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    “But we have always kissed, we -”

    “I know.” Shane says, face blushing crimson. “But like I said, I don’t want to do that anymore. We can still see each other, because I like what we do, but we have to keep that part out of it. Please.”

    Ilya breathes in and out. He tries to be rational. Shane’s requesting that something change in their arrangement. It should be a simple answer. Yes. Of course. If that’s a boundary he wants to set, then Ilya should obey it.

    But the feeling of loss is so overwhelming he can barely stomach it.

    or, after Vegas, Shane doesn't let Ilya kiss him anymore when they hook up. Ilya doesn't take it very well.

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    13 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    09 May 2026

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    The kiss is chaste - Shane could almost describe it as shy.

    A little curl of anxiety twists in his gut. What if saying I love you changes things, and not for the better?

    The push, the pull, the rush of their harried days could certainly be the thing that kept Ilya attached to this thing of theirs. Shane’s already admitted that it hasn’t been about the rebellion of it all for him for a while - but Ilya’s made no such disclosures. A burning love confession isn’t exactly as electrifying as the thrill of the chase, after all - and - great, Shane realizes that Ilya came out of the shower to Shane doing the fucking dishes like some bland housewife instead of a sexy Casanova waiting to pounce him for what should be a manically sex-crazed weekend, or whatever.

    Shane’s apt brain quickly concocts a secondary plan.

    Because while Shane Hollander might be bad at relaxing, what he’s not bad at?

    Being a freak in the sheets.

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    04 May 2026

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    “Grigori has never liked that Ilya plays hockey here," Svetlana says. "He has always wanted him to play back in Russia. When he hears about the Ottawa trade, he will be worse than before. You must not let Ilya do this, do you understand?”

    “Would he?” Shane asks.

    “Grigori is dangerous because he is persistent,” Svetlana says. “He wears people down. He makes them small. This is what he did to Ilya’s mama, and he now he does this to Ilya. Ilya can survive it because he is a world away. He will not survive it if Grigori is the only voice in his head all the time.”

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    Or: Grigori Rozanov never develops Alzheimer's. Even from across the globe, he maintains influence over Ilya, his career, and, unknowingly, his relationship.

    Being told that they can't come out makes Shane speed-run being ready to do just that and tell the world that he loves Ilya Rozanov.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    21 Apr 2026