!!!!!!! 10/10 WILL BE READING AGAIN

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    Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander have hated each other for three seasons. kind of hate where Ilya hit Shane into the boards so hard his ears rang for a week, and where Shane's smile after blocking Ilya's game-winning shot was the most devastating fuck you either had witnessed.

    So when Ilya shows up at Shane’s apartment at 2am on a Tuesday, barely standing, blood dried at his hairline and his hands shaking so badly he can barely knock, Shane doesn’t understand what to do at first, or why Ilya is here, of all places.

    He opens the door.

    Ilya has a split lip, bruises turning dark across his cheekbone, His eyes are hollow in a way Shane’s never seen them before. He tries so hard to hold himself together, there’s something about seeing him like this. Ilya, who’s never been anything but sharp, mean and untouchable, that makes Shane’s chest feel like it’s ready to cave in.

    “Jesus Christ” Shane breathes. “Ilya-”

    “Didn’t know where else to go.” Ilya’s accent is thicker when he’s barely holding on, all his carefully practiced English slipping. He won’t look at Shane. “I-sorry. This was stupid. I’ll-”

    “Who did this to you.”

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    17 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fuck this is amazing

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    A devastating on-ice collision changes everything for Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and everyone who loves them.

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    13 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    had me sobbing from beginning to end. the angst was angsting. so fucking good. read again if you want a good cry.

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    "You are Hunter's boyfriend," the guy says, looming. He's holding a glass of vodka that probably costs more than what Kip earns in a day.

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    09 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Hurt my heart but so good. Bittersweet but sweeter than that? Idk.

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