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    All of Shane Hollander's focus is on keeping his head down and graduating from his sports medicine program. He's perfectly content to focus on his studies, happily neglecting parties or meeting girls. But when he's forced to go a club by his friend Hayden Pike, he meets an alluring stranger named Ilya. After their initial encounter, they begin hooking up in secret as Shane grapples with his sexuality.

    There's something strange about Ilya, though. He won't tell Shane where he works or what he does, threatening people seem to follow him around, and most of all, he's constantly plying Shane with expensive gifts. But it's probably nothing. After all, there's no organized crime in Montreal—right?

    OR: Bratva Ilya Rozanov AU!

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    21 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 63

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    Under the leadership of Ilya, the Rozanov Syndicate exploded onto the international drug and finance scene right around the time FBI-hopeful Shane Hollander was caught up on the periphery of a Russian mob hit. It's an opportunity for the FBI to get a man in deep cover. It's an opportunity for Shane to do something great, write history (like he was supposed to do in hockey). It's all perfect.

    But sometimes the stars don't align for the reasons you suspect, and loyalty looks a lot different when you're down in the trenches with the man you love.

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    An undercover Shane/crime boss Ilya AU. There will be violence, there will be emotional pain, and there will be yearning.

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    14 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 60

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    Shane thought love meant safety. Ilya thought love meant control.

    When secrets surface and choices are stolen, Shane is forced to confront the truth about the man he loves and the empire that comes with him. In a world where protection looks like possession and devotion comes at a cost, walking away may be just as dangerous as staying.

    Some loves don’t let go. Some don’t survive the truth.

    A dark, emotionally charged story about love, power, agency, and the dangerous question: can you have both roots and wings?

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    14 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander has always loved hockey, but being a trans man made playing the sport professionally complicated. Instead, he found a way to stay close to the game he loves, working as a physical therapist for some of the league’s top teams.

    When star player Ilya Rozanov takes an interest in him, Shane is determined to keep his distance, afraid of revealing the secret he’s worked so hard to protect.

    The only problem? Shane can’t deny that he’s taken an interest in Ilya too.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    When Shane Hollander looks into the future he sees— not a flat sheet of ice, not that, not anymore, but something equally as empty.

    His backup plan was always to go to university. He hadn't thought he'd ever need it, not really. Especially not near the end, when everything felt so certain. But his grades were good, his mom made sure of that, so when he woke up in the hospital he already knew what he was going to do next. But after?

    There's a standard path people take, he knows, that comes after school. But when he tries to picture it, slot himself into the picket fence and the corporate overhead fluorescents, it disappears. Like it was never going to be real at all.

    (Or: after ending up at a jazz bar to celebrate the end of finals season, Shane Hollander finds himself where he never thought he'd be— in the orbit of NHL superstar Ilya Rozanov.)

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    28 Jan 2026