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Freckles.
From cheek to cheek, right over the bridge of a very tiny button nose.
He knows these freckles. Knows them better than he knows the backs of his own hands, probably.
Which, really, combined with the basket and the blanket and the fact that this happens at least once a season to someone in the league, Ilya’s heart races, then settles as he holds the baby close.
“Well, hello there, my little one.”
AKA wish baby fic
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18 Jan 2026
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call my heart its home by maycollins
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Jan 2026
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Shane wanted to respect Ilya’s request for space. Shane wanted to get the fuck out of here. Shane couldn’t breathe.
Couldn’t move at all. He was frozen - from his lungs to his feet. Everything except his hands which were shaking. He should leave, but he wasn’t even sure how much longer his legs would be able to support him, and driving seemed like a bad idea in this state.
What if Shane stayed after the Boxing Day fight. Basically an exploration of the age old question - what if they just, like, talked about their feelings? (And also went to Bood's party after all).
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15 Jan 2026
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Shane nearly stops himself right there, runs through all of the ways he could navigate away from the question, but when he opens his mouth it comes right out anyway.
"Was he hard on you too?"
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Ilya had been waiting for the other shoe to drop. He just hadn’t expected it to be about this, hadn’t expected, or maybe simply refused to accept, that his father would somehow still hurt him beyond the grave, that the punches and split lips and broken ribs would still, impossibly, ache within him after all this time.
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Shane tries to talk to Ilya about his past. It doesn't go as planned.
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13 Jan 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Jan 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice tiny.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
In Juniors, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are set up as hockey's biggest rivals. There's just one problem - after Shane unexpectedly drops out of the 2009 draft, they both end up being signed by the Boston Raiders. And, as it turns out, it's a lot harder to avoid your feelings for someone when you see them every single day.
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08 Jan 2026
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incredible depiction of autistic shane, which is a win on itself without considering how this au fucking rocks
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Jane: No problem again, sorry. I’ll see you in a few months.
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08 Jan 2026
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Shane's accident isn't enough to stop Ilya from breaking up with him.
Or: an alternate ending to s01e05 with a way more depressed Ilya
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01 Jan 2026
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“Sid, I’m so—I’m sorry,” Geno said. “My stupid—I’m ruin everything, I—”
“Shut up, Geno,” Sidney said, already intensely weary of listening to Geno’s self-recrimination. “You’ve barely even done anything.”
Geno’s voice dropped what sounded like an entire octave. “But I want to.”
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the most remarkable thing about coming home to you (is the feeling of being in motion again) by mentholpainting
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 Jul 2025
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Because here’s the thing about Buck. The thing about Buck is that he likes simple sentences. Easy to follow instructions. When, where, what, how. Buck is smart, of course, and he can understand and infer and deduct from context clues and body language. Technically. Technically, he can do these things. But he prefers not to. He doesn’t like to guess. He doesn’t like to guess, because guessing makes him nervous. And Buck hates being nervous. Doesn’t everyone?
But Buck hates it more than most. Buck likes reassurance, he likes knowing things for certain. Because if he doesn’t know for certain, he’ll stress and he’ll ruminate and he’ll twist himself inside out and backwards wondering and worrying and assuming the worst. And when Buck assumes the worst, he makes terrible decisions. So it’s just easier this way. It’s easier to cut the middle man and for Eddie to decide things for Buck.
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Buck moves out of Eddie's house in Los Angeles. A month later, Eddie and Christopher move back in.
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Once everyone heads off to the bunks after dinner, Buck wastes no time in dragging one of the stools from the kitchen over to the Tetris cabinet, where he, too, settles in as if he were getting into bed.
The cabinet is new but the interface is a replica of the original, and when he boots the monitor up, Buck is faced with pixelated fireworks and a cartoon version of Saint Basil’s Cathedral. He nudges the red joystick and the main menu pops up. The left side of the screen reads YOUR GOAL IS TO FILL LINES!
Buck cracks his knuckles.
or, Buck plays Tetris. And a lot of it.
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Eventually, Eddie clears his throat. “How aren’t you okay exactly?” he asks, voice steady.
“I’m just…” He waves a hand in the air. “I’m just not,” he settles on. “You know, I wanted to be. I really tried. But nothing is helping.” He thinks about what it was like to sit on that floor and know Bobby was going to die. He thinks about what it was like to know he couldn’t do anything about it. “Don’t think I ever really got off that floor.”
Eddie hums. “That sounds rough,” he says, voice strained. Buck can tell he’s holding himself back, and of course he is. They haven’t talked like this before. This was the only way for Eddie to get Buck to open up—and why did it have to be? Why couldn’t Buck just talk to him? “Do you feel stuck there?” he asks. He’s looking down at the clipboard he brought with him. “On that floor?” he clarifies a moment later.
Eddie acts as Buck’s therapist.
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04 Dec 2025
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buck and eddie can't talk. buck and eddie can't talk about bobby. buck and eddie can't talk about themselves. buck can't (won't).
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“So,” says Buck, pulling away from Eddie’s mouth. “I’m living in your house.”
“You are."
“Do you think— I mean, I should do something, right? To show my, uh. Appreciation.”
Eddie squints at him.
“Is this a bit?” he says.
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“Yeah,” Chim said. “Yeah, Maddie’ll be glad to see you. Where’ve you been lately?”
“Yeah,” Eddie said. His tone was pointed. “Been wondering that myself.”
“Oh,” Buck said. “You know.”
“I don’t,” Eddie said. “Actually.”
“At my new place, mostly,” Buck said. Eddie raised his eyebrows.
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OR: in the months after bobby dies, buck gets a new apartment, starts volunteering at the NICU, and going for long walks in the middle of the night. he's dealing. he thinks. probably.
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25 Nov 2025
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one of the best grieving bobby-fics out there
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Eddie tries to peek out the windows to see what's out there as he approaches the door, but Buck moves to obstruct his view. "Hey, uh. So. I found … uh, this piece of furniture, on Marketplace. And if you hate it, it's fine. No biggie! I just … it was such a good deal!"
They don't need more furniture. In fact, they actively need less, so Buck wouldn't buy something new without a really good reason.
"Okay, Buck, I trust you. What did you get?"
"It's … I guess, I mean, um. Well, I think you should just come see." Buck turns around before Eddie can reply and heads out the front door.
Eddie stays hot on his heels for barely even one square of sidewalk, stopping in his tracks when he sees the bright red metal frame that's strapped down in Buck's truck bed. It's upright, so Eddie has a clear view of what Buck picked up for them.
It's bunk beds.
Buck and Eddie try to process their grief about Bobby's death and figure out what they mean to each other, all while squeezed into Eddie's two-bedroom house.
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“I don’t know what to do,” Buck admits, defeated.
Eddie blinks. “You…don’t know how to floss?”
Buck glares at him. “Obviously I know how to floss,” he sasses, which is a good point. Eddie has seen him do it hundreds of times. Buck is very diligent with his oral hygiene. “I just don’t know whether I should. It’s not sexy. I wouldn’t usually, if I - - y’know, historically, at this point,” he says, gesturing between them. “I wouldn’t.”
Or, Eddie is a low maintenance sleeper. Buck tries to explode his snoring strips with his mind.
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I'm falling apart (and all I want is to trust you) by buckleyirondad
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 May 2021
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“Buck—” Eddie breathed as he hurried over, “Hey, Buck—”
Buck lifted his eyes, they widened when he met Eddie’s gaze, “Eddie, I—” He tried to move, but was easily pulled back, “I’m sorry.”
Eddie rushed to reassure, “It’s okay, look…” He got onto one knee, sitting Christopher down, he looped his arms under his son’s, and turned him, so that he was facing Buck, “Look who it is.”
Christopher extended his hand, gently laying it across Buck’s cheek, “Buck.”
OR Eddie and Christopher's reactions to Buck collapsing in 3x03: The Searchers.
Christopher Diaz Week, Day 5: Eddie & Chris + “You’re the most important person.”
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Buck was told, after being struck by lightning, that it would take time for things to heal. That, after dying, he might not feel like himself again right away.
What he hadn’t been told was that he would start seeing his dead brother everywhere he went.
Or: Buck comes back for himself, but he comes back wrong.
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18 Nov 2025
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incredible concept and execution. there's an almost psychological horror feel to this, which was done wonderfully.
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And it’s probably the wrong thing to say, but Christopher is just— he’s so angry, he’s so angry and he wants to lash out at someone.
“I wish you and Dad had never even met!” With that, Christopher actually goes into his room, and Buck doesn’t stop him, or say anything.
He lays down on his bed, burying his face in his pillow, and finally lets out the rest of the tears he’d been holding back.
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or, Christopher makes a wish and the universe grants it
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“I think Buck is pregnant.”
Hen slots her glasses back onto her wrinkled nose and says, “What, can you smell it on him?”
That shakes Eddie out of it a little. “What? No, his birthmark.”
The wrinkled nose is paired with an eyebrow raise, and Hen tilts her head a fraction. “What about his birthmark?” she asks slowly, like she’s talking to a child or a mental patient.
“It kind of…glows?”
Hen, his current captain, his former partner, one of his best friends, looks at Eddie like he’s lost his mind.
“Boy, if you don’t get out of my office so we can go home.”
or, Buck is pregnant. Eddie just doesn't know how to tell him.
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15 Nov 2025
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i don’t believe that time will change your mind by thatbuddie (talktothesky)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
16 Jun 2022
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“What happens to me when you guys get divorced?”
The question is so abrupt it takes Buck a couple of seconds to fully process it.
In that time, Christopher turns his head so his eyes settle on Buck’s and this time Buck doesn’t push away the need to shelter him, he embraces the feeling just as he embraces Christopher, one arm wrapping around Christopher’s shoulders. Christopher leans his body against Buck, and Buck’s heart soars and hurts in equal measures.
“When we— Chris, what?"
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12 Nov 2025
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love how the three of them are written here
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“You don’t have to do that,” Eddie says.
Buck shrugs. “You also don’t have to smile at every person who says ‘she’s in a better place’ like that helps, but here we are.”
The joke is soft, an opening. Eddie almost steps into it. “You’ve already done a lot,” Eddie says instead, faster than he means. “Go sit. Or eat. It’s—”
He hears it lining up and can’t stop it.
“—this is family stuff. I’ve got it.” The words are wrong the second they’re out; he hears them like Buck must. Buck’s hands still on the plate.
Or, Eddie is taking things day by day. Buck has a bit of a breakdown, then a bit of a breakthrough. Chris sees dead people.
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10 Nov 2025
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grief and meeting in the middle!!! soooo beautiful